下过雨的夜晚 有点冷
少了皮皮 感觉有点闷
随手把乱放的书本放进橱里
却也不小心 看到了一些不该看的
它 被尘封了许久的东西
不该再出现
为何 会突然出现在眼前
莫名其妙的出现
也让我 莫名其妙的想起
想起 那遥远的
被封锁起来 禁忌的记忆
相信 是无意 也是 不小心
选择 把回忆再次冰封
Just a piece of thought to be shared... Just some memories to remind the present...
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Sweet memory
What would you think about when talking about Penang? A place full of nice and good food? historical places? ferries? or a walk at the sea side? Well, I would say that I have thought of everything that I have mentioned above, except that this time I would like to add on another one extra on it. That's the sweet memory that I have during my visit to Penang last week. :)
This is not the first time I visit Penang, but its a special one if you would ask me. Yeap, its definitely a special one. Its something that wouldn't usually happen on me, but it did happened this time. That's make me feel lucky 'cause I get to have the chance to enjoy the trip with someone special. ;)
As we know, Penang is a paradise for food lovers. Char kuey teow, Har mee, Asam Laksa, Rojak, Chendol... Yummy!! I could find most of my favourite food here. Hehe.. Honestly, I really do feel happy to enjoy those nice food during the visit. Other than food, I also get to visited some of the historical places in Penang. Such as Toy Museum, Penang State Museum, Fort Cornwallis, the well known Kek Lok Si Temple of course, and so on.
It's nice to have someone to accompany along the trip. Someone to hold when I walk, someone to hug when I am cold, and someone to stay by my side when I am lost. I found that I am actually need someone to stay with me too. Although I know we will still be apart later, but I do hope that the sweet memory that we have gained from the trip will bound us together. Let it become something that we would treasure for.
I made some wishes at the Kek Lok Si Temple, hoping that everything will go on smoothly and I get to complete my degree courses soon. May the wish come true. No matter how, I believe it would. :)
To the special one, thanks for all the memories that you have gave me. I am grateful for it and it will stay inside my heart forever. I still remember the happy smiling faces that you have inside the photos that we have taken. To be frank, you look nice when you laugh. Don't give up on your smile no matter what comes ahead. Wish you all the best in all the future undercomes and stay happy. You will always have my best wishes. ;)
This is not the first time I visit Penang, but its a special one if you would ask me. Yeap, its definitely a special one. Its something that wouldn't usually happen on me, but it did happened this time. That's make me feel lucky 'cause I get to have the chance to enjoy the trip with someone special. ;)
As we know, Penang is a paradise for food lovers. Char kuey teow, Har mee, Asam Laksa, Rojak, Chendol... Yummy!! I could find most of my favourite food here. Hehe.. Honestly, I really do feel happy to enjoy those nice food during the visit. Other than food, I also get to visited some of the historical places in Penang. Such as Toy Museum, Penang State Museum, Fort Cornwallis, the well known Kek Lok Si Temple of course, and so on.
It's nice to have someone to accompany along the trip. Someone to hold when I walk, someone to hug when I am cold, and someone to stay by my side when I am lost. I found that I am actually need someone to stay with me too. Although I know we will still be apart later, but I do hope that the sweet memory that we have gained from the trip will bound us together. Let it become something that we would treasure for.
I made some wishes at the Kek Lok Si Temple, hoping that everything will go on smoothly and I get to complete my degree courses soon. May the wish come true. No matter how, I believe it would. :)
To the special one, thanks for all the memories that you have gave me. I am grateful for it and it will stay inside my heart forever. I still remember the happy smiling faces that you have inside the photos that we have taken. To be frank, you look nice when you laugh. Don't give up on your smile no matter what comes ahead. Wish you all the best in all the future undercomes and stay happy. You will always have my best wishes. ;)
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
December
Today is 28th of December 2010, there are 3 more days to go before 2011. I have started to counting down the days to the new year since yesterday, amazed at how the time could pass so effortlessly and coldly leave everything behind without any mercy.
December is one of my favourite months other than September. It's because its a month that full of joy and holidays. School and public holidays, Christmas and New Year... woohoo!! Well, I had a great time spent with my families and friends this December. Visited few places, went for movies and sing k session, gathering with friends... I really enjoy this semester break a lot.
Finished my final early of the month, straight went for movie with friends right after the last paper. Brought cousins for movies the next day before I went for the Sg trip at the weekend. Later went back to my work station for another 2 more weeks. I get to enjoy my holidays again at the end of the month and so I took few days to visit Penang during Christmas. :) I also get to spend a day with my friend on her birthday in the middle of the month. Not to mention I also manage to meet with my besties to have a short gathering last week.
I think thats the summary of the month, overall its a happy month for me. And the best part is I got to save myself a lot of nice memories and its something that I would like to keep in my heart forever. ;)
December is one of my favourite months other than September. It's because its a month that full of joy and holidays. School and public holidays, Christmas and New Year... woohoo!! Well, I had a great time spent with my families and friends this December. Visited few places, went for movies and sing k session, gathering with friends... I really enjoy this semester break a lot.
Finished my final early of the month, straight went for movie with friends right after the last paper. Brought cousins for movies the next day before I went for the Sg trip at the weekend. Later went back to my work station for another 2 more weeks. I get to enjoy my holidays again at the end of the month and so I took few days to visit Penang during Christmas. :) I also get to spend a day with my friend on her birthday in the middle of the month. Not to mention I also manage to meet with my besties to have a short gathering last week.
