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<< beLIEve >>, thr r alwiz LIE in between d believe...

So wt can i say bout it? tat d real world is full of lies and ppl cant live without depending on lying?

Honestly, i know its pessimistic for me to thk like tat.. bt to sum extent, i thk d quote is perfectly true and yet sad.. Its like losing faith in everything tat u hv used to believe in..

Yes... i admit tat i m losing my faith nw.. bit by bit.. i m losing it... its sad for me to say tat... bt sumhw its true..

I used to tel myself nt to hv expectations in order nt to get myself disappointed later... bt stil i wil alwiz expect for sth more... n i hv put my hope on it... >.< even though i noe tat at last thr is a high chance for me to get disappointment.... then m i stupid to hope for it?

I oso used to tel myself tat thr r alwiz choices for us to make... n thr wil alwiz hope at d dead end... all it need is jz a little faith n courage... bt hr cums d Q nw... hw many of us can really hv faith wiv d heart n soul? u might choose to trust it... bt ur faith in it wil nt stay long... as u wil face a lot of obstacles which wil challenge ur faith within it... so hw many of us could actually manage to keep their faith till d end?

I m sure most of us hv experienced it b4.. including myself of cz.. i cant say tat i m strong.. bt i would said tat i hv learned my lesson well... I failed it once n it took me quite sum time to recover b4 i could started to build my confidence n faith agin... so i will nt allow myself to fail for d 2nd time...

Some of u might disagree wiv my opinion n might oso thk tat i m jz thinking a lil too much... bt i jz wana say tat everyone learn fr their past experience n grow fr their failure.. so do i...

There is a fren who once asked me, "i wonder who can ever enter into ur safe zone?"... does he jz said safe zone?? sounds like a battlefield to me nw.. lol.. =p bt honestly i was surprised tat he could act said tat out... may b he was right nway.. i hv alwiz hide inside my safe zone.. used to keep a fair distance wiv everyone except myself n sum of my besties.. n used to avoid n ignore any unexpected things tat happened around me.. tats bcz i noe tat as long as i stay inside d zone, i wil b safe... is tat so? o its jz a coward n stupid act of me?

It's 1.30am n i thk i shud go sleep by nw... wish tat tmr wil b a brand new day... nitez..

To mY BeLovEd...

Just finished my Adv PM mid term paper an hour ago... hopefully i can pass it nway... praying hard since yesterday till i finish d paper... LOL... bt i thk my hard work was paid tis time.. cz UNEXPECTEDLY, i can answer d Qs given... THANK GOD!! =p I m nt sure whether i will get marks for it, bt still i m happy tat i can answer it. hehe..

So.. i hv decided to write a post for my beloved ones... =p Jz to let them noe hw "deep" my love was to them and honestly, i REALLY do hope they will LOVE me as much as i did... XD

Here it goes!!!

To my beloved APM,

U will nvr noe hw much i hate ur younger brother b4 i get to noe u... he is stubborn, unpredictable, hard to please and demanding... i tot i would nvr understand him... BUT d truth proves me wrong as i got d return fr him at last... phew!! LUCKY me!! hehe... i oso tot i will nvr met his families agin after i had broke up wiv him... but AGAIN d truth proves me WRONG!! cz i met U!!! Honestly, i was scared and panic wen i noe tat i hv to face wiv u for 4 months... i m afraid tat i will fail u agin... bt i will do my best to love u more after today.. so plz show me another miracle, will ya? ^^

To my beloved RM,

I still rmb when i met u for d 1st time... u r nth bt dull, bored, and quiet... sorry to say tat... tats my 1st impression on u... ^^ " i tot i will nvr love sumone like u... bt i found tat i started to love u more after i got to noe more about u... n so nw i m working hard on understand more about u... i believe tat u will not disappoint me... so plz start to love me if u haven... n love me more if u already did!! =p

To my beloved M1,

This is our second relationship, i nvr tot tat v will end our 1st in tat way.. = ( bt its OK!!!! i will prove my love to u again since i was given d 2nd chance to do so.. i will try my best to understand u.. BELIEVE me!!! n plz love me as i did to u... i hope tat our relationship could hv a nice ending tis time... preferably for this semester of cz.. XD so plz bear wiv me for another 4 weeks... promise tat u will show me ur love then... n i m sure tat will b d best i can get from u...  ^^

To my beloved POM,

I have met u few times b4... so i could say tat thrs a strong bond between us... u r one of my necessity and belief.. so hw could i ever let u down?? LOL... =p i couldn't proceed without u... plz help me to get out from tis hell n lead me to a brighter path... i m counting on u!!! so plz dun let me down, promise? hehe..=p


