Reflection

Just want to share a song in this post which has been one of my favourite songs since young. The theme song from the Disney movie - "Mulan". I may seem to have forgot the reason of falling in love with this song, but one thing that never change is that I never get annoyed or bored to listen it even though I have listened for hundred of times. :)

Reflection from "Mulan"

by Christina Aguilera / Coco Lee

Look at me

You may think you see

who I really am

But you'll never know me

Every day

It's as if I play a part

Now I see

If I wear a mask

I can fool the world

But I cannot fool

my heart

Who is that girl I see

Staring straight back at me?

When will my reflection show

who I am inside?

I am now in a world

where I have to

hide my heart

And what I believe in

But somehow

I will show the world

what's inside my heart

And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see

staring straight back at me?

Why is my reflection

someone I don't know?

Must I pretend that I'm

someone else for all time?

When will my reflection show

who I am inside?

There's a heart that must

be free to fly

That burns with a need

to know the reason why

Why must we all conceal

What we think

How we feel?

Must there be a secret me

I'm forced to hide?

I won't pretend that I'm

someone else

For all time

When will my reflection show

who I am inside?

When will my reflection show

who I am inside?

- E.N.D -

I can only found the Christina Aguilera version for the video, although I used to listen to Coco's version. But there is a surprise though, that is I found the Chinese Mandarin version in Youtube while I am actually search for Coco's version. So, here it is, I will share it here as well. Hope you all will like it. :)

Reflection (Chinese Mandarin version)

by Coco Lee

仔细的 看著波光中清晰的倒影

是另一个自己

他属於 我最真实的表情

不愿意 生活中掩饰真心敷衍了

爱我的人的眼睛

我 心中的自己

每一秒 都愿意

为爱放手去追寻

用心去珍惜

隐藏在 心中每一个真实的心情

现在释放出去

我想要 呈现世界前更有力量的

更有勇气的生活

我 眼中的自己

每一天 都相信

活的越来越像我爱的自己

我心中的自己

每一秒 都愿意

为爱放手去追寻

用心去珍惜

只有爱里才拥有

自由气息

诚实 面对自己才有爱的决心

我 眼中的自己

每一天 都相信

活的越来越像我爱的自己

我心中的自己

每一秒 都愿意

为爱放手去追寻

去珍惜 去爱

为爱放手去追寻

用心去珍惜

- E.N.D - 

Basically, I like the music and also found that the lyics is meaningful. I do agree that sometimes a song tells the story. Hope you all like it too. Cheers!! :)

Fate

I am not a superstitious person, but somehow I still hold some belief in fate and destiny. Even though I don't really buy the idea of destined life, still I can't deny the existence of the affection of unknown power. I am not religious over it, just that I believe one's value like determination, persistence, trustworthy, patience, loving, faith and etc have decided one's success in his life. No matter what, as long as you work hard and hold faith in it, one will never get too far from success. :)

There is once, my friend told me, "There is always something that you can't attain, regardless of how hard you work for it. Sometimes things just not meant to be yours. Learn to accept the failure in life even though its bitter and let go." I don't use to accept words like that as it sounds harsh for me. As I used to believe that "When theres a will, theres always a way." So over and over again, I have work hard to prove that I am right. Now that I have succeed and showed that I can do it if I study harder, I can get good grades too.

Sadly it doesn't work well on other things. Other things like relationship and friendship. Salary and good grades will be awarded if I work hard and concentrate in class. But will I get the equal payback if I work hard on friendship and love too?

I sound stupid now and I am fooling myself around for asking silly questions like these. I know the answer is a BIG NO NO. Friendship and Love are feelings that grew by days through caring and loving among people. It can't be calculate using a maths formula, there will never be a fair game. One shouldn't be calculative if you are to gain a good friendship or long-lasting couple.

I have been thinking of these lately. Am I being too calculative towards friends? Am I being too demanding over a relationship? Sometimes I feel like I was being treated as a nobody. Just because I am trying to be considerate and choose not to voice out. I am tired to think on behalf of the others before myself. Do you understand me? The thought of stay-or-leave keep struggling in my mind. I just wish that you would understand more.

May be fate really does exist, even though its unseen and unreachable. I believe its been around us always. Fate made us best friends. Fate has brought us together and let us work it out ourself to the end. Should I still keep faith in it? I need to be convinced that I should, as I am slowly losing it now. Before the fate has also tear us apart.

惭愧

晚饭时 您无意的话语
让我 不自觉地 惭愧起来
奇迹的 让平时伶牙俐齿的我
想不出任何反驳的话

只因 自知理亏
所以 选择了 沉默以对

您 说得对
我确实 是不争气 也没天分
无论怎么 逃避
那都是 不争的事实

不管我 怎么努力
那都是 我心中的阴影
那一块疙瘩 禁地
是我 不愿承认 也不愿 想起的

惭愧 让您们 蒙羞了
羞愧 让您们 担忧了
更心酸 那是您的无心之言

New Year

2010 has finally became a history in 2 days ago. Without any regrets and unhappiness, I said goodbye to 2010. 2010 has left me a lot of happy memories and new experiences.