I think thats the summary of the month, overall its a happy month for me. And the best part is I got to save myself a lot of nice memories and its something that I would like to keep in my heart forever. ;)
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
沉淀
傍晚六点，天黑得像午夜似的，雨 滴答 滴答 滴答 不停地下。原本心情有点低落的我，不知哪来的兴致，随手用发夹把头发盘起，做起家务来。从扫地开始，然后换个地拖顺道把地也拖干净了，接着把房里也打扫一番，最后把原本的淡色床单换了，才总算大功告成。
每当想沉淀自己时，除了睡觉和看书，就会想到要做家务。习惯性地开着爱听的音乐，边做家务边哼歌，很快的就能抛开所有的思绪。很喜欢那样的感觉，尤其在雨天里，静静地一个人完成一件事。耳边除了音乐，就只有雨声。那一刻，仿佛抛开了所有，回到了原点，发现了最原始的自己。
雨，虽带来了清新空气和凉快的天气，但并不阻扰汗水的突击。随着做家务付出的劳力，汗水也毫不吝啬的尽情挥洒。当汗水遇上冷空气，身体还感到一丝的冷，人也为之精神了。突然好想有人能递上一杯热茶，让身子能暖和一下。
一个人哼着歌，静静地做着家务时，那感觉很悠闲、很自在。身体虽然感到很累，但精神上却是满足的。最后换上亮色床单时，整个房间看起来明亮多了，心情也随着开朗了。于是，决定了要带着这样的心情过每一天。
最近，思绪多了，没能好好处理，结果乱得一塌糊涂，连人也跟着乱了。刚巧藉着做家务来令自己静下心来。有多久没好好停下来看看自己了呢？不知道。感觉最后一次那么做，已经是很久很久以前的事了。习惯让自己持续的忙着，就算没什么好忙的，也不停的告诉自己还有很多事情需要处理，感觉那样就会充实了、也不会感到累了。但当静下来时，就会感到很疲倦、人也虚脱了。
做完了家务，流了一身汗，选择不吃晚餐，去冲了一个热水澡，那感觉很舒服，像是沉淀过后被筛洗干净的沙子。趁刚洗完澡的身体有点冷，吃了一碗热腾腾的粥，顿时身心都暖和了，为这个有点平凡的傍晚带来了一个不平凡的结尾。
在这个下过雨的晚上，我静静地完成了家务。思绪也平静了许多。但人也累了。过度挥霍的精神和体力，终于感到难以负荷，此刻只想倒下来好好睡一觉。醒来了，又会是心情开朗的一天。就像那总是在雨后出现的彩虹般灿烂。:)
每当想沉淀自己时，除了睡觉和看书，就会想到要做家务。习惯性地开着爱听的音乐，边做家务边哼歌，很快的就能抛开所有的思绪。很喜欢那样的感觉，尤其在雨天里，静静地一个人完成一件事。耳边除了音乐，就只有雨声。那一刻，仿佛抛开了所有，回到了原点，发现了最原始的自己。
雨，虽带来了清新空气和凉快的天气，但并不阻扰汗水的突击。随着做家务付出的劳力，汗水也毫不吝啬的尽情挥洒。当汗水遇上冷空气，身体还感到一丝的冷，人也为之精神了。突然好想有人能递上一杯热茶，让身子能暖和一下。
一个人哼着歌，静静地做着家务时，那感觉很悠闲、很自在。身体虽然感到很累，但精神上却是满足的。最后换上亮色床单时，整个房间看起来明亮多了，心情也随着开朗了。于是，决定了要带着这样的心情过每一天。
最近，思绪多了，没能好好处理，结果乱得一塌糊涂，连人也跟着乱了。刚巧藉着做家务来令自己静下心来。有多久没好好停下来看看自己了呢？不知道。感觉最后一次那么做，已经是很久很久以前的事了。习惯让自己持续的忙着，就算没什么好忙的，也不停的告诉自己还有很多事情需要处理，感觉那样就会充实了、也不会感到累了。但当静下来时，就会感到很疲倦、人也虚脱了。
做完了家务，流了一身汗，选择不吃晚餐，去冲了一个热水澡，那感觉很舒服，像是沉淀过后被筛洗干净的沙子。趁刚洗完澡的身体有点冷，吃了一碗热腾腾的粥，顿时身心都暖和了，为这个有点平凡的傍晚带来了一个不平凡的结尾。
在这个下过雨的晚上，我静静地完成了家务。思绪也平静了许多。但人也累了。过度挥霍的精神和体力，终于感到难以负荷，此刻只想倒下来好好睡一觉。醒来了，又会是心情开朗的一天。就像那总是在雨后出现的彩虹般灿烂。:)
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
大海
那天，和朋友们去喝了几杯，疯狂的玩了一晚。趁着朋友在海边玩水时，我站在整片大海面前，突然感觉到自己的渺小。蓝蓝的海，在夜幕下显得很黑、很神秘，像是有着许多不为人知的秘密。下过雨的海边，微风和大风不断的交替吹在脸上、发上和身上，为夜晚添了一丝凉意。
那一刻，真的很想你在身边。虽然知道那不可能，但心里还是想了。可能这就是人吧，总爱期待一些奇迹出现。朋友带点醉意地说，好想有个人陪在身边，但是那个互相喜欢的他却离他很远，所以他们没有在一起。我说，我们在一起了，但我们还是分开了。然后我们都笑了。是在笑对方吗？还是笑自己的傻？
站在海边的我，静静的看着那片海，细细的听着海水拍打岸边的声音。那种感觉很宁静、很轻松，好像烦恼都被海水带走了。我们对着大海呐喊，喊出了心中的郁结，感觉更舒服了。幸好吧里的音乐很强，应该听不见我们的叫喊声吧。
曾经，看过一本书叫“池塘男孩，鲸鱼女孩”。书里的男孩把女孩看得像鲸鱼一样巨大，总想着有一天能变成大海，好能容纳女孩，希望女孩能快乐自在的遨游在海中。但男孩没发现的是，在女孩心中的秘密。那就是他早已是一片大海了。就算他只是一个小池塘，女孩也愿意留在池塘里。说真的，那书看得我有点感动。有谁真能把身边的人看得那么重要，甚至于愿意变成大海去包容所有呢？女孩在男孩的包容下，快乐自由的实现了梦想；而男孩也真如大海般有着广阔的胸襟，始终如一的看着鲸鱼在水里游。
那天在地铁上，看见了一对老夫妻。两老看起来都有七十多岁了，在满是年轻人里的地铁坐着。老婆婆累了，就依偎着老公公的肩膀睡着了，老公公就支撑着老婆婆一起睡。突然觉得那画面很可爱、很美。一对夫妻要能互相扶持到老，谈何容易呢？那对老夫妻是幸运的，熬过了生活的煎熬后还能如此的恩爱。衷心祝福他们! :)
希望身边的朋友们，都能找到生命中的大海或鲸鱼。觉得自己已经找到的朋友们，也要好好珍惜身边人，别让海水干枯或鲸鱼溜走了。:)
那一刻，真的很想你在身边。虽然知道那不可能，但心里还是想了。可能这就是人吧，总爱期待一些奇迹出现。朋友带点醉意地说，好想有个人陪在身边，但是那个互相喜欢的他却离他很远，所以他们没有在一起。我说，我们在一起了，但我们还是分开了。然后我们都笑了。是在笑对方吗？还是笑自己的傻？
站在海边的我，静静的看着那片海，细细的听着海水拍打岸边的声音。那种感觉很宁静、很轻松，好像烦恼都被海水带走了。我们对着大海呐喊，喊出了心中的郁结，感觉更舒服了。幸好吧里的音乐很强，应该听不见我们的叫喊声吧。
曾经，看过一本书叫“池塘男孩，鲸鱼女孩”。书里的男孩把女孩看得像鲸鱼一样巨大，总想着有一天能变成大海，好能容纳女孩，希望女孩能快乐自在的遨游在海中。但男孩没发现的是，在女孩心中的秘密。那就是他早已是一片大海了。就算他只是一个小池塘，女孩也愿意留在池塘里。说真的，那书看得我有点感动。有谁真能把身边的人看得那么重要，甚至于愿意变成大海去包容所有呢？女孩在男孩的包容下，快乐自由的实现了梦想；而男孩也真如大海般有着广阔的胸襟，始终如一的看着鲸鱼在水里游。
那天在地铁上，看见了一对老夫妻。两老看起来都有七十多岁了，在满是年轻人里的地铁坐着。老婆婆累了，就依偎着老公公的肩膀睡着了，老公公就支撑着老婆婆一起睡。突然觉得那画面很可爱、很美。一对夫妻要能互相扶持到老，谈何容易呢？那对老夫妻是幸运的，熬过了生活的煎熬后还能如此的恩爱。衷心祝福他们! :)
希望身边的朋友们，都能找到生命中的大海或鲸鱼。觉得自己已经找到的朋友们，也要好好珍惜身边人，别让海水干枯或鲸鱼溜走了。:)
Crazy night-out
I took a trip to Sg for a short weekend getaway. Well, honestly, I would say its fun and full of surprise. I really do enjoy the trip. Thanks to all my travel companion, ym, Esther, and of course Roy. :)
