又到了十二月份，一年又即将成为过去，好快。最近，很多雨。每每过了中午时段，天就开始黑了，那下雨的气氛不断在酝酿，接近下午时份，就会下起雨来。
雨，或大或小，都能很适时地让我的心情好起来。听在不喜欢雨的人耳里，我或许很怪。因为雨天，通常让人情绪低落，让好心情蒙上一层阴霾。在某种程度上，我是认同的，但更多时候，雨为我扫除了坏情绪，所以我还是喜欢它。
我开始认同朋友说的话，原来年纪大了，就会变得唠叨的道理。虽然还没到白发的时候，但却感到心境已经开始变得老成、计较， 然后很多小时候的情景，都已经记不起来了。这才发现，毕竟不是小孩了。不再像以前，能对不公不平的事当作过眼云烟；也不再像以前，能睡醒一觉就忘记不开心的事，然后一笑置之。相反，还要唠叨个几遍，或闹个情绪，才肯罢休。这种生活，真没趣，不是吗？
不断在反省，为何会变得如此不冷静。或许人越在乎，就会变得越计较吧；就因为在乎，所以才会有感触吧。此刻，竟开始有点明白妈的感受。不想承认，情绪已被牵引，但它确实是在发生。我知道，不能再逃避了。既然不能置之不理，倒不如诚实面对吧。偶尔的对感觉俯首称臣，不算失败吧？
雨变小了，晚霞残余的阳光从云层透了出来。太阳雨，一个雨和阳光并存的现象；也是人的两面，感性与理性的并存。就像正负阴阳，相辅相成，缺一不可，只要达到平衡点就好。
雨还在下，但阴霾不见了。:)
Just a piece of thought to be shared... Just some memories to remind the present...
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Blessed
The twisted string had finally broke down, without any notice or warning. It all happened in sudden. Leaving me with no choice, but to run away from the current. Driving alone on the way home again, feeling like it is a never ending road, which has no destination to be reached. A voice pop up in my head, leading me along the way to my grandma's house.
I sat beside her, her clear eyes staring at me, as if she knows everything about me, without asking. I listened to her soft voice, asking me repeatedly, Have I eaten? Am I hungry? I felt so much wanted to shed my tears, and tell her how upset I was, when I looked into her eyes. My toughness can shattered easily in front of her. As I know I will always be a crying baby for her, and always needed her to console me even though I am a grown up now. I would say her presence, itself is the best consolation to me.
She talked to me softly, although she has been repeating the same thing over and over again for most of the time, but still I feel warm listening to her. She placed her hand on my lap, while falling asleepy slowly. I stared at her sleeping face, so calm and quiet, as if she has nothing to worry about.
I sat beside her, her clear eyes staring at me, as if she knows everything about me, without asking. I listened to her soft voice, asking me repeatedly, Have I eaten? Am I hungry? I felt so much wanted to shed my tears, and tell her how upset I was, when I looked into her eyes. My toughness can shattered easily in front of her. As I know I will always be a crying baby for her, and always needed her to console me even though I am a grown up now. I would say her presence, itself is the best consolation to me.
She talked to me softly, although she has been repeating the same thing over and over again for most of the time, but still I feel warm listening to her. She placed her hand on my lap, while falling asleepy slowly. I stared at her sleeping face, so calm and quiet, as if she has nothing to worry about.
Later, you came into the room, telling me stories about your past experiences, while asking me to stay strong no matter what comes ahead along the life journey. "Becasue there is nothing to be afraid of", you said.
I am happy that I have her, who has always tried her best to guide us with her advcices and to make us feel better.
Then you came and shared ideas with me on the lastest smart phone and tablet. Told me about the smart phone that you wanted to have, and asking me for suggestions. That noon, I received your call after I reached home. You wanted to know whether I am interested in going for an oversea trip. "You should take a walk at some other places, and to have new experiences, because you are a grown up now", you said. You told me to ask from you, when I have made up my mind.
I am glad to have him, who has always tried his best to grant me my wishes, even when I didn't ask for it.
Tears shed uncontrollably, as I hung up the phone. I am touched with the meaning behind the words that you all have tried so hard to deliver, wanted me to know that happiness is the greatest treasure of life. I had never thought that, my sour face would be that obvious to you, as I don't used to reveal myself in front of you all. My silly con might had me well covered in front of others and even to myself, but obviously not to you, as you could always spot my sadness easily in just a sight.
And I am most glad to still have her by my side, when I am upset and disappoint.
I know I am always the blessed one, when I have you all.
Friday, November 25, 2011
Hidden Feelings
New semester had started officially 3 weeks ago, coming week will be the 4th. Everything seems to have going on smoothly as it was planned, truly I am glad for that. Recently I had these mixed feelings, not sure how and what should I describe them as. The only thing that matters is that I don't feel comfortable with it.
I am always bad in terms of describing my own feelings, didn't know how to define them, nor to categorize them into the range of feelings. Worry? Angry? Tension? Jealousy? Upset? Envy? Lost? Whatever it is or might be, it just sound the same to me; although I know each of them is unique and have different affection on our feelings. I don't seem to be able to differentiate them as an individual one, as I used to feel the same whichever one of them strikes on me.
One thing that I am sure is that these are bad feelings, which will cause my mood to swing for at least a day. My emotional management is not as good as I thought, even though I have tried so hard to control. My mood still can be affected easily by the people around me, especially someone closed. It made me a emotional person, when I am with the closest one. The feelings become uncontrollable as I got closer to them. Somehow in a way, it scares me. I couldn't imagine what can I do, if I were to lost them one day.
The only best way that sound is for me to keep a fair distance. I will not confess to it, even though that means I will have to lie to myself. And even though it might also meansyou will never know, that I actually do care...
I don't know why I wanted to do so, but somehow it made me feel better. May be that's who I really am, never know how to deal with the feelings and can easily get myself lost in it, also ended up hurting those around me. It seems to be the only thing that I can do now, except to run away from it.
I am always bad in terms of describing my own feelings, didn't know how to define them, nor to categorize them into the range of feelings. Worry? Angry? Tension? Jealousy? Upset? Envy? Lost? Whatever it is or might be, it just sound the same to me; although I know each of them is unique and have different affection on our feelings. I don't seem to be able to differentiate them as an individual one, as I used to feel the same whichever one of them strikes on me.
One thing that I am sure is that these are bad feelings, which will cause my mood to swing for at least a day. My emotional management is not as good as I thought, even though I have tried so hard to control. My mood still can be affected easily by the people around me, especially someone closed. It made me a emotional person, when I am with the closest one. The feelings become uncontrollable as I got closer to them. Somehow in a way, it scares me. I couldn't imagine what can I do, if I were to lost them one day.
The only best way that sound is for me to keep a fair distance. I will not confess to it, even though that means I will have to lie to myself. And even though it might also means
I don't know why I wanted to do so, but somehow it made me feel better. May be that's who I really am, never know how to deal with the feelings and can easily get myself lost in it, also ended up hurting those around me. It seems to be the only thing that I can do now, except to run away from it.
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
The Moment
It's a minute away from 11 at night, and its raining out there. The weather is so comfortably cooling and I bet I will have another good-night-sleep later.
I don't feel like doing anything at this moment, except to enjoy the dizzling sound of the rain while writing down my feeling in this post. I turned down a few invitations recently, thinking of may be I am just not ready to face all these yet.
At this moment, I would just want to enjoy my peace and quiet life. I am surprised with my own thought, this just doesn't sound like me anyway. But, this time I do and just feel a bit tired to face the crowd.
May be I will need some time before I settle myself and to finally get ready. Time will always do its trick, I know. Just let me enjoy this quiet moment for a little longer, I am sure I will be fine and back as normal then. ;)
xoxo
I don't feel like doing anything at this moment, except to enjoy the dizzling sound of the rain while writing down my feeling in this post. I turned down a few invitations recently, thinking of may be I am just not ready to face all these yet.
At this moment, I would just want to enjoy my peace and quiet life. I am surprised with my own thought, this just doesn't sound like me anyway. But, this time I do and just feel a bit tired to face the crowd.
May be I will need some time before I settle myself and to finally get ready. Time will always do its trick, I know. Just let me enjoy this quiet moment for a little longer, I am sure I will be fine and back as normal then. ;)
xoxo
Monday, November 7, 2011
心距
今天，您崩溃了。我心目中，那可以撑过所有困难，解决所有难题的巨人，终于倒下了。为什么？
您不发一语，只愿躲在自己的世界里流泪，像一只困在山洞里，受伤的兽。为何这画面，如此熟悉？
后来，我明白了。那是因为，像极了从前的我。想到这，心好痛。
心酸，您的承受；心痛，您的沉默；更心疼，您的刻意疏远。为什么？
一句又一句，为什么，从我口中问出。
虽能力有限，但仍想关心；虽帮不上忙，但仍想知道。
您的伤心，让我联想起我的不足。我让您费心了、难过了、受委屈了，是吗？是这样吗？
您的沉默，让我怀念起以前，那无所不谈、畅所欲言的时候。我们之间的距离，看似很近，但其实很远。
因为，最遥远的距离，是心的距离。
我们都不再享受分享和谈话，取而代之的，是不满和猜疑。为什么？又从何时起？
其实，我好想让您知道，我不止想去了解和明白您的感受；同样的，我也想您关心我。
因为，互相了解和体谅是双方的。
您曾经是那么的开朗坚强，伤心哭泣不适合您。但为什么？难道开心真的那么难？
我们只希望看您开心的过日子，顺其自然，不该烦的就让它去吧，别什么事都往背上扛。
而我，只期望着您打开心，放下身段，和身边的人多聊聊，别让心距把你隔离。
送上一首潘玮柏和苏芮的“我想更懂你”。
您不发一语，只愿躲在自己的世界里流泪，像一只困在山洞里，受伤的兽。为何这画面，如此熟悉？
后来，我明白了。那是因为，像极了从前的我。想到这，心好痛。
心酸，您的承受；心痛，您的沉默；更心疼，您的刻意疏远。为什么？
一句又一句，为什么，从我口中问出。
虽能力有限，但仍想关心；虽帮不上忙，但仍想知道。
您的伤心，让我联想起我的不足。我让您费心了、难过了、受委屈了，是吗？是这样吗？
您的沉默，让我怀念起以前，那无所不谈、畅所欲言的时候。我们之间的距离，看似很近，但其实很远。
因为，最遥远的距离，是心的距离。
我们都不再享受分享和谈话，取而代之的，是不满和猜疑。为什么？又从何时起？
其实，我好想让您知道，我不止想去了解和明白您的感受；同样的，我也想您关心我。
因为，互相了解和体谅是双方的。
您曾经是那么的开朗坚强，伤心哭泣不适合您。但为什么？难道开心真的那么难？
我们只希望看您开心的过日子，顺其自然，不该烦的就让它去吧，别什么事都往背上扛。
而我，只期望着您打开心，放下身段，和身边的人多聊聊，别让心距把你隔离。
送上一首潘玮柏和苏芮的“我想更懂你”。
Friday, November 4, 2011
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Run! WB, Run!!
