Shall We Talk?

I know I might not be the perfect one, but I think at least I have did what I could. Sometimes, I would think, are we doing this correctly? Am I taking the right decision at the right time?

It's not the first time I heard things, like I don't have the potential and I also don't seem to possess those abilities to do it right. Yes, I admit it now, I really don't have those potential and abilities that you think I should have.

I used to think I am still the same old me, and what I did was good enough. Think I am overly confident on this matter. I felt sorry for that you have to sacrifice  and that you still didn't get what you think you might get at last.

May be it's time that we should have a talk, shouldn't we? To make things right before its too late.

盛放。凋零。

它，曾经盛放一时

灿烂无比，无人能及

但，从何时起

色彩竟悄悄褪去

它被遗忘、忽视

虽无奈

却也只能含笑离别

花儿、烟火、岁月

无一不稍眼纵逝

它看开、放下

明了

“曾经拥有” 的道理

凋零

是因失去了盛放的理由？

还是

自愿放弃盛放的借口？

只有它知道

退下的一刻

伤感 但 轻松

不舍 但 无悔

它以凋零之姿

舞了一段 完美的圆舞曲

A Short Gathering

I had a gathering with my friends from Kampar yesterday. It was a short meeting starting in the evening, gather together at Midvalley, having tea and chit-chatting while updating each other at the same time. It was a pleasant evening, I enjoyed the conversation and am also glad to be able to share the laughter and joy with them.

It has almost been a year since I have last met with them. Life has getting more busy by days and I am no longer able to visit Kampar again after my last visit about a year ago. I am surprised that how my friends have changed throughout the year.

They have completed their previous phase on time and are moving forward to the next, developing their career and planning for the future development. While I am still the same old me, few steps behind chasing for my dream and working hard to fulfill the goal that I should have reach long time ago. But that day wouldn't be far for me, it is on its way coming, isn't it? I have my faith this time. :)

Some of my girl friends have found the other half for themselves. Truly I am happy for them, especially when I saw how happy are they when talk about their relationship. I also wish those who have yet to find the one, to have found one soon. ;)

Best wishes from me, my friends. Take care and stay happy always. :)

Stressful Days

The day has been very stressful for me recently. Not being able to sleep well at night, worrying about what will be coming up next and whether things will be carrying out smoothly later while on the other hand, there are nightmares along the night. I can only get to sleep well when the first day light is about to break through the sky, but usually that's the time I should get out from my bed and keep on working things out.

I got tired easily nowadays, feel so much wanted to lie on my bed during the day. But I can't seem to get myself to sleep when the night approach. Lying on the bed with dry and sore eyes, body is aching because of pms, mind is tired of running but it doesn't show the sign to slowing down.

This is something new for me, as I never had failed to get into sleep in the past, nor not being able to sleep well at night. No matter what comes ahead, I am always able to get myself some sleep, and in fact I used to cure myself by sleeping and resting. It works everytime, until the magic started to lose these recent days.

I can be easily ignored and I got very impatient nowadays, can't bear things as little as sand. Feeling so much wanted to release my feeling in some way, but not able to. This got me more frustrated, and my temper is getting worst. That is my private corner and it seem so little if compared to the reality in life and the works that yet need to be done.

Back to the real world, there are so much to do yet so little time is available, I must get all the works done before the deadlines. Give me some time and I will work it out, there are still a month ahead................