We went to sentosa on the 2nd day of the trip. Took MRT from Harbour Front to Somerset, and dropped by at Clarke Quay in the middle, then later went back to Harbour Front again. Its seriously tiring, but its kind of fun to walk around though even we didin't manage to enter into USS. Later we spent our night in Sentosa beach, and i think its the highlight of our Sg trip. We took a lot of photos at the beach side, then had a drink in the pub. We laugh, we scream, we walked on the sandy beach and played with the sea water. In short, we had a great time that night. Although it ended up with a friend got drunk and we went back to hotel with blur eyes and legs not in order ('cause we can't walked straight).
It's a crazy night-out for us and the most challenging part is that, we need to wake up early on the next day. So as we have expected, we all checked out with blur faces and two big eye bags. *LOL I had plenty of time to reminisce the night on bus back to KL and so I had some flash-back of some special happening on that night.
I remembered the sky was very dark, and it was very windy at the beachside. I face the sea and enjoy the wind blow on my face and hair. That moment, I feel free. I had a few drink but still I felt cold for the night wind. That's when you came across my mind, I was thinking what you would be doing at that time, wishing you to be there by my side. But sadly, you were not, no matter how I wish you will be, it didn't come true.
Two of my friends got drunk and rest on the bench. They talked funny things and laughed non-stop. It's a new thing for us though, 'cause usually we wouldn't appear to each other like that. I felt sleepy and blur while another friend got kind of panic and worried to see our condition. *LOL But we manage to get back to the hotel later the night anyway, sound and safe of course. =p And so that's the end of our night in Sg. :)
We went to sentosa on the 2nd day of the trip. Took MRT from Harbour Front to Somerset, and dropped by at Clarke Quay in the middle, then later went back to Harbour Front again. Its seriously tiring, but its kind of fun to walk around though even we didin't manage to enter into USS. Later we spent our night in Sentosa beach, and i think its the highlight of our Sg trip. We took a lot of photos at the beach side, then had a drink in the pub. We laugh, we scream, we walked on the sandy beach and played with the sea water. In short, we had a great time that night. Although it ended up with a friend got drunk and we went back to hotel with blur eyes and legs not in order ('cause we can't walked straight).
It's a crazy night-out for us and the most challenging part is that, we need to wake up early on the next day. So as we have expected, we all checked out with blur faces and two big eye bags. *LOL I had plenty of time to reminisce the night on bus back to KL and so I had some flash-back of some special happening on that night.
I remembered the sky was very dark, and it was very windy at the beachside. I face the sea and enjoy the wind blow on my face and hair. That moment, I feel free. I had a few drink but still I felt cold for the night wind. That's when you came across my mind, I was thinking what you would be doing at that time, wishing you to be there by my side. But sadly, you were not, no matter how I wish you will be, it didn't come true.