Sincerely,
WenBin ^.~

tHe InDeciSivE ME

It's week 11 of my study week, after so much effort and hard work tat i paid... (wiv all those "lovely-little-red spots" and oso a pair of "sexy-looking-smokey-eye" makeup on my face)... LOL... FINALLY i left wiv oni 2 presentations, 2 mid term papers, and 1 assignment to go.. lol.. though i noe tat thrs still A LOT of work undone.. bt sumhw i still thk tat its better than d last 2 weeks ago. ^^

Frens, plz bear wiv me for another few more weeks, n i promise i will b total free to meet up wiv u gals. hehe.. =p Then v can go for shopping.. yc session.. food hunting.. trip.. yes!! lalalala... I am kinda excited wenever i thk bout it.. lol.. XD

I will be sitting for my final exam in another 3 weeks time, which oso means tat its d end of d sem. I oso noe tat its time tat i shud hv make up my mind. sighz... n tats wen i noe tat hw indecisive i m act. *sad... Sumtimes i wonder wts act in my mind, can thr b a possibility tat i dun even noe it myself? Honestly, i thk i m act... =.=

Yea.. without any doubt, I thk i m jz a COWARD afterall.. alwiz chickened out at d vy last mins.. n I m oso a SELFISH person... will oni thk bout me n myself all d time.. wt else? Yes... i m STUPID too.. alwiz can't make d right decision.. *sighz... thk i m jz hopeless huh.. >.< "

I hv no idea wiv wth i m thinking nw... my mind was plain blank.. can't even see whr is d nxt step tat i shud take.. does tat make me look more stupid n silly? As usual AGAIN.. i thk i m.. =.= I m nt sure wts bothering me n restraining me fr making d move.. I thk i do feel sth.. bt is it really wt i wan? n is it really wt i shud do? I m jz so confused...

I thk i shud really spend sum time to thk bout it seriously. Wish tat everything will go on smoothly nway... tats all i hope for nw..  =)

it'S jUsT a "LITTLE".....

*sigH... siGH... sIGHzzzzz...... =.= gosh.. wts goin on wiv me? plz dun ask me, cz i dun even noe d answer myself... ishh... >.< thk i m jz feeling a LITTLE stressful... a LITTLE tired... a LITTLE frustrated and... and... and... a LITTLE xxxx .... Erm... xxxx? wt izit act? WELL... thk i m goin to keep tis lil secret for my own... deep down inside my heart... LOL =p plz forgive me frens.. din mean to keep secret fr u all... bt sumtimes v do hv sum darkest n unrevealable lil secret of our own.. hehe... i m sure all of us hv it.. agree? ^.~

Its mid of March nw... time really does fly... jz a clip of d eyes n POFF!!! its nw March 2010... haha... thk v nvr need a Harry Potter in d real life to cast d spell... cz d time will alwiz pass by magically n left us wiv regrets n oso LOTS of things undone. =p March is nt my lucky month... i hv few assignments on hand, two interviews and two individual presentation to go, and... yea... i still hv to sit for my mid term. tat's jz GREAT!!! n i m still blogging hr.. altho i noe tat i still hv so much works to catch up. >.< ishhh... nway its ok!!! tats wt i m used to tell myself... i will b FINE!!! i will get through it no matter hw!!! jz like wt i did d lasT time.. d laST LAST time... n d lAST LAST LAST time... lol.. YES!!! I CAN also DO IT tis time for sure!!! ^^v

Then y i still hv tis kind of feeling nw? even though i already know wt i shud do and i hv decided tat i will do my best for it. But deep inside my heart, i noe tat thrs sth vy important. It jz make me feel so uncertain n unsecure... why?? thk i wouldn't noe...

I know i do sounds a LITTLE emotion unstable nw.. =.=" bt without any doubt and hesitation, i can tell u tat i m completely fine nw.. jz a LITTLE xxxx act... arghhh... honestly i hate tis kind of feeling tat i m having nw... >.<" i shudn't let it get into my studies... i shudn't let it affect my feeling... i oso shudn't let it run in my mind alwiz... i shudn't.... OK!! TAT'S ENOUGH!!! wish tat i could cope wiv it REAL SOON.... yea... HOPEFULLY...

Alright frens... thk u all mz b confused wiv wth i m talking hr nw... surprised tat hw i noe? BELIEVE me... i really do noe cz i m jz feeling d same rite nw... =p

iT's ManGoLiciOus!!!