Someone asked,
What would you do if you are provided with a chance to run?
I answered,
I would run as fast as I can.
Someone asked again,
Wouldn't you feel tired if you always have to run that fast?
I said,
Yes, I would.
Someone then asked,
If so, why don't you stop and rest?
I said,
I tried but I can't. I will lost if I stop.
Someone asked again,
Would you still running, even if you have to sacrifice something you treasured the most?
I started to hesitate and answered,
That would depend on what do I need to sacrifice.
Finally someone asked,
What's your purpose of running?
I said,
To run away fromwhere am I now, to run away from my role and responsibilities, and to run away to have a new life.
Someone asked,
Would you be happy if you are to run away successfully? Are you running with no regrets?
Again I hesitated and said,
No, I think I will not be happy and I will regreted it one day to be such a coward.
Someone then said,
If so, please don't run. Stop and listen to your heart. Follow the way where the heart lead you to. Think twice before you make the decision and don't ever let the others to get into your way after you have made up your mind. The key is to never make yourself regret for what you have once decided. Remember to always run for your dreams and not tohide yourself from the reality, but in contrast, run over it bravely.
What would you do if you are provided with a chance to run?
I answered,
I would run as fast as I can.
Someone asked again,
Wouldn't you feel tired if you always have to run that fast?
I said,
Yes, I would.
Someone then asked,
If so, why don't you stop and rest?
I said,
I tried but I can't. I will lost if I stop.
Someone asked again,
Would you still running, even if you have to sacrifice something you treasured the most?
I started to hesitate and answered,
That would depend on what do I need to sacrifice.
Finally someone asked,
What's your purpose of running?
I said,
To run away from
Someone asked,
Would you be happy if you are to run away successfully? Are you running with no regrets?
Again I hesitated and said,
No, I think I will not be happy and I will regreted it one day to be such a coward.
Someone then said,
If so, please don't run. Stop and listen to your heart. Follow the way where the heart lead you to. Think twice before you make the decision and don't ever let the others to get into your way after you have made up your mind. The key is to never make yourself regret for what you have once decided. Remember to always run for your dreams and not to
Run without looking back, because there will never be a way back then.
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Chef Lee?!!?
I was wondering when did I become so initiative in preparing dinner for my family, the last meal that I had prepared was tomato spaghetti, if my memory serves me correctly. *lol Well, I could say I am not a hardworking girl in terms of house-keeping and cooking. In short, I am kind of lazy in houseworks. It would depend on my mood though, if for me to prepare meal. But eventually, today is the day that I had a really good mood, cause I thought of cooking the dinner for me and my mum.
The menu was set as Butter Grilled Salmon with Mashed Potato and Green Salad with Balsamic Sauce. Think I have watched too much cooking show, that I got the idea to name my dish. The ingredients are butter, salmon, potatoes, fresh greens, tomatoes, mini bell peppers and lemon. While the seasoning are salt, black pepper, lemon, butter, and balsamic sauce pack. Got home from the supermarket around 4pm, cleaned and prepared the ingredients, rest before I start to prepare around 5.45pm.
The dish is actually kind of easy to be prepared, it only took about 45 minutes to get everything on the table. Both me and my mum are satisfied with the dish served, and I am happy that my 1st try on preparing salmon meal would be a great success. ;)
The menu was set as Butter Grilled Salmon with Mashed Potato and Green Salad with Balsamic Sauce. Think I have watched too much cooking show, that I got the idea to name my dish. The ingredients are butter, salmon, potatoes, fresh greens, tomatoes, mini bell peppers and lemon. While the seasoning are salt, black pepper, lemon, butter, and balsamic sauce pack. Got home from the supermarket around 4pm, cleaned and prepared the ingredients, rest before I start to prepare around 5.45pm.
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| The ingredients |
The dish is actually kind of easy to be prepared, it only took about 45 minutes to get everything on the table. Both me and my mum are satisfied with the dish served, and I am happy that my 1st try on preparing salmon meal would be a great success. ;)
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| The final outcome - looks not bad huh? ;D |
I think I am getting a bit too excited with the meal, that I made a joke by referring myself as Chef Lee. ;p I know I am not a real chef, but as a joke, I think it was fine to refer me that way, at least for the night. *lol
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Private Corner
I had this sudden urge to write at this late hour. I doesn't seem to have much thoughts to express, nor I have much words to say. Just a feeling to write, at this sleepless night, hoping that I could gain myself some peaceful thought before I finally throw myself on bed and get some sleep.
Semester break had started officially right after I done with the presentation. Its a long semester break though, may be a bit too long I think. I tried to keep myself busy even though there is really nothing much that I can do during the holidays. But still there are so much time left, which I can use it to think, whenever I have nothing to get busy on.
I think of my future, my friends, my families, my special one, my dreams... and this strange feeling came across, I had finally came to realize a truth.
My toughness and strength had no doubt supported me along the way, but at the same time, it had shut part of me into a private place. A place where I used to hide my bad feelings and unhappy thoughts. A place where I store my tears and the soft-sided me. It is such a secret place, that I chose to shut all my sensitive feelings and thoughts in. I ignore it even it had pound million times a day to remind me that I am actually someone sensibility.
Its a private corner where I used to lock the other side of me. I don't use to open it up to others, except my very best friend. It had moments when it don't want to be reach, even myself. A little distance and space will always make it feel better, when it come to sensitive matters. It is my loyal servant that will always tell me the truth whenever it thinks that I am ready and my secret will always be safe with it.
People has tried to reach for it, but few of them stay, after failed of trying. Somehow, there is this person who could always make it speak and share. I am amazed on how he can always do the trick, it had tried to ignore the magic he did, but mostly failed. It has the feeling that it might be time for it to open up.. :)
Semester break had started officially right after I done with the presentation. Its a long semester break though, may be a bit too long I think. I tried to keep myself busy even though there is really nothing much that I can do during the holidays. But still there are so much time left, which I can use it to think, whenever I have nothing to get busy on.
I think of my future, my friends, my families, my special one, my dreams... and this strange feeling came across, I had finally came to realize a truth.
My toughness and strength had no doubt supported me along the way, but at the same time, it had shut part of me into a private place. A place where I used to hide my bad feelings and unhappy thoughts. A place where I store my tears and the soft-sided me. It is such a secret place, that I chose to shut all my sensitive feelings and thoughts in. I ignore it even it had pound million times a day to remind me that I am actually someone sensibility.
Its a private corner where I used to lock the other side of me. I don't use to open it up to others, except my very best friend. It had moments when it don't want to be reach, even myself. A little distance and space will always make it feel better, when it come to sensitive matters. It is my loyal servant that will always tell me the truth whenever it thinks that I am ready and my secret will always be safe with it.
People has tried to reach for it, but few of them stay, after failed of trying. Somehow, there is this person who could always make it speak and share. I am amazed on how he can always do the trick, it had tried to ignore the magic he did, but mostly failed. It has the feeling that it might be time for it to open up.. :)
Monday, October 10, 2011
A Day for Mum and Daughter
I think I really do know how to enjoy the semester break, I arranged myself a trip almost every weekend during the holidays. But this is one exceptional, because its arranged by my beloved mum. Its a day trip to Kuala Selangor and Sekinchan, organised by the neighbourhood committee. My mum is seriously interested and she needs a company for the trip, so I become the best companion for her. Who's the best to have a trip with if not the beloved daughter? :)
Bus took off at 7.50am and the journey started at 8.30am, went to seafood manufacture factory for breakfast and stopped at bird nest producer firm in the middle. Finally we spent most of the time visitting the farms and paddy fields. The scenes were naturally beautiful and nice, I am amazed on how mother nature could breed such nice places on earth. Especially its located somewhere near the city, honestly I have never thought of that before. In the evening, we had dinner at a beach side restaurant somewhere in Kuala Selangor. Sunset is just an hour away, and so I got the chance to catch some photos before the night approach.
Basically its just a visit to farms and fields, its simple and yet I can see that mum enjoyed it a lot. She laughed very often on that day, she ejoyed the meal offered and also the time spent with her friends and daughter around. She loves the natural scenes as well and so I took some photos for her, to keep the memorable moment. Mum was obviously happy for the day, its been some time since she laughed that often. Time fled and I grown up way too fast for her to adapt, sometime we would just arguing on some small matters.
My memory about her would be either her upset and disappointed faces, or the strict faces which wants to teach her daughter to be someone great. I felt grateful to have been able to make her happy by just being her companion for the trip. May be I have neglected her when she needs someone around. I felt great by just seeing her happy faces along the trip. :)
Bus took off at 7.50am and the journey started at 8.30am, went to seafood manufacture factory for breakfast and stopped at bird nest producer firm in the middle. Finally we spent most of the time visitting the farms and paddy fields. The scenes were naturally beautiful and nice, I am amazed on how mother nature could breed such nice places on earth. Especially its located somewhere near the city, honestly I have never thought of that before. In the evening, we had dinner at a beach side restaurant somewhere in Kuala Selangor. Sunset is just an hour away, and so I got the chance to catch some photos before the night approach.
Basically its just a visit to farms and fields, its simple and yet I can see that mum enjoyed it a lot. She laughed very often on that day, she ejoyed the meal offered and also the time spent with her friends and daughter around. She loves the natural scenes as well and so I took some photos for her, to keep the memorable moment. Mum was obviously happy for the day, its been some time since she laughed that often. Time fled and I grown up way too fast for her to adapt, sometime we would just arguing on some small matters.