Two of my friends got drunk and rest on the bench. They talked funny things and laughed non-stop. It's a new thing for us though, 'cause usually we wouldn't appear to each other like that. I felt sleepy and blur while another friend got kind of panic and worried to see our condition. *LOL But we manage to get back to the hotel later the night anyway, sound and safe of course. =p And so that's the end of our night in Sg. :)
Saturday, November 20, 2010
冷战
理智 它说
情绪管理 是一门很重要的功课
因为 情绪主控了 人的思想和行动力
没了理性的人 和兽没两样
爱恨 愤怒 妒忌 贪心 自尊
是人的 七情六欲 也是可怕的 心魔
只有 理性的人
才能掌控情绪
战胜心魔 驾驭心理 控制渴望
任性和刁蛮 是对双胞胎
它们说
随心所欲最重要 做人高兴最要紧
跟自己的渴望过不去的 是傻子
它们 实现了 人的渴望
让心魔 堂而皇之的 登堂入室
征服人的 理性
曾经
理智 和 心魔 有过协议
彼此 相铺相成
相安无事了好几个世纪
但
心魔 厌倦了 安乐的日子
太无趣了
于是在双胞胎的 怂恿下
对理智 发起了 攻击
战争 一触即发
措手不及的 理智
几乎全军覆没
不但 讨厌心魔的 不守信
更 痛恨自己被太平盛世的假象蒙骗 而导致的疏忽
心魔大军 事无忌惮地 迈向摇摇欲坠的 城堡
毫不留情地 发起攻击
被囚禁已久的 渴望 得到自由
尽情的 在天空中翱翔 在草地上奔跑
理智 无力地 维护着 仅存的一点 理性
无助地 留守着 曾经坚固无比的 城堡
大军 一步步 逼近
胜利 近在眼前
千钧一发之际
冷静 挺身而出
唤醒了 人的理性 起了防御
阻挡了 大军的前进
大军 暂缓了 攻击
却在 城堡外 驻守
虎视眈眈
等待着 下一次的 突击
期望着 有一天能 进驻城堡
受过 教训的 理智
不敢怠慢地 日夜防守
两族战争 互不相让
情绪 紧绷 拉扯
无言以对 冷战持续
情绪管理 是一门很重要的功课
因为 情绪主控了 人的思想和行动力
没了理性的人 和兽没两样
爱恨 愤怒 妒忌 贪心 自尊
是人的 七情六欲 也是可怕的 心魔
只有 理性的人
才能掌控情绪
战胜心魔 驾驭心理 控制渴望
任性和刁蛮 是对双胞胎
它们说
随心所欲最重要 做人高兴最要紧
跟自己的渴望过不去的 是傻子
它们 实现了 人的渴望
让心魔 堂而皇之的 登堂入室
征服人的 理性
曾经
理智 和 心魔 有过协议
彼此 相铺相成
相安无事了好几个世纪
但
心魔 厌倦了 安乐的日子
太无趣了
于是在双胞胎的 怂恿下
对理智 发起了 攻击
战争 一触即发
措手不及的 理智
几乎全军覆没
不但 讨厌心魔的 不守信
更 痛恨自己被太平盛世的假象蒙骗 而导致的疏忽
心魔大军 事无忌惮地 迈向摇摇欲坠的 城堡
毫不留情地 发起攻击
被囚禁已久的 渴望 得到自由
尽情的 在天空中翱翔 在草地上奔跑
理智 无力地 维护着 仅存的一点 理性
无助地 留守着 曾经坚固无比的 城堡
大军 一步步 逼近
胜利 近在眼前
千钧一发之际
冷静 挺身而出
唤醒了 人的理性 起了防御
阻挡了 大军的前进
大军 暂缓了 攻击
却在 城堡外 驻守
虎视眈眈
等待着 下一次的 突击
期望着 有一天能 进驻城堡
受过 教训的 理智
不敢怠慢地 日夜防守
两族战争 互不相让
情绪 紧绷 拉扯
无言以对 冷战持续
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Phase of Life
It is November now, time flew, few more weeks and it will lead us to a brand new year. I am currently doing my degree in Help, nothing much that I could say about it, it's just like carrying a routine job for me. One thing that I wish for, is to complete my degree as soon as possible.
I still remembered, there are times when others tried to console me, I got more frustrated and upset instead of grateful. Why am I having that kind of feeling? Shouldn't I feel better and glad? That time I can't find my words to describe my feeling, bt now I do. It was a mixed feeling of disgustion and irritation. I felt disgusted with myself when people console me, as if they are sympatizing. I don't need anyone's sympathy. I felt helpless when I found that I can't solve it myself. But I refuse to get help from the others, mum said I am stubborn. Well, may be she was right, I am stubborn. Afterall, I am still me, the one and only me.
There are some times, when I think I can't stand it anymore and that I will get emotional break down anytime soon. I shared my experience and feelings with my besties, surprisingly I found that I am not the only one who face this kind of problem. So later we had come out with a conclusion, that it was just a phase of lifes that we have to go through at least once a while. Sounds sad huh? Life is really tiring, agree no?
I think I am currently having the phase where I can get depress easily. I got upset and angry over some small matter, just because I am too frustrated. I cried over for nothing, just because its the only way I can release my mixed feeling. I got either extremely depressed or extremely hyper, its just too emotional until I can't control it. My besties told me that I need to learn to take it easy, don't over stress on myself. I agreed with her, think I really need to take a break. Somehow, I still have to go through it myself. Sadly, we can't ask help from the others. As we know that, no one could help even though they are willing to. Reality is cruel and only the strongest could survive. And life as we know, is the best teacher.
I still remembered, there are times when others tried to console me, I got more frustrated and upset instead of grateful. Why am I having that kind of feeling? Shouldn't I feel better and glad? That time I can't find my words to describe my feeling, bt now I do. It was a mixed feeling of disgustion and irritation. I felt disgusted with myself when people console me, as if they are sympatizing. I don't need anyone's sympathy. I felt helpless when I found that I can't solve it myself. But I refuse to get help from the others, mum said I am stubborn. Well, may be she was right, I am stubborn. Afterall, I am still me, the one and only me.
There are some times, when I think I can't stand it anymore and that I will get emotional break down anytime soon. I shared my experience and feelings with my besties, surprisingly I found that I am not the only one who face this kind of problem. So later we had come out with a conclusion, that it was just a phase of lifes that we have to go through at least once a while. Sounds sad huh? Life is really tiring, agree no?
