Blessed

The twisted string had finally broke down, without any notice or warning. It all happened in sudden. Leaving me with no choice, but to run away from the current. Driving alone on the way home again, feeling like it is a never ending road, which has no destination to be reached. A voice pop up in my head, leading me along the way to my grandma's house.

I sat beside her, her clear eyes staring at me, as if she knows everything about me, without asking. I listened to her soft voice, asking me repeatedly, Have I eaten? Am I hungry? I felt so much wanted to shed my tears, and tell her how upset I was, when I looked into her eyes. My toughness can shattered easily in front of her. As I know I will always be a crying baby for her, and always needed her to console me even though I am a grown up now. I would say her presence, itself is the best consolation to me.

She talked to me softly, although she has been repeating the same thing over and over again for most of the time, but still I feel warm listening to her. She placed her hand on my lap, while falling asleepy slowly. I stared at her sleeping face, so calm and quiet, as if she has nothing to worry about.

Later, you came into the room, telling me stories about your past experiences, while asking me to stay strong no matter what comes ahead along the life journey. "Becasue there is nothing to be afraid of", you said.

I am happy that I have her, who has always tried her best to guide us with her advcices and to make us feel better.

Then you came and shared ideas with me on the lastest smart phone and tablet. Told me about the smart phone that you wanted to have, and asking me for suggestions. That noon, I received your call after I reached home. You wanted to know whether I am interested in going for an oversea trip. "You should take a walk at some other places, and to have new experiences, because you are a grown up now", you said. You told me to ask from you, when I have made up my mind.

I am glad to have him, who has always tried his best to grant me my wishes, even when I didn't ask for it.

Tears shed uncontrollably, as I hung up the phone. I am touched with the meaning behind the words that you all have tried so hard to deliver, wanted me to know that happiness is the greatest treasure of life. I had never thought that, my sour face would be that obvious to you, as I don't used to reveal myself in front of you all. My silly con might had me well covered in front of others and even to myself, but obviously not to you, as you could always spot my sadness easily in just a sight.

 

And I am most glad to still have her by my side, when I am upset and disappoint.

I know I am always the blessed one, when I have you all.