My memory about her would be either her upset and disappointed faces, or the strict faces which wants to teach her daughter to be someone great. I felt grateful to have been able to make her happy by just being her companion for the trip. May be I have neglected her when she needs someone around. I felt great by just seeing her happy faces along the trip. :)
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| Paddy fields and paddy factory |
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| Loyal Hills at Kuala Selangor District |
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| Sunset at the beach side |
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| When the night approach |
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
The Best Two
Semester break is getting a little too long for me though, I have spent most of the time lacking at home, with only fb game, msn and pps. If I have no outings with friends or families. So spontaneously, I have decided to give a visit to some of my best friends in the south.
Even if there was no plans, no extra credits, no places to stay, still I am excited about the visit. Since the purpose was to find myself some excitement in these dull bored days and to have fun. Without any doubt and thinking that things will get right when the time comes, so off I went on the journey.
Getting started by contacting some of my friends and settling the trasportation problem, the departure date was set officially on the last day of Sept, which is the next day after I got the bus ticket. *lol The next morning at 10.30am sharp, I am on the bus waiting for it to take off from the station. Due to some reason, I spent most of the day on bus travelling to the destination. With these time, I can really felt the difference by travelling alone. With no friends or families around, I got to enjoy my private time in only reminiscing and enjoying the favourite song in my htc. :)
Went for meal in Bugis after arrived and met my best friend, Hui at 5.30pm on the day. We shop at Bugis after dinner and decided to go for some drinks at Clarke Quay at night. This is the 1st time, I feel like I am more like a homeless lady than a backpacker during a visit to other places. As I have no places to stay for the night, so we decided to stay awake by chatting and sitting at the river side of Clarke Quay.
We sat at the river side until 4am the next morning, took some photos before took off to McD nearby for breakfast. What would you normally do at 4am in the early morning? I said its perfect time for some McD breakfast!! ;p Thanks to McD, I can finally had a proper place to rest my back and have a cup a of warm tea. ;) After breakfast in McD, we took a shower and get prepared for a busy day ahead. woohoo!!
We spent the day walking around Merlion Park and Bugis, stopped by at Chinatown in the middle and had Jap food as late lunch at Takashimaya. Finally we went to the famous Guan Yin Goddess temple at Bugis street before we took the bus to JB. Its a tiring day for us though, carrying bags along the way while rushing from one place to another. Miss a lot of photo takings when we travelling around. But still we had fun during the photo taking at Merlion Park. We were exhausted when we finally settled ourself on the bus to JB and we fell asleep almost directly after the bus took off from the station.
We had dinner with another two friends at JB that evening, spent another sleepless night on drinking and playing cards in OverTime, and sing k at Big Mouth. We only got to rest on the bed nearly 5am in the morning. We woke up 5 hours later to have breakfast and take some walk around the area, went for the bus in the noon and head back to the city. Although I spent most of the time walking around with a heavy bag, and didn't get to rest comfortably, but still I had to say I really do enjoy the journey and I had a great time spent with my BFF. Thanks to my BFF along my visit to the north. ;)
Even if there was no plans, no extra credits, no places to stay, still I am excited about the visit. Since the purpose was to find myself some excitement in these dull bored days and to have fun. Without any doubt and thinking that things will get right when the time comes, so off I went on the journey.
Getting started by contacting some of my friends and settling the trasportation problem, the departure date was set officially on the last day of Sept, which is the next day after I got the bus ticket. *lol The next morning at 10.30am sharp, I am on the bus waiting for it to take off from the station. Due to some reason, I spent most of the day on bus travelling to the destination. With these time, I can really felt the difference by travelling alone. With no friends or families around, I got to enjoy my private time in only reminiscing and enjoying the favourite song in my htc. :)
Went for meal in Bugis after arrived and met my best friend, Hui at 5.30pm on the day. We shop at Bugis after dinner and decided to go for some drinks at Clarke Quay at night. This is the 1st time, I feel like I am more like a homeless lady than a backpacker during a visit to other places. As I have no places to stay for the night, so we decided to stay awake by chatting and sitting at the river side of Clarke Quay.
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| Treats at Bugis and Clarke Quay ;) |
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| Midnight at Clarke Quay with mirror Image?? ;p |
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| Looking pale after some drinks |
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| Does it look like 4am on the street to u?? ;p |
We spent the day walking around Merlion Park and Bugis, stopped by at Chinatown in the middle and had Jap food as late lunch at Takashimaya. Finally we went to the famous Guan Yin Goddess temple at Bugis street before we took the bus to JB. Its a tiring day for us though, carrying bags along the way while rushing from one place to another. Miss a lot of photo takings when we travelling around. But still we had fun during the photo taking at Merlion Park. We were exhausted when we finally settled ourself on the bus to JB and we fell asleep almost directly after the bus took off from the station.
We had dinner with another two friends at JB that evening, spent another sleepless night on drinking and playing cards in OverTime, and sing k at Big Mouth. We only got to rest on the bed nearly 5am in the morning. We woke up 5 hours later to have breakfast and take some walk around the area, went for the bus in the noon and head back to the city. Although I spent most of the time walking around with a heavy bag, and didn't get to rest comfortably, but still I had to say I really do enjoy the journey and I had a great time spent with my BFF. Thanks to my BFF along my visit to the north. ;)
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| Merlion Park - BFF along the way. :) |
Monday, September 19, 2011
The Short Escapade
Weekend had passed, today is Monday and I've fell sick. What a bad day!! Went for badminton with cousin Jen this morning, and I can almost felt the unpleasant feeling right after brunch at PappaRich. Well, I know what that means. Think its time I should get myself some rest, "Rest for the longer journey which comes ahead", am I right?
I spent 3D2N at Cameron Highlands for the past weekend. It was a very pleasant trip, I would say. Food is the only thing that I need to concern for the past 3 days. XD All I can think of is to eat, eat and eat more!! Can't blame me for that actually, I like fresh vegetables and fruits a lot, and Cameron appears to be a place that has it all. Fresh vegies, Strawberries, Salads, Corns, Honey... I almost had it all in the past few days and I felt great!! ;p
Unlike Genting Highland, Cameron is definitely not a place for fun and play, although they have shared the cool climate as the common characteristics. But the only excitement for Cameron might be the Jungle Explore and the visits to different farms, where you get to learn how the crops grow and harvest, taste and get some of the fresh products. I've got some fresh strawberries and strawberry jam from the farm, corns and souvenirs from the weekend night market, and white coffee and dried ginger from the shops. Sounds not bad huh? ;)
I enjoyed the trip a lot. I got to walk under the sun without sweating in the morning and enjoyed the cozy breeze at night. I used to walk a lot when I am on trip, at least for places that could be reached by walk, I don't mind walking. I also got to visit different farms on the 2nd day of the trip, the day was kick-started by the visit to BOH Tea Plantation farm, then followed by the visits to Honey Bee farm, morning Market, Butterfly and insects farm, Strawberry farm and Rose Centre.
I think the only thing that matters for a trip is whom you are going with, isn't it? Its the person who go along with that make the difference to the trip. I am lucky as I got the chance to go for the trip with someone special, whom also appears to be a caring and responsible one. Thanks for giving me such a memorable trip. :)
I spent 3D2N at Cameron Highlands for the past weekend. It was a very pleasant trip, I would say. Food is the only thing that I need to concern for the past 3 days. XD All I can think of is to eat, eat and eat more!! Can't blame me for that actually, I like fresh vegetables and fruits a lot, and Cameron appears to be a place that has it all. Fresh vegies, Strawberries, Salads, Corns, Honey... I almost had it all in the past few days and I felt great!! ;p
Unlike Genting Highland, Cameron is definitely not a place for fun and play, although they have shared the cool climate as the common characteristics. But the only excitement for Cameron might be the Jungle Explore and the visits to different farms, where you get to learn how the crops grow and harvest, taste and get some of the fresh products. I've got some fresh strawberries and strawberry jam from the farm, corns and souvenirs from the weekend night market, and white coffee and dried ginger from the shops. Sounds not bad huh? ;)
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| Favourite of the trip - Strawberry Steamboat!! |
I enjoyed the trip a lot. I got to walk under the sun without sweating in the morning and enjoyed the cozy breeze at night. I used to walk a lot when I am on trip, at least for places that could be reached by walk, I don't mind walking. I also got to visit different farms on the 2nd day of the trip, the day was kick-started by the visit to BOH Tea Plantation farm, then followed by the visits to Honey Bee farm, morning Market, Butterfly and insects farm, Strawberry farm and Rose Centre.
I think the only thing that matters for a trip is whom you are going with, isn't it? Its the person who go along with that make the difference to the trip. I am lucky as I got the chance to go for the trip with someone special, whom also appears to be a caring and responsible one. Thanks for giving me such a memorable trip. :)
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Monday, September 12, 2011
The Birthday
I am so glad that my birthday had finally fall on the day after the final exam this year. I don't think most of the people like the month September as much as I do, especially for the students in the country. This is reasonable as September is the month in which all the mass examination will take place.
Starting with the UPSR for primary standard 6 students, followed by the PMR and SPM for junior and high school students, and the last would be STPM for form 6 students. Also not to mention final semester examination that will be held in various colleges and universities for undergraduates.
I, myself had dislike the month when I am going through all these period as a student. Thinking that I am so unlucky to have my birthday fall in the month which all the mass examinations are going to be held. I have already get used to it for all these years, but this year, there is finally something different for my brithday. ^^
I am surprised by the birthday celebration that was threw to me by the special one. I felt grateful with the arrangement and ideas that he got for me on my special day. Telling me that my birthday can also be special and its nothing wrong for me to ask for it. I can see that you have did your best to create a memorable birthday celebration for me, I appreciate it a lot and am really happy for it. Sincerely, I thank you for everything you have done. :)
In the noon, I had a lunch gathering with my family for the celebration of mid-autumn festival and also my birthday. The meal was very luring and fulfilling, and the birthday cake was brought out after the meal. Its a pleasant noon to spend with my family on my birthday. ;)
The day was carried on by having movie in the shopping centre with the special one, while waiting for my coursemate to join me for dinner. It was a nice movie to watch with a stuffed stomach after the lunch. My coursemate joined me shortly after movie, and we decided to have dinner at Delicious. Its another great meal I had on my birthday. The meal was ended perfectly with a piece of warm chocolate brownies and chit-chatting.