I think I am currently having the phase where I can get depress easily. I got upset and angry over some small matter, just because I am too frustrated. I cried over for nothing, just because its the only way I can release my mixed feeling. I got either extremely depressed or extremely hyper, its just too emotional until I can't control it. My besties told me that I need to learn to take it easy, don't over stress on myself. I agreed with her, think I really need to take a break. Somehow, I still have to go through it myself. Sadly, we can't ask help from the others. As we know that, no one could help even though they are willing to. Reality is cruel and only the strongest could survive. And life as we know, is the best teacher.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Mummy's Birthday
Today was a special day, as it was my dearest mummy's birthday. :) So, Happy Birthday, MUM!!!
Finished class at noon and after settled my things in school, I went home at late noon. Get changed and off we go to mv.
Reached mv about 4pm, we direct head to the Fong Lye Taiwanese Restaurant. It's a nice place to have tea and some snacks during the noon time. We had a set meal, sweet potato balls and also a oolong tea for 2 person. We decided to share the food as we don't want to miss the dinner later. *LOL Anyway, the food is nice, highly recommend sweet potato balls (it's a MUST eat item. haha..), peanut ice, oolong tea, and "san bei ji" set meal.
We walked around the mall after meal, to help digestion at the same time. haha.. I saw a few nice bags and clothing, but too bad I don't have much credit for that. =.= POOR me!! *HEAVY SIGH So we just ended up with window shopping.
Later, we went for the Gardens newly opened Japanese restaurant - Kita No Zen for dinner. The restaurant consist of two parts, one for the dining and another one for ice creams and desserts, which refer to as Hokkaido Ice Cream. So for those who just want to rest and have themself a sweet treat, can always go for the Hokkaido Ice Cream. The ice cream is not really expensive though, and the Tiramisu which is my mum's favourite of the night, is highly recommended. The price is slightly higher than Zanmai, but the food is nice. At least I am satisfied for those that I have ordered. :)
We called it off a day after dinner. Though there is no birthday surprise, but I am happy that my mum enjoyed the meal that I bought her. :) Again, Happy Birthday MUM!! Love ya..
Finished class at noon and after settled my things in school, I went home at late noon. Get changed and off we go to mv.
Reached mv about 4pm, we direct head to the Fong Lye Taiwanese Restaurant. It's a nice place to have tea and some snacks during the noon time. We had a set meal, sweet potato balls and also a oolong tea for 2 person. We decided to share the food as we don't want to miss the dinner later. *LOL Anyway, the food is nice, highly recommend sweet potato balls (it's a MUST eat item. haha..), peanut ice, oolong tea, and "san bei ji" set meal.
We walked around the mall after meal, to help digestion at the same time. haha.. I saw a few nice bags and clothing, but too bad I don't have much credit for that. =.= POOR me!! *HEAVY SIGH So we just ended up with window shopping.
Later, we went for the Gardens newly opened Japanese restaurant - Kita No Zen for dinner. The restaurant consist of two parts, one for the dining and another one for ice creams and desserts, which refer to as Hokkaido Ice Cream. So for those who just want to rest and have themself a sweet treat, can always go for the Hokkaido Ice Cream. The ice cream is not really expensive though, and the Tiramisu which is my mum's favourite of the night, is highly recommended. The price is slightly higher than Zanmai, but the food is nice. At least I am satisfied for those that I have ordered. :)
We called it off a day after dinner. Though there is no birthday surprise, but I am happy that my mum enjoyed the meal that I bought her. :) Again, Happy Birthday MUM!! Love ya..
Dearest Mum with her favourite Tiramisu :)
xoxo :)
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Best Friends
I would define this week as a nightmare. Today was only Tuesday, but I have already received two bad news, each a day. And what upset me most is that it came from both of my best friends.
To MH,
I understand how you feel. Trust me, I know it well, as I have gone through it myself too. I know there is nothing much that I can say to help you feel better. But I can always be a good listener if you need someone to listen or talk to. Please don't keep it to urself, you will feel better to spill it out. That's what best friend meant for. Give yourself some time to go through this.
To YM,
I couldn't tell how sad you were to lose someone closed. I know its's hard to accept such a bad news and I know it's not convincing at all for me to ask you not to cry. As I know that no matter how tough we might be, we will never be ready to send away someone we love.
We might always caught in such situation along our life journey. So all I wish is that there will be less obstacles and challenges, even if its unavoidable, please give us the strength to face it bravely and go through it.
To MH,
I understand how you feel. Trust me, I know it well, as I have gone through it myself too. I know there is nothing much that I can say to help you feel better. But I can always be a good listener if you need someone to listen or talk to. Please don't keep it to urself, you will feel better to spill it out. That's what best friend meant for. Give yourself some time to go through this.
To YM,
I couldn't tell how sad you were to lose someone closed. I know its's hard to accept such a bad news and I know it's not convincing at all for me to ask you not to cry. As I know that no matter how tough we might be, we will never be ready to send away someone we love.
We might always caught in such situation along our life journey. So all I wish is that there will be less obstacles and challenges, even if its unavoidable, please give us the strength to face it bravely and go through it.
Monday, October 18, 2010
Something different...
New semester has begin last week, and so my study life starts again. Attending classes, sitting for tests and exams, squeezing the brain for assignments and reports seem to be an unchangeble routine for study life. I have always hoping for something different and extraordinary to help spice up my life and day.
I was working part time for the past few weeks during the semester break. It's a call center job, quite challenging though if you aren't someone who likes to talk and deal with people. As someimes we need to explain the situation to customer and help them to understand better. It's an easy job for most of the time, except when we meet some fussy and frustrating customers. Day would be like hell then.
Few weeks of working and gone my semester break. Many things happened throughout these time, and it upset me a lot. I am worried, scared and stressed. In short, I am exhausted. So, I have decided to arrange myself a weekend getaway.
