冷战

理智 它说
情绪管理 是一门很重要的功课
因为 情绪主控了 人的思想和行动力
没了理性的人 和兽没两样

爱恨 愤怒 妒忌 贪心 自尊
是人的 七情六欲 也是可怕的 心魔
只有 理性的人
才能掌控情绪
战胜心魔 驾驭心理 控制渴望 

任性和刁蛮 是对双胞胎
它们说
随心所欲最重要 做人高兴最要紧
跟自己的渴望过不去的 是傻子
它们 实现了 人的渴望
让心魔 堂而皇之的 登堂入室
征服人的 理性

曾经
理智 和 心魔 有过协议
彼此 相铺相成
相安无事了好几个世纪
但
心魔 厌倦了 安乐的日子
太无趣了
于是在双胞胎的 怂恿下
对理智 发起了 攻击

战争 一触即发

措手不及的 理智
几乎全军覆没
不但 讨厌心魔的 不守信
更 痛恨自己被太平盛世的假象蒙骗 而导致的疏忽

心魔大军 事无忌惮地 迈向摇摇欲坠的 城堡
毫不留情地 发起攻击
被囚禁已久的 渴望 得到自由
尽情的 在天空中翱翔 在草地上奔跑
理智 无力地 维护着 仅存的一点 理性
无助地 留守着 曾经坚固无比的 城堡

大军 一步步 逼近
胜利 近在眼前
千钧一发之际
冷静 挺身而出
唤醒了 人的理性 起了防御
阻挡了 大军的前进

大军 暂缓了 攻击
却在 城堡外 驻守
虎视眈眈
等待着 下一次的 突击
期望着 有一天能 进驻城堡

受过 教训的 理智
不敢怠慢地 日夜防守

两族战争 互不相让
情绪 紧绷 拉扯
无言以对 冷战持续

Phase of Life

It is November now, time flew, few more weeks and it will lead us to a brand new year. I am currently doing my degree in Help, nothing much that I could say about it, it's just like carrying a routine job for me. One thing that I wish for, is to complete my degree as soon as possible.

I still remembered, there are times when others tried to console me, I got more frustrated and upset instead of grateful. Why am I having that kind of feeling? Shouldn't I feel better and glad? That time I can't find my words to describe my feeling, bt now I do. It was a mixed feeling of disgustion and irritation. I felt disgusted with myself when people console me, as if they are sympatizing. I don't need anyone's sympathy. I felt helpless when I found that I can't solve it myself. But I refuse to get help from the others, mum said I am stubborn. Well, may be she was right, I am stubborn. Afterall, I am still me, the one and only me.

There are some times, when I think I can't stand it anymore and that I will get emotional break down anytime soon. I shared my experience and feelings with my besties, surprisingly I found that I am not the only one who face this kind of problem. So later we had come out with a conclusion, that it was just a phase of lifes that we have to go through at least once a while. Sounds sad huh? Life is really tiring, agree no?

I think I am currently having the phase where I can get depress easily. I got upset and angry over some small matter, just because I am too frustrated. I cried over for nothing, just because its the only way I can release my mixed feeling. I got either extremely depressed or extremely hyper, its just too emotional until I can't control it. My besties told me that I need to learn to take it easy, don't over stress on myself. I agreed with her, think I really need to take a break. Somehow, I still have to go through it myself. Sadly, we can't ask help from the others. As we know that, no one could help even though they are willing to. Reality is cruel and only the strongest could survive. And life as we know, is the best teacher.