I went home that night around 12, almost a 12 hours outing for the day. In the car, I found another two small surprises before I finally lock it and head home. For me, it was a great day which full of suprises and laughters. I didn't expect my birthday to turn up celebrated in this way. Anyhow, it would always stay moemorable in my heart.
Cheers!! ;)
Starting with the UPSR for primary standard 6 students, followed by the PMR and SPM for junior and high school students, and the last would be STPM for form 6 students. Also not to mention final semester examination that will be held in various colleges and universities for undergraduates.
I, myself had dislike the month when I am going through all these period as a student. Thinking that I am so unlucky to have my birthday fall in the month which all the mass examinations are going to be held. I have already get used to it for all these years, but this year, there is finally something different for my brithday. ^^
I am surprised by the birthday celebration that was threw to me by the special one. I felt grateful with the arrangement and ideas that he got for me on my special day. Telling me that my birthday can also be special and its nothing wrong for me to ask for it. I can see that you have did your best to create a memorable birthday celebration for me, I appreciate it a lot and am really happy for it. Sincerely, I thank you for everything you have done. :)
In the noon, I had a lunch gathering with my family for the celebration of mid-autumn festival and also my birthday. The meal was very luring and fulfilling, and the birthday cake was brought out after the meal. Its a pleasant noon to spend with my family on my birthday. ;)
The day was carried on by having movie in the shopping centre with the special one, while waiting for my coursemate to join me for dinner. It was a nice movie to watch with a stuffed stomach after the lunch. My coursemate joined me shortly after movie, and we decided to have dinner at Delicious. Its another great meal I had on my birthday. The meal was ended perfectly with a piece of warm chocolate brownies and chit-chatting.
I went home that night around 12, almost a 12 hours outing for the day. In the car, I found another two small surprises before I finally lock it and head home. For me, it was a great day which full of suprises and laughters. I didn't expect my birthday to turn up celebrated in this way. Anyhow, it would always stay moemorable in my heart.
Cheers!! ;)
Friday, September 9, 2011
Happy Holidays!!!
Woohoo!! Finally I had everything done, the submission of dissertation, the 3-days final exams, and the dissertation's presentation. I can't believe that I have just gone through all these. It seem not long ago that I am still worried about the completion of work. I got not more than 4 hours of sleep in the last few weeks of my semester, getting so worried with the dissertation and also the final examination. And the week before my final exam, I only got average 3 hours of sleep. Wake up early in the morning and started to work non-stop like a machine, hoping that things could be carried on smoothly.
I have did my best and its time for me to enjoy my semester break. Its been some time since I have a goodnight sleep, so the first thing that I think I want to do is to get myself a goodnight sleep. ;p Well, I think there will be plenty of plans coming ahead during my holiday and my plan is to make sure that I enjoyed it as much as I can. It feels so good to have holidays. :p
Think thats all for now, laters..
xoxo ^.~
I have did my best and its time for me to enjoy my semester break. Its been some time since I have a goodnight sleep, so the first thing that I think I want to do is to get myself a goodnight sleep. ;p Well, I think there will be plenty of plans coming ahead during my holiday and my plan is to make sure that I enjoyed it as much as I can. It feels so good to have holidays. :p
Think thats all for now, laters..
xoxo ^.~
Friday, August 19, 2011
Shall We Talk?
I know I might not be the perfect one, but I think at least I have did what I could. Sometimes, I would think, are we doing this correctly? Am I taking the right decision at the right time?
It's not the first time I heard things, like I don't have the potential and I also don't seem to possess those abilities to do it right. Yes, I admit it now, I really don't have those potential and abilities that you think I should have.
I used to think I am still the same old me, and what I did was good enough. Think I am overly confident on this matter. I felt sorry for that you have to sacrifice and that you still didn't get what you think you might get at last.
May be it's time that we should have a talk, shouldn't we? To make things right before its too late.
It's not the first time I heard things, like I don't have the potential and I also don't seem to possess those abilities to do it right. Yes, I admit it now, I really don't have those potential and abilities that you think I should have.
I used to think I am still the same old me, and what I did was good enough. Think I am overly confident on this matter. I felt sorry for that you have to sacrifice and that you still didn't get what you think you might get at last.
May be it's time that we should have a talk, shouldn't we? To make things right before its too late.
Saturday, August 13, 2011
盛放。凋零。
它，曾经盛放一时
灿烂无比，无人能及
但，从何时起
色彩竟悄悄褪去
它被遗忘、忽视
虽无奈
却也只能含笑离别
花儿、烟火、岁月
无一不稍眼纵逝
它看开、放下
明了
“曾经拥有” 的道理
凋零
是因失去了盛放的理由？
还是
自愿放弃盛放的借口？
只有它知道
退下的一刻
伤感 但 轻松
不舍 但 无悔
它以凋零之姿
舞了一段 完美的圆舞曲
Thursday, August 11, 2011
A Short Gathering
I had a gathering with my friends from Kampar yesterday. It was a short meeting starting in the evening, gather together at Midvalley, having tea and chit-chatting while updating each other at the same time. It was a pleasant evening, I enjoyed the conversation and am also glad to be able to share the laughter and joy with them.
It has almost been a year since I have last met with them. Life has getting more busy by days and I am no longer able to visit Kampar again after my last visit about a year ago. I am surprised that how my friends have changed throughout the year.
They have completed their previous phase on time and are moving forward to the next, developing their career and planning for the future development. While I am still the same old me, few steps behind chasing for my dream and working hard to fulfill the goal that I should have reach long time ago. But that day wouldn't be far for me, it is on its way coming, isn't it? I have my faith this time. :)
Some of my girl friends have found the other half for themselves. Truly I am happy for them, especially when I saw how happy are they when talk about their relationship. I also wish those who have yet to find the one, to have found one soon. ;)
Best wishes from me, my friends. Take care and stay happy always. :)
It has almost been a year since I have last met with them. Life has getting more busy by days and I am no longer able to visit Kampar again after my last visit about a year ago. I am surprised that how my friends have changed throughout the year.
They have completed their previous phase on time and are moving forward to the next, developing their career and planning for the future development. While I am still the same old me, few steps behind chasing for my dream and working hard to fulfill the goal that I should have reach long time ago. But that day wouldn't be far for me, it is on its way coming, isn't it? I have my faith this time. :)
Some of my girl friends have found the other half for themselves. Truly I am happy for them, especially when I saw how happy are they when talk about their relationship. I also wish those who have yet to find the one, to have found one soon. ;)
Best wishes from me, my friends. Take care and stay happy always. :)
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Stressful Days
The day has been very stressful for me recently. Not being able to sleep well at night, worrying about what will be coming up next and whether things will be carrying out smoothly later while on the other hand, there are nightmares along the night. I can only get to sleep well when the first day light is about to break through the sky, but usually that's the time I should get out from my bed and keep on working things out.
I got tired easily nowadays, feel so much wanted to lie on my bed during the day. But I can't seem to get myself to sleep when the night approach. Lying on the bed with dry and sore eyes, body is aching because of pms, mind is tired of running but it doesn't show the sign to slowing down.
This is something new for me, as I never had failed to get into sleep in the past, nor not being able to sleep well at night. No matter what comes ahead, I am always able to get myself some sleep, and in fact I used to cure myself by sleeping and resting. It works everytime, until the magic started to lose these recent days.
I can be easily ignored and I got very impatient nowadays, can't bear things as little as sand. Feeling so much wanted to release my feeling in some way, but not able to. This got me more frustrated, and my temper is getting worst. That is my private corner and it seem so little if compared to the reality in life and the works that yet need to be done.
Back to the real world, there are so much to do yet so little time is available, I must get all the works done before the deadlines. Give me some time and I will work it out, there are still a month ahead................
I got tired easily nowadays, feel so much wanted to lie on my bed during the day. But I can't seem to get myself to sleep when the night approach. Lying on the bed with dry and sore eyes, body is aching because of pms, mind is tired of running but it doesn't show the sign to slowing down.
This is something new for me, as I never had failed to get into sleep in the past, nor not being able to sleep well at night. No matter what comes ahead, I am always able to get myself some sleep, and in fact I used to cure myself by sleeping and resting. It works everytime, until the magic started to lose these recent days.
I can be easily ignored and I got very impatient nowadays, can't bear things as little as sand. Feeling so much wanted to release my feeling in some way, but not able to. This got me more frustrated, and my temper is getting worst. That is my private corner and it seem so little if compared to the reality in life and the works that yet need to be done.
Back to the real world, there are so much to do yet so little time is available, I must get all the works done before the deadlines. Give me some time and I will work it out, there are still a month ahead................
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Lost
I wonder do you realize...
That I am no longer the little girl who used to follow behind your back all the time, waiting for you to play with me or to fulfill my demands.
I wonder do you notice...
That I am actually a grown up now and in fact I am turning to be 25 soon.
I wonder do you find...
That I have my own thoughts and plans and all I need is nothing more than your support.
I wonder do you understand...
What is actually in my mind, what I would like to do and even what I am saying sometimes.
I even wonder do you know...
That I love you as much as you did and my feelings can be easily affected by your words and comments.
Currently I am lost, your words and comments have turned my feelings down once again. I thought I am strong enough to take that, but in fact I am not. My heart is aching when I replay those words that you have told me earlier.
I am tired of fulfilling your expectations. All I want is to be myself and not another role model that you expect me to be. You did your best to give me a perfect and comfortable life and you said all you want is that I can always live happily. But you didn't realize that you actually overdid it sometimes and that makes part of my worry and pressure come from you!!!
I lose myself and direction almost everytime I listened to what you have said. Not sure what should I do next, or may be I should say not sure what you expect me to do next. Even though sometimes I don't wish to do so, but the fear of looking at your disappointed face will always make me think twice. Most of the time, I will give myself up. I hate myself for being such a coward, for don't have the courage to fight for my will.
It's time that I should stand up for myself. It's my life that I am having now and I want nothing more than freedom. I shouldn't feel lost and this time, I should be able to find my way back soon.
I wonder will you ever feel glad...
That I have stronger will now and that I can stand up to any circumstances that may come across in the future.
Sincerely, I wish you would...