It might not be perfect, but it's nothing better and I am happy. At last, there is some time for me to rest and take a deep breath. No more traffic jam, no more driving in the early morning, no more rushing meal, no more early wake-up, no more business centre and shopping complex. Everything back to the original, where I can enjoy my meal and walk around slowly without rushing. :)
It's nice to have someone to accompany, when I no longer need to take my meal and walk alone. It's just too good to be true for me. Sometimes, I am just tired to take up my responsibility and role. But time passed and it's time for me to wake up from the sweet dream. I packed my things and prepared myself to play my part again. There is always someone and something waiting for me. Forever I can't escape from it.
I realize that it's just a dream that I have to wake up from at last. Unwillingly, I took the first step and walked out from your sight. It's no doubt that I felt something different this weekend, and it will be something that worth to be treasured. I am looking forward for the next surprise.
xoxo :)
I was working part time for the past few weeks during the semester break. It's a call center job, quite challenging though if you aren't someone who likes to talk and deal with people. As someimes we need to explain the situation to customer and help them to understand better. It's an easy job for most of the time, except when we meet some fussy and frustrating customers. Day would be like hell then.
Few weeks of working and gone my semester break. Many things happened throughout these time, and it upset me a lot. I am worried, scared and stressed. In short, I am exhausted. So, I have decided to arrange myself a weekend getaway.
It might not be perfect, but it's nothing better and I am happy. At last, there is some time for me to rest and take a deep breath. No more traffic jam, no more driving in the early morning, no more rushing meal, no more early wake-up, no more business centre and shopping complex. Everything back to the original, where I can enjoy my meal and walk around slowly without rushing. :)
It's nice to have someone to accompany, when I no longer need to take my meal and walk alone. It's just too good to be true for me. Sometimes, I am just tired to take up my responsibility and role. But time passed and it's time for me to wake up from the sweet dream. I packed my things and prepared myself to play my part again. There is always someone and something waiting for me. Forever I can't escape from it.
I realize that it's just a dream that I have to wake up from at last. Unwillingly, I took the first step and walked out from your sight. It's no doubt that I felt something different this weekend, and it will be something that worth to be treasured. I am looking forward for the next surprise.
xoxo :)
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
家
家，不大但很温暖；不热闹，但却很温馨。
家中的各人，都安分的守着自己的职责和本分，为家带来了宁静和平。
给和蔼慈祥的您，
您是我们家的精神支柱。您总是笑脸迎人，从不抱怨。对于所面对的一切，总是抱持着乐观的态度。亲切和一视同仁为您赢得了家中各人的爱戴和尊敬。
给不辞劳苦的您们，
您们给于她无微不至的照顾和无时无刻的陪伴，那可是耗精神和耐性的差事。要是没了您们，我们该怎么办呢？
给稳重老实的您，
你可说是家中的依靠。无论大事小事，你总是不嫌其烦的第一时间出现，只为了让家人安心和得到最好的照顾。
给耐心贤惠的您，
你是他的好帮手，总在他身旁给于最多的支持和帮助。你从不计较的付出，只因为那也是你的家。
给不善言辞的您，
广东人有句话：“别人笑我太疯癫，我笑他人看不穿。” 你总是我行我素，不介意别人的眼光，只为自己而活。不善于沟通的你，常让别人误会了你的意思，而你总是一副无所谓的样子。其实，你是个心地善良和有自己的一套想法的好人。
给嘴硬心软的您，
您总是一副很坚强的样子，好像没什么事能难倒您。坚韧的您总有办法解决迎面而来的问题，但岁月催人，您老了。但年纪渐长的您开始多了一份慈祥和包容，让我感到自豪和庆幸。
家，是由一对夫妻共同筑成的，继而延伸至儿女、孙子。 家中各人，性格各异，却因为缘分而成了家人，让爱和包容来联系着彼此。我很庆幸，有这个家。:)
家中的各人，都安分的守着自己的职责和本分，为家带来了宁静和平。
给和蔼慈祥的您，
您是我们家的精神支柱。您总是笑脸迎人，从不抱怨。对于所面对的一切，总是抱持着乐观的态度。亲切和一视同仁为您赢得了家中各人的爱戴和尊敬。
给不辞劳苦的您们，
您们给于她无微不至的照顾和无时无刻的陪伴，那可是耗精神和耐性的差事。要是没了您们，我们该怎么办呢？
给稳重老实的您，
你可说是家中的依靠。无论大事小事，你总是不嫌其烦的第一时间出现，只为了让家人安心和得到最好的照顾。
给耐心贤惠的您，
你是他的好帮手，总在他身旁给于最多的支持和帮助。你从不计较的付出，只因为那也是你的家。
给不善言辞的您，
广东人有句话：“别人笑我太疯癫，我笑他人看不穿。” 你总是我行我素，不介意别人的眼光，只为自己而活。不善于沟通的你，常让别人误会了你的意思，而你总是一副无所谓的样子。其实，你是个心地善良和有自己的一套想法的好人。
给嘴硬心软的您，
您总是一副很坚强的样子，好像没什么事能难倒您。坚韧的您总有办法解决迎面而来的问题，但岁月催人，您老了。但年纪渐长的您开始多了一份慈祥和包容，让我感到自豪和庆幸。
家，是由一对夫妻共同筑成的，继而延伸至儿女、孙子。 家中各人，性格各异，却因为缘分而成了家人，让爱和包容来联系着彼此。我很庆幸，有这个家。:)
Thursday, October 7, 2010
人生
很多人常问，人的一生到底有多长？知足的人会说，能活到六十多岁还身体健康的就很不错了；恋世的人却会说，人当然是越长寿的好。要是换作你呢，会希望自己是越长寿的好？还是觉得人生苦短但只要活得充实就好？
朋友曾开玩笑的说，人生好苦，我只想活到六十岁就好了。另一个朋友说，我只想活到六十八岁，看着孩子长大，那我就无憾了。好友也说，到六十岁了就好，太长的人生还真不好受。人生确实不好过，不但要熬过无数的酸甜苦辣、悲欢离合，还要经历数不清的考验和难关。连自以为天不怕、地不怕的新新人类都大喊受不了了。
恋恋红尘，虽说人生苦短，但还是有人眷恋不已，人确实是矛盾的。长辈说，今世生为人，经历过了那么多已经够了，人生也只不过是生老病死。要是有来世，千万别再为人，要脱离轮回，在另一个世界过一些平静安详的日子。她说，人总要学习放开双手，让一切顺其自然，回归大自然的定律。有时，放手反而是成全，没了牵绊，才能走得安心。话，我是听进去了；但心却莫名的在抗拒。