I am more brave in accepting new challenges. 

I am more daring in fighting for something that I believe in. 

I am better in solving problems by myself. 

I am more calm and confident in dealing with problems. 

I am more independent.

I get to know new friends and going along well with my classmates. 

I get to stay in touch with my besties. 

I visited new places and had different experiences.

I feel happy and glad to see the changes in myself last year. Overall, I have learned a lot and I feel good on that. :)

In 2011, I wish that...

I can complete my degree soon.

My dreams would finally become a reality one day.

My family would always stay happy and healthy.

I would get along well with all my besties and the special one. 

My besties and special one would have gone through all the undercomes smoothly.

Life would become easier for all of us. 

And so the new resolution for 2011...

I will work harder in my studies and also to turning my dream into a reality.

I will spend more time caring for my family.

I will listen more and control my temper.

I will become more understanding and tolerant in dealing with people.

I will improve my tolerance when facing hard times. 

I really do hope I could fulfill the resolutions that I have set up for myself. Well, one of my besties used to say, "Never try, Never know". So let just give it a try, always hope for the best and prepare for the worst. There's always hope.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! Wish you all would have a great year ahead. ;)

想起...

下过雨的夜晚 有点冷
少了皮皮 感觉有点闷
随手把乱放的书本放进橱里
却也不小心 看到了一些不该看的

它 被尘封了许久的东西
不该再出现
为何 会突然出现在眼前

莫名其妙的出现
也让我 莫名其妙的想起

想起 那遥远的
被封锁起来 禁忌的记忆

相信 是无意 也是 不小心
选择 把回忆再次冰封

Sweet memory

What would you think about when talking about Penang? A place full of nice and good food? historical places? ferries? or a walk at the sea side? Well, I would say that I have thought of everything that I have mentioned above, except that this time I would like to add on another one extra on it. That's the sweet memory that I have during my visit to Penang last week. :)

This is not the first time I visit Penang, but its a special one if you would ask me. Yeap, its definitely a special one. Its something that wouldn't usually happen on me, but it did happened this time. That's make me feel lucky 'cause I get to have the chance to enjoy the trip with someone special. ;)

As we know, Penang is a paradise for food lovers. Char kuey teow, Har mee, Asam Laksa, Rojak, Chendol... Yummy!! I could find most of my favourite food here. Hehe.. Honestly, I really do feel happy to enjoy those nice food during the visit. Other than food, I also get to visited some of the historical places in Penang. Such as Toy Museum, Penang State Museum, Fort Cornwallis, the well known Kek Lok Si Temple of course, and so on. 

It's nice to have someone to accompany along the trip. Someone to hold when I walk, someone to hug when I am cold, and someone to stay by my side when I am lost. I found that I am actually need someone to stay with me too. Although I know we will still be apart later, but I do hope that the sweet memory that we have gained from the trip will bound us together. Let it become something that we would treasure for.

I made some wishes at the Kek Lok Si Temple, hoping that everything will go on smoothly and I get to complete my degree courses soon. May the wish come true. No matter how, I believe it would. :)

To the special one, thanks for all the memories that you have gave me. I am grateful for it and it will stay inside my heart forever. I still remember the happy smiling faces that you have inside the photos that we have taken. To be frank, you look nice when you laugh. Don't give up on your smile no matter what comes ahead. Wish you all the best in all the future undercomes and stay happy. You will always have my best wishes. ;)

December

Today is 28th of December 2010, there are 3 more days to go before 2011. I have started to counting down the days to the new year since yesterday, amazed at how the time could pass so effortlessly and coldly leave everything behind without any mercy.

December is one of my favourite months other than September. It's because its a month that full of joy and holidays. School and public holidays, Christmas and New Year... woohoo!! Well, I had a great time spent with my families and friends this December. Visited few places, went for movies and sing k session, gathering with friends... I really enjoy this semester break a lot.

Finished my final early of the month, straight went for movie with friends right after the last paper. Brought cousins for movies the next day before I went for the Sg trip at the weekend. Later went back to my work station for another 2 more weeks. I get to enjoy my holidays again at the end of the month and so I took few days to visit Penang during Christmas. :) I also get to spend a day with my friend on her birthday in the middle of the month. Not to mention I also manage to meet with my besties to have a short gathering last week.

I think thats the summary of the month, overall its a happy month for me. And the best part is I got to save myself a lot of nice memories and its something that I would like to keep in my heart forever. ;)