And one day... you will also find out that your recognition is actually very important to me.
That I am no longer the little girl who used to follow behind your back all the time, waiting for you to play with me or to fulfill my demands.
I wonder do you notice...
That I am actually a grown up now and in fact I am turning to be 25 soon.
I wonder do you find...
That I have my own thoughts and plans and all I need is nothing more than your support.
I wonder do you understand...
What is actually in my mind, what I would like to do and even what I am saying sometimes.
I even wonder do you know...
That I love you as much as you did and my feelings can be easily affected by your words and comments.
Currently I am lost, your words and comments have turned my feelings down once again. I thought I am strong enough to take that, but in fact I am not. My heart is aching when I replay those words that you have told me earlier.
I am tired of fulfilling your expectations. All I want is to be myself and not another role model that you expect me to be. You did your best to give me a perfect and comfortable life and you said all you want is that I can always live happily. But you didn't realize that you actually overdid it sometimes and that makes part of my worry and pressure come from you!!!
I lose myself and direction almost everytime I listened to what you have said. Not sure what should I do next, or may be I should say not sure what you expect me to do next. Even though sometimes I don't wish to do so, but the fear of looking at your disappointed face will always make me think twice. Most of the time, I will give myself up. I hate myself for being such a coward, for don't have the courage to fight for my will.
It's time that I should stand up for myself. It's my life that I am having now and I want nothing more than freedom. I shouldn't feel lost and this time, I should be able to find my way back soon.
I wonder will you ever feel glad...
That I have stronger will now and that I can stand up to any circumstances that may come across in the future.
Sincerely, I wish you would...
And one day... you will also find out that your recognition is actually very important to me.
Monday, July 4, 2011
痴.心.妄.想
这一刻，我犹豫了。觉得自己像在等待黑夜彩虹。一个不可能的任务、一个奇迹的出现...
一直以来的信念,是固执？还是坚持？也早已分不清。说好听些，是永不放弃；说难听些，那应该是垂死挣扎吧。这到底该怪自己少根筋所以后知后觉，还是自己的天性乐观？
其实早该发觉自己不是什么天之骄子，也不是什么上等料子。说白些，就是个再普通不过的平凡女孩。为何... 还要选一条明知是不容易走的路？可是我还是选了。也许当初旁人早已看清事实，所以加以规劝；可惜当局者迷，毅然选择一意孤行。
上天从一开始就布下了阵行，一路上曲折重重、什么难关、挫折都少不了。想必是要提醒我这路不好走，也许也是为了要考验我的耐力和决心，所以幸运之神也只远远的眺望而不眷顾。那一关又一关的考验，已不止一次证明了自己只是在痴人说梦话，只是自己一直不肯面对而已。
也许是时候认清事实，安分的做回自己，不该再有什么非份之想。
梦，该醒了......
一直以来的信念,是固执？还是坚持？也早已分不清。说好听些，是永不放弃；说难听些，那应该是垂死挣扎吧。这到底该怪自己少根筋所以后知后觉，还是自己的天性乐观？
其实早该发觉自己不是什么天之骄子，也不是什么上等料子。说白些，就是个再普通不过的平凡女孩。为何... 还要选一条明知是不容易走的路？可是我还是选了。也许当初旁人早已看清事实，所以加以规劝；可惜当局者迷，毅然选择一意孤行。
上天从一开始就布下了阵行，一路上曲折重重、什么难关、挫折都少不了。想必是要提醒我这路不好走，也许也是为了要考验我的耐力和决心，所以幸运之神也只远远的眺望而不眷顾。那一关又一关的考验，已不止一次证明了自己只是在痴人说梦话，只是自己一直不肯面对而已。
也许是时候认清事实，安分的做回自己，不该再有什么非份之想。
梦，该醒了......
Monday, June 27, 2011
Questions...
I used to ask myself lots and lots of questions when my mind is free from memorizing lecture notes and vomiting ideas for assignments. Questions that I don't used to think about when I have more important things to be taken care of. Some questions are remain unsolved regardless of how many times I have asked myself.
Sometimes what I did have disappointed the others, and sometimes it hurts when the situation got worst. I was not being considerate and thoughtful when I made certain moves. Am I being selfish for only thinking about myself before I take the action?
Sometimes, I am careless with the words used in a conversation. I might ignore the feeling of the others by saying words like that. Am I being careless for not thinking twice before I say it?
I didn't expect that what I did or said might affect the others as well. When I finally come to realize it, it was too late. I felt sorry for that as I didn't mean to do it intentionally. Think I need to be more careful when come to decision making and talking in the future in order for misunderstanding and harm to be reduced to the minimum.
Sometimes what I did have disappointed the others, and sometimes it hurts when the situation got worst. I was not being considerate and thoughtful when I made certain moves. Am I being selfish for only thinking about myself before I take the action?
Sometimes, I am careless with the words used in a conversation. I might ignore the feeling of the others by saying words like that. Am I being careless for not thinking twice before I say it?
I didn't expect that what I did or said might affect the others as well. When I finally come to realize it, it was too late. I felt sorry for that as I didn't mean to do it intentionally. Think I need to be more careful when come to decision making and talking in the future in order for misunderstanding and harm to be reduced to the minimum.
Friday, June 17, 2011
The Lighthouse
My friend shared a video with me on youtube. I think it was touching. The story is simple yet meaningful. To be frank, I cried when I watched this video.
The name for the video is The Lighthouse. Please feel free to click on it and take a look. :)
You will find out how great is the love of parents. Their love are just like the light house in the middle of the sea, it will always lead you to the way home. Whenver you feel lost, their love will guide you and show you the right path.
You will surely find that your mum and dad are the greatest person in the world. I did after I watched this. :)
The name for the video is The Lighthouse. Please feel free to click on it and take a look. :)
You will find out how great is the love of parents. Their love are just like the light house in the middle of the sea, it will always lead you to the way home. Whenver you feel lost, their love will guide you and show you the right path.
You will surely find that your mum and dad are the greatest person in the world. I did after I watched this. :)
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Old Friends
An old friend of mine have paid me a visit last weekend. It has been months ago since we have talked to each other. As usual, we have some tea and also chit-chatting at some mamak stall nearby. We had a nice conversation that night. I am glad that we were still able to keep in touch and catch up a conversation with each other.
Many years ago, when we were still young, we used to have tea at mamak stall as well. We used to chat and share a lot of things. Our future, our dreams, what we are going to be... endless topics and things to share along the night. But since when, all these have changed? That we don't used to meet that often anymore. Even if we do, we have nothing much to share. Although we all have shared a common sense that some topics are not meant to be brought up during our gathering. But I think we all could feel that things have changed among us ever since. It will never be the same anymore.
After the short meeting that night, I started to miss the old times when we were all still young. I still remembered how we cheer loudly for our friendship once. The time we have spent chatting and playing around. Those days seems so far yet the memories are still so fresh in mind. Many years passed and we are all grown up now. We have our life and responsibilities to carry on. We can't play around like how we used to be during the old times as we are not young and burden-free. We have more important things to be taken care of. We were busy fighting for our dreams and living. Time is precious for all of us and it couldn't be wasted easily.
We all know that time couldn't be turn back and the past will always remain as history. We all chose to move on without looking back. No matter how many years have gone by, I am sure the memories will always remain with us.
To my old friends, Take good care of yourself. Although we didn't meet that often, but my best wishes will always be with you all. :)
Many years ago, when we were still young, we used to have tea at mamak stall as well. We used to chat and share a lot of things. Our future, our dreams, what we are going to be... endless topics and things to share along the night. But since when, all these have changed? That we don't used to meet that often anymore. Even if we do, we have nothing much to share. Although we all have shared a common sense that some topics are not meant to be brought up during our gathering. But I think we all could feel that things have changed among us ever since. It will never be the same anymore.
After the short meeting that night, I started to miss the old times when we were all still young. I still remembered how we cheer loudly for our friendship once. The time we have spent chatting and playing around. Those days seems so far yet the memories are still so fresh in mind. Many years passed and we are all grown up now. We have our life and responsibilities to carry on. We can't play around like how we used to be during the old times as we are not young and burden-free. We have more important things to be taken care of. We were busy fighting for our dreams and living. Time is precious for all of us and it couldn't be wasted easily.
We all know that time couldn't be turn back and the past will always remain as history. We all chose to move on without looking back. No matter how many years have gone by, I am sure the memories will always remain with us.
To my old friends, Take good care of yourself. Although we didn't meet that often, but my best wishes will always be with you all. :)
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
The Short Escape
An update for the trip that I went during the weekend about 2 weeks ago. Our destination - The Lost World of Tambun. We only plan it few days before the weekend and so there is no time for hesitation. We made a quick decision and get things prepared for the trip. But I am sure we are the lucky one, cause we got to stay in the Lost World Hotel which is just located opposite the theme park. For this, I have special thanks to ps, one of my travel companion. She had almost everything prepared for us, transport, accommodation, and so on. We have nothing much to worry about for the trip except to enjoy it. ;)
15 May (Day 1) :
We took off from the city at noon and without stopping by along the journey to Tambun, we reached Tambun at about 3 hours later. Thanks to another travel companion of mine - mh for a safe journey to Tambun. Though I know well that she actually kind of tension, but the fact is that we all manage to travel to a few places, safe and sound, during our visit in Ipoh. ;p
We went for the Lost World Hotspring and Spa later the night. Got in almost all the Hotspring pool that they have, except one, that is the Top of The World Pool. Because its too HOT!!! =.=" As for personal, I like the Lost World Steam Cave and also the Crystal Pool. :) As for the supper, we ate Grilled Tauhu, Grilled Stingray, BBQ Chicken Wings, Soup Tom Yum, and Assorted Lobak. No doubt we went back to the hotel with a stuffed stomach later in the night.
16 May (Day 2) :
It's Monday!! We should be grateful to have a holiday in Tambun while the others are working at this day. It's a nice day with slight sun shine and breezy wind blow. We got ourselves prepared and went into the theme park to have fun.