看来，我还需要点时间去消化。在我还没完全了解前，就让泪尽情地流吧。以前阿姨常对我说，眼泪都是高贵的珍珠，所以别随意掉眼泪。但这次，我觉得珍珠虽贵但却掉的值得。
戏如人生，人生如戏。戏总会有做完、散场的一天，无论看戏的人多么恋栈着不肯离去，也终需离场。
朋友曾开玩笑的说，人生好苦，我只想活到六十岁就好了。另一个朋友说，我只想活到六十八岁，看着孩子长大，那我就无憾了。好友也说，到六十岁了就好，太长的人生还真不好受。人生确实不好过，不但要熬过无数的酸甜苦辣、悲欢离合，还要经历数不清的考验和难关。连自以为天不怕、地不怕的新新人类都大喊受不了了。
恋恋红尘，虽说人生苦短，但还是有人眷恋不已，人确实是矛盾的。长辈说，今世生为人，经历过了那么多已经够了，人生也只不过是生老病死。要是有来世，千万别再为人，要脱离轮回，在另一个世界过一些平静安详的日子。她说，人总要学习放开双手，让一切顺其自然，回归大自然的定律。有时，放手反而是成全，没了牵绊，才能走得安心。话，我是听进去了；但心却莫名的在抗拒。
看来，我还需要点时间去消化。在我还没完全了解前，就让泪尽情地流吧。以前阿姨常对我说，眼泪都是高贵的珍珠，所以别随意掉眼泪。但这次，我觉得珍珠虽贵但却掉的值得。
戏如人生，人生如戏。戏总会有做完、散场的一天，无论看戏的人多么恋栈着不肯离去，也终需离场。
Afraid
I think I am getting more coward by days, as I found myself started to feel scared easily. I am.. especially too scared to lose...
I know I am demanding, and that I am asking a little too much now. But I just couldn't help myself of not being afraid.
Why can't things stay the same as they were, as usual, as they used to be? I hate changes as I am not good in adapting to changes. Yet, sadly, changes is unavoidable.
"Afraid of nothing and be strong, don't let the others take granted on you." you said. You used to tell me whenever I got upset with friends in school. Will you get disappointed and worried if you found that I am still a crying baby when going through hard times?
"There is always times when we have to learn how to let go of something." said my besties. Yes, I know it well. But its always hard when it comes to action. Someday, somehow, I know I will finally have to learn, regardless of my willingness.
I am scared of losing the one I love and care...
I am scared of the times which my love ones are no longer staying beside me...
I am scared of passing through the days without my love ones supporting me...
I know I am demanding, and that I am asking a little too much now. But I just couldn't help myself of not being afraid.
You used to comfort me and hold me around your arms when I cry. "Silly girl." you said. Yes, I am. I didn't learn my lesson well, and so I am still not good in holding my tears.
You used to take care of me when I was weak and sick. But there is nothing I can do for you, when you need to. And that makes me feel helpless.
You used to laugh on my jokes and silliness, and seldom got angry with my pranks. You used to scold me when I am not listening to you, but you will never raise your hand on me.
Why can't things stay the same as they were, as usual, as they used to be? I hate changes as I am not good in adapting to changes. Yet, sadly, changes is unavoidable.
"Afraid of nothing and be strong, don't let the others take granted on you." you said. You used to tell me whenever I got upset with friends in school. Will you get disappointed and worried if you found that I am still a crying baby when going through hard times?
"There is always times when we have to learn how to let go of something." said my besties. Yes, I know it well. But its always hard when it comes to action. Someday, somehow, I know I will finally have to learn, regardless of my willingness.
Monday, September 20, 2010
Sometimes...
Sometimes...
I wish you are here, we will sit side by side, or just walk together, even its just for a while.
Sometimes...
I will think about the time that we have spent together. When I am walking on the street alone, drinking coffee or even reading books.
Sometimes...
When I was upset and helpless, I hope you will be the first to be there to offer me your hand.
Sometimes...
When I feel so much wanted to cry, I hope you will be the one who comfort me and lend me your shoulder.
Sometimes...
When I am losing my faith and hope, please be the one who hold me tight and don't let me fall further.
Sometimes... Sometimes...
I just wish you are here, as simple as that. :)
I wish you are here, we will sit side by side, or just walk together, even its just for a while.
Sometimes...
I will think about the time that we have spent together. When I am walking on the street alone, drinking coffee or even reading books.
Sometimes...
When I was upset and helpless, I hope you will be the first to be there to offer me your hand.
Sometimes...
When I feel so much wanted to cry, I hope you will be the one who comfort me and lend me your shoulder.
Sometimes...
When I am losing my faith and hope, please be the one who hold me tight and don't let me fall further.
Sometimes... Sometimes...