Today was a fine day for me.. everythings is fine.. n as usual, except d weather of cz.. =.=

I went to MANGO MANIA wiv mei today... hehe.. its located in Bangsar, right behind Bangsar Village 2.. ^^ It's a nice place... cz they sell everything made by MANGO!!!! They hv MANGO smoothie, MANGO ice cream, MANGO cheesecake... even MANGO BURGER!! lol... its a paradise for mango lover like us... muahaha... =p Me and mei hv ordered smoothie (cube cube mango and tropical smoothie), asian mango salad, fish and chips, and finally v round it up wiv a piece of mango cheesecake.. which we love it d most.. ^^

We had sum "photo shooting session" at d restaurant as usual... wiv all those foods and drinks.. n i really dont thk its a gd idea... lol.. as v looked so "piggy" in d photo taken.. u noe wt i mean.. haha... omg.. n nw i m started to feel guilty cz stuffed all those things into stomach.. =p

I usually eat A LOT wen hang out wiv mei... as v both likes to eat... (especially nice n special foods...) lol... thk its kinda obvious.. u can easily see it fr our size... haha.. =p The food in Mango Mania is nice... altho its quite fattening.. n u might hv a high chance in getting diabetes later.. ^^ " bt overall, its really nice... ^^ if u ask me whether i wil visit Mango Mania agin... my answer would b a definite "YES"!! hehe...

We oso went to d boutiques nearby tat area... saw sum nice clothes n bags.. bt sadly, hv no money for tat.. =.= * sighz... v used nt more than 3 hrs to walk through Bangsar Village 1 n 2 and oso a few boutiques nearby.. n d worst is v started to get sleepy.. so later v hv decided to find a place to yc..

I got my lessons learned... will try nt to look at d menu nxt time wen wana make my order.. lol... cz seems like our eyes is kinda "sensitive" to desserts... n v couldn't resist bt to order it.. >.< " so v hv ordered another piece of cheesecake agin.. oni tis time no more mango.. haha.. v spend d rest of d day in d cafe.. chatted a lot... n oso GOSSIP  a lot.. (AS USUAL... lol...) n v called it off a day after d yc session.. ^^

I would say tat it's my MaNgoLiciOus day!!!

My unLucKy day

Today was a really bad day for me. *sigh... I had woke up early in the morning, then drove for more than half an hour juz to attend my math tutorial class.. and u noe wt? my "brilliant" maths tutor chose to cancel the class for sum stupid reason.. (he told us tat he is still stuck in d traffic sumwhr near Putrajaya).. =.=" wt a irresponsible tutor!! Don't he noe tat we have waited him for an hour inside the class..? (wiv most of us minds still wondering around and sum chit-chatting..) hoping tat he would show up at last as he promised during d lecture.. and d best part is tat he asked us to join the 2nd tut class at 12.30pm.. (ACCORDING to wt he said, he would PROBABLY b thr by tat time..) wtf...

Most of d student choose to leave d class.. (including me of cz.. =p) which i thk tats perfectly normal response... wt else could u expect fr us if d turor himself couldn't keep his promise?? That was my 1st unlucky incident 2day..

Secondly, i planned to cook myself seafood yee mee for dinner.. and i had prepare all d ingredients for it.. when i wana start cooking, i found tat thrs no water supply =.=" WUT..THE...!! so me n my mum have to go out for dinner.. after all the discussion and arguement (apparently we hv our own preference place for dinner...ishhh...) we hv decided to go for kopitiam.. (which we can find most type of d food tat can satisfy us..)

By the time i reached d makan place and finally parked my car, d parking lot guy (which is an indian) approached me.. i tot he wana ask parking fee fr me.. bt d 1st thing he told me is tat my car tyre punctured.. OMG!! (tis is my 3rd unlucky incident 2day..wth!!) luckily tat indian guy had offered his help to replace d tyre for me.. bt my car tools is nt complete.. d most important tools which can help to lift up my car is MISSING!! =.= d indian guy leave no choice bt to ask help fr his frens.. later 2 other indian guy came wiv their tools n help me to replace d tyre.. THANKS to them A LOT!! if nt.. i dun thk i m manage to handle it myself.. as i didn't noe hw to replace a tyre.. ^^ "

I tot of paying them for their kindness, bt they didn't wan to receive it... so all i can do is to repeat my thank you to them few times, to show them hw grateful m i for their help... ^^ (its wen i truly feel tat d "one malaysia" vision is nt oni a dream.... =p) n i thk its my 2nd lucky 2day except d rain falls in d late noon... lol...

Life was like a box of chocolate, you never know what you're gonna get...

by Forrest Gump

I truly agree tat.. bt too much sweetness can alwiz cause diabetes.. =p lol... jz like our life, a little surprises can alwiz helps spice up our day n make it more beautiful n challenging.. BUT... TOO MUCH surprises can alwiz cause HEART ATTACK... lol... =p

I thk tats all i need to say to conclude my day... its really nt a gd day for me.. bt sumhow thrs ALWIZ HOPE AT D DEAD END... so one shud NVR STOP HOPING and DREAM BIG... ^.~