There are still quite a lot of undone construction in the theme park. But in times, I am sure it will become one of the famous theme park in the country. :) At the end of the day, we went to Ipoh City for dinner. Fetched yy on the way to the City, and we went for yc session after dinner. I should say we became warriors when it comes on drinking. Beers and Liquors? No fear at all!!! :p None of us got drunk even though we had drank so much in a night and still we can make our way home. Salute to us.. ;p
17 May (Day 3) :
Time fled away silently while we are having fun. It's time for us to pack and say goodbye. It's only a 3D2N trip to Tambun, but we are having so fun along the trip. We got the chance to spend time with friends, chit-chatting and drinking. ;)
Yy brought us for lunch before we drive home to KL. We had Sateh, Noodles with fried stuff, Popiah, and Fruit Rojak. :p Well, we didn't manage to finish all the food though. As we have expected, dizziness and headache and low appetite when we wake up in the morning. Obviously we had hang-over effect because of the overly drank last night. ^^" But its no big deal to us since we have had so much fun the night before. :p It was a perfect ending for the trip. ;)
15 May (Day 1) :
We took off from the city at noon and without stopping by along the journey to Tambun, we reached Tambun at about 3 hours later. Thanks to another travel companion of mine - mh for a safe journey to Tambun. Though I know well that she actually kind of tension, but the fact is that we all manage to travel to a few places, safe and sound, during our visit in Ipoh. ;p
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| Our travel transport - A Grey Proton Persona contributed by ps :) |
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| Random catch along the highway ;p |
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| It's raining!!! and guess what's our speed? lol ;p |
We went for the Lost World Hotspring and Spa later the night. Got in almost all the Hotspring pool that they have, except one, that is the Top of The World Pool. Because its too HOT!!! =.=" As for personal, I like the Lost World Steam Cave and also the Crystal Pool. :) As for the supper, we ate Grilled Tauhu, Grilled Stingray, BBQ Chicken Wings, Soup Tom Yum, and Assorted Lobak. No doubt we went back to the hotel with a stuffed stomach later in the night.
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| Brochure taken from the hotel ;p |
16 May (Day 2) :
It's Monday!! We should be grateful to have a holiday in Tambun while the others are working at this day. It's a nice day with slight sun shine and breezy wind blow. We got ourselves prepared and went into the theme park to have fun.
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| Here we come.... !!! |
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| Overview of activities and facilities |
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| Map of the park |
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| Souvenir of the trip - Slipper key chain :) |
There are still quite a lot of undone construction in the theme park. But in times, I am sure it will become one of the famous theme park in the country. :) At the end of the day, we went to Ipoh City for dinner. Fetched yy on the way to the City, and we went for yc session after dinner. I should say we became warriors when it comes on drinking. Beers and Liquors? No fear at all!!! :p None of us got drunk even though we had drank so much in a night and still we can make our way home. Salute to us.. ;p
17 May (Day 3) :
Time fled away silently while we are having fun. It's time for us to pack and say goodbye. It's only a 3D2N trip to Tambun, but we are having so fun along the trip. We got the chance to spend time with friends, chit-chatting and drinking. ;)
Yy brought us for lunch before we drive home to KL. We had Sateh, Noodles with fried stuff, Popiah, and Fruit Rojak. :p Well, we didn't manage to finish all the food though. As we have expected, dizziness and headache and low appetite when we wake up in the morning. Obviously we had hang-over effect because of the overly drank last night. ^^" But its no big deal to us since we have had so much fun the night before. :p It was a perfect ending for the trip. ;)
Monday, May 30, 2011
Pleasant Sunday
It was a pleasant day for me, and also for my mum I think. :) It's been a while since the last time we had a family day. We were lucky today as dad has a day off, 'cause usually he will be asked to stay for overtime if there's a need to rush for the deadlines. So we went for late breakfast at my uncle's hawker stall while I also got to visit him at the same time. It's like killing two birds with one stone. :p
Uncle Ching is surprised to see me, I couldn't blame him for that though as I know I haven't pay him a visit since CNY. Sometimes I turned down his dinner invitation as I got tests and assignments to rush on and I forgone the chances to visit him when I got dates and outings. I felt sorry for I can't spend more time visit him, listen nor talk to him. He used to buy me a lot of cool toys and games when I was young, treat me nice foods and also reward me for my distinction in studies. And now I saw him grew older each time I visit him. Time stops for no one, Uncle Ching is now an old man while I grew up into a young lady.
Me and my mum went for shopping after the meal and some chit-chatting. Mid-year sales is coming back soon and so we saw a lot of pre-sales and special weekend deal. Later I brought mum for a sweet treat at Snowflake. It's nice to sit down and enjoy a bowl of ice in a cozy place while chatting. We chat a lot today and its the first time since the cold war. I appreciated the moment that we have spent together, and hopefully it will be a reminder for us whenever we wanted to start an arguement again. >.<
We then took a slow walk back to Uncle Ching's place and meet up with dad. I took a nap before went out for dinner with my parents again. It's a simple yet warm Sunday that I spent with my family. I have nothing but to agree with what Uncle Mac used to say - Simplicity is happiness. ;)
Uncle Ching is surprised to see me, I couldn't blame him for that though as I know I haven't pay him a visit since CNY. Sometimes I turned down his dinner invitation as I got tests and assignments to rush on and I forgone the chances to visit him when I got dates and outings. I felt sorry for I can't spend more time visit him, listen nor talk to him. He used to buy me a lot of cool toys and games when I was young, treat me nice foods and also reward me for my distinction in studies. And now I saw him grew older each time I visit him. Time stops for no one, Uncle Ching is now an old man while I grew up into a young lady.
Me and my mum went for shopping after the meal and some chit-chatting. Mid-year sales is coming back soon and so we saw a lot of pre-sales and special weekend deal. Later I brought mum for a sweet treat at Snowflake. It's nice to sit down and enjoy a bowl of ice in a cozy place while chatting. We chat a lot today and its the first time since the cold war. I appreciated the moment that we have spent together, and hopefully it will be a reminder for us whenever we wanted to start an arguement again. >.<
We then took a slow walk back to Uncle Ching's place and meet up with dad. I took a nap before went out for dinner with my parents again. It's a simple yet warm Sunday that I spent with my family. I have nothing but to agree with what Uncle Mac used to say - Simplicity is happiness. ;)
Snowflake's Best Seller and Sea Amber Jelly by Snowflake ;)
Happy Belated...
There is always a Happy Belated for birthday, but I not sure whether it is also the same for Mummy's Day. This year's Mummy's Day fell on 8th of May and I miss the chance to wish my mum. It's a long story though. Me and my mum were actually having a cold war during the Mummy's Day.
I couldn't recall much about how and when we started it. At the end only shouts and arguments with hurt feelings were left to remind us about what had happened. After what happened, we seldom talk to nor look at each other except there's really no choice. As for my side, I try my best to ignore her whenever I was at home with her, and I locked myself in my room most of the time, just to avoid facing her that much. Everything she said or did irritates me. I got very frustrated whenever she brought up a topic that ignores my feeling.
I don't bother to know what she might be feeling for what I did. All I care was that something she did or said have hurt my feelings so deep. I couldn't help myself for not getting angry at her nor asking myself to forget what she have done. I seem to have forgotten that she was my dearest mum and she used to love me with all her heart and soul. Even sometimes what she did was not appropriate, but still she is my mum and I should know that she will not harm me, no matter what.
We had a talk few days ago, after something happened on me. My feelings and nerves have finally broke down. It took me some time to chill. I blamed myself for not realizing that she actually love me more than anything else in this world. She did her best to keep me safe and happy, even she didn't aware that what she did was actually over and might be hurtful. She spent half her life time to raise me, and there is not a complaint from her. She changed herself so that she can communicate better with me. My anger and egoism had got me blind and forgetful. As I tried to ignore her effort for being a good mother.
I know I am not an obedient child either. I used to complain for her overly control, her nags and advices, sometimes even on her cooking. I challenged her tolerance by saying something hurtful in the past. I demand for expensive goods without being considerate. I hang out late even though I know she can't sleep well and worried. I know you have tried your best to know me more, it's just that sometimes I have chosen to keep a distance. I know you felt hurt when you found that I chose to hide my heart from you. I am sorry, mum.
I just want to let you know that I enjoyed most of the time that I have spent with you. You used to be my best companion whenever I need someone to be aside. You are my stylist and used to give me a lot of advices on clothing and style.You are also a reminder as you know I am a forgetful person. Thanks for everything, mum. I know I should have said that to you earlier and I hope its never too late for me to say it now.
I am glad that we can finally break the ice and get back to normal again. I miss the old times when we used to shop, chat and hunt for food together. I know I am not a perfect daughter but I will try my best to be one, as what you did to become a perfect mum for me. :)
Happy Mother's Day, my dearest Mummy. Love always..
I couldn't recall much about how and when we started it. At the end only shouts and arguments with hurt feelings were left to remind us about what had happened. After what happened, we seldom talk to nor look at each other except there's really no choice. As for my side, I try my best to ignore her whenever I was at home with her, and I locked myself in my room most of the time, just to avoid facing her that much. Everything she said or did irritates me. I got very frustrated whenever she brought up a topic that ignores my feeling.
I don't bother to know what she might be feeling for what I did. All I care was that something she did or said have hurt my feelings so deep. I couldn't help myself for not getting angry at her nor asking myself to forget what she have done. I seem to have forgotten that she was my dearest mum and she used to love me with all her heart and soul. Even sometimes what she did was not appropriate, but still she is my mum and I should know that she will not harm me, no matter what.
We had a talk few days ago, after something happened on me. My feelings and nerves have finally broke down. It took me some time to chill. I blamed myself for not realizing that she actually love me more than anything else in this world. She did her best to keep me safe and happy, even she didn't aware that what she did was actually over and might be hurtful. She spent half her life time to raise me, and there is not a complaint from her. She changed herself so that she can communicate better with me. My anger and egoism had got me blind and forgetful. As I tried to ignore her effort for being a good mother.
I know I am not an obedient child either. I used to complain for her overly control, her nags and advices, sometimes even on her cooking. I challenged her tolerance by saying something hurtful in the past. I demand for expensive goods without being considerate. I hang out late even though I know she can't sleep well and worried. I know you have tried your best to know me more, it's just that sometimes I have chosen to keep a distance. I know you felt hurt when you found that I chose to hide my heart from you. I am sorry, mum.
I just want to let you know that I enjoyed most of the time that I have spent with you. You used to be my best companion whenever I need someone to be aside. You are my stylist and used to give me a lot of advices on clothing and style.You are also a reminder as you know I am a forgetful person. Thanks for everything, mum. I know I should have said that to you earlier and I hope its never too late for me to say it now.
I am glad that we can finally break the ice and get back to normal again. I miss the old times when we used to shop, chat and hunt for food together. I know I am not a perfect daughter but I will try my best to be one, as what you did to become a perfect mum for me. :)
Happy Mother's Day, my dearest Mummy. Love always..
Thursday, May 26, 2011
News
Half a month passed since the last time I updated my blog. I was busy for the past 2 weeks, took some time to settle my school stuffs, cleaned my room, did housework and went for badminton once a week. 2 weeks time just slipped away silently. I still managed to go to Tambun for a short trip during the weekend, had myself a lot of fun and I also got to spent time with my fellow friends and classmates. I also got to visit my beloved grandma. :)
I received some news during these time, some good and some bad. I finally understand why some people used to say life is like a roller-coaster, think cause its full of ups and downs. I had some news from myself, a mixture of good and bad, so my feelings also went up and down hills because of the news. First of all, I didn't do well in my maths final paper which cause me a few hundred Ringgit to go through the appeal and there still might be a possibility that I need to resit for the paper. Frankly speaking, its way under my expectation. I am disappointed once again by myself.
Nothing much for me to say, except myself to blame. Well, small disappointment wouldn't defeat me so easily as I have gone through situation that was far more worst than this. I still had a good news on hand which could comfort myself a bit, that is this coming semester would be my 2nd last semester. Although I feel kind of disappointed by the result, but still I feel glad as I am going to be one step away from success. Wish me luck, friends. ;)
Then its the latest news that I have just received today - MH has finally graduate. Congrats to her!! :) She had fought alone all these time even most of the friends are not around. I think she is tough and she really did well in her final semester. So here it is.. Salute from me, girl!! ^^ Wish you all the best in the new chapter of life and stay happy. You will always have my best wishes. ;)
I am happy that I got the chance to share the happiness for my best friend. It's never been easy for all of us along the way. But finally I saw the outcome, even its not from mine, still I felt glad and thankful. And I always know that mine are still waiting ahead, and for that I will do my best to reach for it. ;)
I received some news during these time, some good and some bad. I finally understand why some people used to say life is like a roller-coaster, think cause its full of ups and downs. I had some news from myself, a mixture of good and bad, so my feelings also went up and down hills because of the news. First of all, I didn't do well in my maths final paper which cause me a few hundred Ringgit to go through the appeal and there still might be a possibility that I need to resit for the paper. Frankly speaking, its way under my expectation. I am disappointed once again by myself.
Nothing much for me to say, except myself to blame. Well, small disappointment wouldn't defeat me so easily as I have gone through situation that was far more worst than this. I still had a good news on hand which could comfort myself a bit, that is this coming semester would be my 2nd last semester. Although I feel kind of disappointed by the result, but still I feel glad as I am going to be one step away from success. Wish me luck, friends. ;)
Then its the latest news that I have just received today - MH has finally graduate. Congrats to her!! :) She had fought alone all these time even most of the friends are not around. I think she is tough and she really did well in her final semester. So here it is.. Salute from me, girl!! ^^ Wish you all the best in the new chapter of life and stay happy. You will always have my best wishes. ;)
I am happy that I got the chance to share the happiness for my best friend. It's never been easy for all of us along the way. But finally I saw the outcome, even its not from mine, still I felt glad and thankful. And I always know that mine are still waiting ahead, and for that I will do my best to reach for it. ;)
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
No Strings Attached
Finally, I watched the movie - "No Strings Attached". I didn't get to watch it at the cinema that time although I feel so much wanted to. But luckily I found it in pps today, some scenes are cut but overall I still think its a nice movie. I have quoted some nice conversation for the movie.
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Emma: "Adam, I can't do this. Can you send me back to the hospital?"
Adam: "No.. no.. That's not the deal. The deal is... we will gonna walk a round.. look at the twinkling light... and then..."
Emma: "Why you wanna messing everything thing up?"
Adam: "This is what lovers do... They will get flowers, go to the museum..."
Emma: "You know me... These stuffs freaks me out... It's fake... What's wrong are we doing? It's work, we don't have to fight... we don't have to..."
Adam: "Yea... may be I want to fight..."
Emma: "Yea... but I don't!!"
Adam: "What you gonna do? You just want to run away? You will never feel anything? How you gonna do that?"
Emma: "I don't know... I will figure it out."
Adam: "You are so messed up."
Emma: "Yea? I don't need you to take care of me... I take care of myself... That's what I do..."
"Why don't you go find some other girl who is not gonna hurt you?"
Adam: "Because I love you..."
"Obviously I am completely love you..."
"You have everything good..."
Emma: "No.. I am nothing!!!"
Adam: "Well... then be with me..."
So strong yet so soft hearted, so tough yet so fragile at the same time - best describe for Emma's character. Frankly, I am touched by Adam's word. He is such a sweet guy, isn't he? Kind, caring, loving, patient, good looking... what else you could ask for from a guy? ;p
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Mum: "You know.. I worry bout you sometimes..."
Emma: "Why? Is it about me.. I don't have a date?"
Emma: "Why? Is it about me.. I don't have a date?"
Mum: "No.. no.. I know that you can dance alone.. I know that you will be fine.. You are always fine..."
Emma: "So....?"
Emma: "So....?"
Mum: "I don't know..."
"When we lost your father, I can't stand to see you in pain. I think you knew that... I think that you are being good... being strong... to me."
"But I am telling you: Be hurt.. I can take it.. The world is gonna take it"
No matter what happens, Mum will always love you and stay by you side. That's the power of mum's love. :)
Love usually doesn't make sense and sometimes it cause us to be irrational, but you just came to know that's love. :) Just like what Scott said: "We don't pick who we fall in love with... and it happens like it was sure...".
Who knows... love is always around. ;)
Thursday, April 28, 2011
A Relaxing Day
Just finished my 3rd final exam paper yesterday, and I have 2 days to take a breath and prepare before the last paper on Sat. :) Few weeks before final, I already started to feel stress and worry. Taking every step carefully in order to make sure that everything will be carry on smoothly and fine. At last the exam came, and its now close to an end before I could actually have time to recall what's happening. Last night, I had a good night sleep. First within these few weeks, I did not dream about the maths formula, calculation steps and all sorts of economics theory.
And so... I had decided to give myself one day off. Woke up before 8.30 this morning, had myself prepared, and I sent mum for groceries shopping before went to meet Mei for a badminton game. But unexpectedly, the court didn't open as usual. We waited there for more than half an hour and decided to go for breakfast instead. Nvm, there's still tomorrow, and we will come back again. I think its always good that we keep a positive mind. ;)
We both have overspent this month, so we came to an agreement that we will go for cheap and nice food in hawker stalls. This morning would be the first time we put it into action. Fair price with lots of variety, the hawker stall isn't that bad after all, isn't it? We had Claypot Yee Mee and also chinese tea for breakfast. As usual, we chat a lot and shared our opinions until mum calls and ask me to fetch her. So ends our short meeting for the morning. I went to fetch mum and we visited Uncle Mac again before head home. I would say it's one of our favourite eating place, cozy environment with friendly workers. It's also a nice place for reading and meeting too. :)
In the noon, I read the recently bought book from MPH after I done reading with today's newspaper. After almost 2 hours of reading, I made myself a cup of Milo Oat. It's one of the favourite drinks of mine, made by 3 to 5 spoons of Milo powder (depending on the portion), 1.5 to 2 spoons of instantly cook oat and of course add in some hot water. :) It's easy, fast and healthy. *Big Smile
Milo Oat in favourite cup of mine :)
I enjoyed my Milo Oat slowly while blogging here. It's the best thing that I could have in this relaxing day of mine. But it would be perfect if I could still take a short nap before dinner later, that's all I would ask for. A simple wish for a simply relax day like this. :)
Blogging...
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Weird Me
This week is my final exam week. I should be reading notes by now, doing the last-minutes-preparation, yet I choose to blog. *Sighzzz
I will be having my 3rd paper tomorrow, its Maths. Well, not much comments that I coould make. Just hope that I would pass it smoothly. I am not that demanding though, am I? =p
Just before I decided to blog, I was actually trying hard to concentrate on my notes. But your message had successfully brought up my curiousity and obviously my attempt to do revision has failed, defeated badly by the curiousity. So here I am, blogging here while thinking of your question in your reply.
I used to think that I am just another typical girl on earth, living a simple life and always tried to make myself and the others easy. I would say that this simple theory could be applied almost anything in my life. Friends, lovers, clothing, style, and studies (though I know it's not really easy.. =.="). At least for things that could be simplified, I tried. You used to say that I am having lots of "special and different" thoughts compared to other girls and that interest you. *big smile
I would define "special and different" as weird. Though its not referring to the real freaking weird, still it means something different than the usual and normal. Not many people would admire this kind of thoughts, especially girls who possess it. The last time I heard that is from a guy who freaks out by me and his so called "crazy-n-unacceptable" thoughts of mine. He tried so hard to convince me that I am wrong, making effort to change me into someone that is acceptable by him. No doubt that he failed, badly I should say. We can't take someone who are not willing to accept and love who you truly are, can't we? :)
Few years gone and finally I have met you. Someone who knows how to admire the others from different perspect. I am glad to hear that from you, I know you mean it when you said. May be I am weird in some ways, but who cares? I live it well and I treasure it, and I always know there are still so much in me to be found. ;)
I will be having my 3rd paper tomorrow, its Maths. Well, not much comments that I coould make. Just hope that I would pass it smoothly. I am not that demanding though, am I? =p
Just before I decided to blog, I was actually trying hard to concentrate on my notes. But your message had successfully brought up my curiousity and obviously my attempt to do revision has failed, defeated badly by the curiousity. So here I am, blogging here while thinking of your question in your reply.
I used to think that I am just another typical girl on earth, living a simple life and always tried to make myself and the others easy. I would say that this simple theory could be applied almost anything in my life. Friends, lovers, clothing, style, and studies (though I know it's not really easy.. =.="). At least for things that could be simplified, I tried. You used to say that I am having lots of "special and different" thoughts compared to other girls and that interest you. *big smile
I would define "special and different" as weird. Though its not referring to the real freaking weird, still it means something different than the usual and normal. Not many people would admire this kind of thoughts, especially girls who possess it. The last time I heard that is from a guy who freaks out by me and his so called "crazy-n-unacceptable" thoughts of mine. He tried so hard to convince me that I am wrong, making effort to change me into someone that is acceptable by him. No doubt that he failed, badly I should say. We can't take someone who are not willing to accept and love who you truly are, can't we? :)
Few years gone and finally I have met you. Someone who knows how to admire the others from different perspect. I am glad to hear that from you, I know you mean it when you said. May be I am weird in some ways, but who cares? I live it well and I treasure it, and I always know there are still so much in me to be found. ;)
Sunday, April 10, 2011
泪人
那天
突如其来的 意外
害怕 慌张 无措
像个 迷失方向 的 孩子
感觉 委屈
但无处 发泄
想哭 泪在眼眶 徘徊
可不知 该流吗？ 可以流吗？
终于 在慰问下
泪 无可抑制地 流下
“真的好累...” 我抱着您说。
您说：“好孩子... 不哭...”
是的 很 累
所以 才 泪
这是 泪 的理由吗？
还是 想 泪
所以 以 累为借口？
本来 就是 爱哭之人
可是 成长 教会 我
泪 不可轻弹
不止是 男生的权利
累 当 没尽全力时
也不可轻易 说出口
抱着 亲人
像 溺者 找到了 浮木
短暂的 安慰 和 温暖
心 安了
起伏的 情绪 被 抚平
难怪 在 您们眼中
我 终究 还是个 长不大的 孩子
轻易 流泪的我
看起来 像经不起 风浪的 船
漂浮不定 摇摆不止
随时被 暴风雨 和 海浪 吞噬
道行 不足
惟有 再继续 修行
期望有一天
能成为 一个 稳固 让人安心 的大船
在海上 乘风破浪
突如其来的 意外
害怕 慌张 无措
像个 迷失方向 的 孩子
感觉 委屈
但无处 发泄
想哭 泪在眼眶 徘徊
可不知 该流吗？ 可以流吗？
终于 在慰问下
泪 无可抑制地 流下
“真的好累...” 我抱着您说。
您说：“好孩子... 不哭...”
是的 很 累
所以 才 泪
这是 泪 的理由吗？
还是 想 泪
所以 以 累为借口？
本来 就是 爱哭之人
可是 成长 教会 我
泪 不可轻弹
不止是 男生的权利
累 当 没尽全力时
也不可轻易 说出口
抱着 亲人
像 溺者 找到了 浮木
短暂的 安慰 和 温暖
心 安了
起伏的 情绪 被 抚平
难怪 在 您们眼中
我 终究 还是个 长不大的 孩子
轻易 流泪的我
看起来 像经不起 风浪的 船
漂浮不定 摇摆不止
随时被 暴风雨 和 海浪 吞噬
道行 不足
惟有 再继续 修行
期望有一天
能成为 一个 稳固 让人安心 的大船
在海上 乘风破浪
Saturday, April 2, 2011
空
有时候
不懂该用什么言语表达
或者该说
不知还有什么能说的
脑袋 堵塞了
脑筋 转不来
想法 无法传递
有时候
很多事情 都 无法解释
无法释怀
追根到底
也无法得知
缘由在哪 所因为何
只知道
是时候该 沉默了
听听歌 看看书 喝杯咖啡
或索性 闭上眼 睡它一个天昏地暗的
什么都 听不到 看不到
那该多好
不必知道 也不必理会
留下的 只有自己
最真实的 灵魂 :)
不懂该用什么言语表达
或者该说
不知还有什么能说的
脑袋 堵塞了
脑筋 转不来
想法 无法传递
有时候
很多事情 都 无法解释
无法释怀
追根到底
也无法得知
缘由在哪 所因为何
只知道
是时候该 沉默了
听听歌 看看书 喝杯咖啡
或索性 闭上眼 睡它一个天昏地暗的
什么都 听不到 看不到
那该多好
不必知道 也不必理会
留下的 只有自己
最真实的 灵魂 :)
Friday, March 25, 2011
Bitter Sweet
Life was going on as usual, seems like everything is carry on smoothly. Its a peaceful life that I have always wanted to have. I feel great and grateful for being able to have all the happy moments spent with my families and friends, sharing the laughter and also the joy with them. :) Studies are carry out as planned, although there are still some imperfection but overall it was fine and may I will complete it soon. At this moment, I feel that life was perfect and sweet. At least I had what I have wish for.
I couldn't believe when my life started to get back on track again, 'till I finally see things started to turn out better and better upon my hardwork paid. Yes, I did it!! Finally, I left only 2 steps to go and I am free from all the pain and anger that once tortured me that much. :)
I will never forget how hard it is for me to start building up my confidence again. You will never know how much effort that I have put to enable myself to walk through that dark period. Day by day I am praying to the Goddess to give me the strength to support myself and not falling down again. That was the darkest period in my life. I thought I have lost all the courage to stand up and fight, yet I know I have to, in order to wash away the humiliation that I once got from you.
All the sadness and shame that I have carried for such long period should end soon now. It's time for me to let it go. I think I had been tortured long enough though. With the final 2 steps that left for me to take, I will put an end to the nightmare.
A new begin will always waiting for me. ;)Wish myself luck and may I always have the courage and strength to go through all the bitter sweet in life.
I couldn't believe when my life started to get back on track again, 'till I finally see things started to turn out better and better upon my hardwork paid. Yes, I did it!! Finally, I left only 2 steps to go and I am free from all the pain and anger that once tortured me that much. :)
I will never forget how hard it is for me to start building up my confidence again. You will never know how much effort that I have put to enable myself to walk through that dark period. Day by day I am praying to the Goddess to give me the strength to support myself and not falling down again. That was the darkest period in my life. I thought I have lost all the courage to stand up and fight, yet I know I have to, in order to wash away the humiliation that I once got from you.
All the sadness and shame that I have carried for such long period should end soon now. It's time for me to let it go. I think I had been tortured long enough though. With the final 2 steps that left for me to take, I will put an end to the nightmare.
A new begin will always waiting for me. ;)Wish myself luck and may I always have the courage and strength to go through all the bitter sweet in life.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
The Adjustment Bureau
I went for the movie "The Adjustment Bureau" with my besty today. It's a movie that I have waited for so long since last year. Well, it didn't disappoint me though, its really a nice movie.
Basically, the movie is about the life of a young senator named David and his meeting with the girl of his life, Elise. The meeting with Elise not only change his life, but also affect his thinking and the choices that he made. Those who are in-charge for the planning of his life are not happy with the changes, so they have tried to stop them from seeing each other again. This make things doesn't go along well with them. But David is a very determined person and so do Elise. They decided to run away from the "arrangement" and wanted to have a free-will-life. At the end, their determination had granted them the life they dreamed.
Some said life is determined, you can't choose but you can at least do it well and make it better. I used to believe that sometime ago, because I was kept thinking of how bad luck am I. The thought of "Why Me?" keep poping up in my head whenver there is something bad happen. I wish that some powerful person will show up, fix things for me when I was tired of facing those problems in my life and dream that he would bring my life back on track whenever it goes wrong. Well, the wish never come true of course, not even once. *LOL I have got to work out a solution before I could waste more time on dreaming for the adjustment bureau to come and fix it up for me. Sounds sad in a way but think I am still a lucky one, to have the ability to live on my free will. ;)
Basically, the movie is about the life of a young senator named David and his meeting with the girl of his life, Elise. The meeting with Elise not only change his life, but also affect his thinking and the choices that he made. Those who are in-charge for the planning of his life are not happy with the changes, so they have tried to stop them from seeing each other again. This make things doesn't go along well with them. But David is a very determined person and so do Elise. They decided to run away from the "arrangement" and wanted to have a free-will-life. At the end, their determination had granted them the life they dreamed.
Some said life is determined, you can't choose but you can at least do it well and make it better. I used to believe that sometime ago, because I was kept thinking of how bad luck am I. The thought of "Why Me?" keep poping up in my head whenver there is something bad happen. I wish that some powerful person will show up, fix things for me when I was tired of facing those problems in my life and dream that he would bring my life back on track whenever it goes wrong. Well, the wish never come true of course, not even once. *LOL I have got to work out a solution before I could waste more time on dreaming for the adjustment bureau to come and fix it up for me. Sounds sad in a way but think I am still a lucky one, to have the ability to live on my free will. ;)
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Reflection
Just want to share a song in this post which has been one of my favourite songs since young. The theme song from the Disney movie - "Mulan". I may seem to have forgot the reason of falling in love with this song, but one thing that never change is that I never get annoyed or bored to listen it even though I have listened for hundred of times. :)
Reflection from "Mulan"
by Christina Aguilera / Coco Lee
Look at me
You may think you see
who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool
my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
I am now in a world
where I have to
hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
what's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must
be free to fly
That burns with a need
to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
- E.N.D -
I can only found the Christina Aguilera version for the video, although I used to listen to Coco's version. But there is a surprise though, that is I found the Chinese Mandarin version in Youtube while I am actually search for Coco's version. So, here it is, I will share it here as well. Hope you all will like it. :)
Reflection (Chinese Mandarin version)
by Coco Lee
仔细的 看著波光中清晰的倒影
是另一个自己
他属於 我最真实的表情
不愿意 生活中掩饰真心敷衍了
爱我的人的眼睛
我 心中的自己
每一秒 都愿意
为爱放手去追寻
用心去珍惜
隐藏在 心中每一个真实的心情
现在释放出去
我想要 呈现世界前更有力量的
更有勇气的生活
我 眼中的自己
每一天 都相信
活的越来越像我爱的自己
我心中的自己
每一秒 都愿意
为爱放手去追寻
用心去珍惜
只有爱里才拥有
自由气息
诚实 面对自己才有爱的决心
我 眼中的自己
每一天 都相信
活的越来越像我爱的自己
我心中的自己
每一秒 都愿意
为爱放手去追寻
去珍惜 去爱
为爱放手去追寻
用心去珍惜
- E.N.D -
Basically, I like the music and also found that the lyics is meaningful. I do agree that sometimes a song tells the story. Hope you all like it too. Cheers!! :)
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