I just wish you are here, as simple as that. :)
生日后感
生日过去了，成了二十四岁已经一个星期了。生活一切依旧，该多姿多彩的时候没有；该安静的时候却显得过分活跃了一点。无言.... =.=
好想去旅行，到不一样的地方走走，看不一样的景色，体验不一样的经历。但要到何时才有那样的机会？爸说，我是个心野的孩子，总想着要到处乱跑、乱逛，不安于一室清静。我是吗？不知道... 旁观者清，或许爸看到了我所看不见的自己，只要自己不是精神分裂就好。哈哈... =p
这么快就二十四了，真不可思议。几乎每年我都要重复说个几遍不可思议，因为真的觉得是个奇迹，庆幸自己又能过多一年的生日。有一套电影说得好，岁月是最厉害的神偷，青春和时间都一去不复返。
离开学校多年，很多朋友都失去了联络了。不善言词和社交的我总避免参与太多人的聚会，但最近发觉有时和一些多年不见的朋友见面或许也是不错的，可以从新认识，也可以听听别人的经历。
心里总莫名的感到恐惧，想必我有太多未完成的心愿，所以那么害怕时间的流逝。哈哈... 有时也不禁要自嘲自己是个胆小鬼。很难想象这么大一个人，有时还会被灵异片吓得不敢关灯睡觉。无言哦... =.=
外婆说得好，我也许真是傻孩子。一时笑得开心，一时难过流泪；心情时而高涨，时而低落，确实让人不敢恭维。尤其爱躲在外婆怀里哭。还好外婆只说我傻，却没嫌弃我可能是精神错乱。=p 多年过去，我在外婆眼中，却始终是傻傻又爱哭的我。:)
好想去旅行，到不一样的地方走走，看不一样的景色，体验不一样的经历。但要到何时才有那样的机会？爸说，我是个心野的孩子，总想着要到处乱跑、乱逛，不安于一室清静。我是吗？不知道... 旁观者清，或许爸看到了我所看不见的自己，只要自己不是精神分裂就好。哈哈... =p
这么快就二十四了，真不可思议。几乎每年我都要重复说个几遍不可思议，因为真的觉得是个奇迹，庆幸自己又能过多一年的生日。有一套电影说得好，岁月是最厉害的神偷，青春和时间都一去不复返。
离开学校多年，很多朋友都失去了联络了。不善言词和社交的我总避免参与太多人的聚会，但最近发觉有时和一些多年不见的朋友见面或许也是不错的，可以从新认识，也可以听听别人的经历。
心里总莫名的感到恐惧，想必我有太多未完成的心愿，所以那么害怕时间的流逝。哈哈... 有时也不禁要自嘲自己是个胆小鬼。很难想象这么大一个人，有时还会被灵异片吓得不敢关灯睡觉。无言哦... =.=
外婆说得好，我也许真是傻孩子。一时笑得开心，一时难过流泪；心情时而高涨，时而低落，确实让人不敢恭维。尤其爱躲在外婆怀里哭。还好外婆只说我傻，却没嫌弃我可能是精神错乱。=p 多年过去，我在外婆眼中，却始终是傻傻又爱哭的我。:)
Thursday, September 2, 2010
我是谁
我是谁 我是谁 我是谁 by Magic Power
我是谁 你是否常常这样问自己
我是谁 总是活在别人的期望里
我是谁 是谁又擅自帮你定义了
你是谁 只有不是自己才安全
为什麽 你以为这个世界很美丽
为什麽 你爱这个世界胜过爱自己
为什麽 这个世界不给你平等待遇
为什麽 到底做错了什麽
朋友都说你太 太 太奇怪
在背後把你当成笑 笑 笑话看
每一个动作都被瞎猜
他们说你是个不能容忍的存在
你想要的很 很 很简单
不过就是最普通的 的 的平凡
诚实做自己有时候很难
但是请你勇敢的试一次看看
无论他们又说什麽 闲言闲语无法伤害我
世界上只有一个我 没人能代替的我
无论他们又做什麽 小动作无法打败我
我知道自己是最美丽的
The most beautiful
会不会 上帝把你的灵魂放错了身体
会不会 是故意整你不是不小心
会不会 你常常都觉得力不从心
会不会 坚持要做自己太危险
凭什麽 难道比较特别就是不对
凭什麽 先下了注解在认识之前
凭什麽 只不过想认真的活一遍
凭什麽 随便就把人定罪
我是谁 这个问题困扰你多少天多少夜
我是谁 谁有资格决定你怎样才是对
我是谁 我是谁我是谁
我就是我你就是你
认真做自己的人最美丽
E.N.D
小时候，常常对着镜子问自己，我是谁？
那时的自己，很单纯，只知道自己是爸妈的孩子，要当个家人眼里的乖孩子、好学生。为此，常要求自己读书成绩要好、品行要端正。虽然任性，但也不敢逆长辈们的意思，只希望能当个他们想看见的自己。
但却没问过自己，是否真的为这样的自己感到开心。小时候不懂得，何谓开心的做自己，只知道听家人的话是应该的。长大了，才发觉做人要独立自主，要勇敢的把想法表达出来，更要懂得如何争取。后来，家人觉得我变了，变得不爱听话、变得意见多多、变得令他们觉得我不是以前的我。
改了从前的胆小怕事，懦弱没主见；我成了现在的自己。虽然比起其他人，我不见得特别好。可是，我突然，很喜欢现在的自己。
我是谁？我就是我!! :)
Monday, August 30, 2010
Dream and Reality
There is a period of time,
when I used to tell myself every morning before I got down from my bed, that it is just a nightmare. Its a really bad dream. I should lie down, close my eyes and head back to sleep again. And later when I open my eyes again, everything will be back to normal and nothing has ever happened.
There is also a period of time,
when I used to tell myself that all these are not real. It's either I am still dreaming or someone was trying to make fun of me. I shouldn't believe it, that is because even what we saw with the eyes of our own, doesn't mean the truth. I shall be patient and wait for the someone to tell me that it was just a joke afterall. I also shall just wait for the sun to rise from the east and I will wake up from the horrible dream.
But sadly,
I found that I am actually awake and aware of what is going on. Although I tried so hard telling myself that I am not, but that's the reality that I should faced.
Reality that is cruelly true.
when I used to tell myself every morning before I got down from my bed, that it is just a nightmare. Its a really bad dream. I should lie down, close my eyes and head back to sleep again. And later when I open my eyes again, everything will be back to normal and nothing has ever happened.
There is also a period of time,
when I used to tell myself that all these are not real. It's either I am still dreaming or someone was trying to make fun of me. I shouldn't believe it, that is because even what we saw with the eyes of our own, doesn't mean the truth. I shall be patient and wait for the someone to tell me that it was just a joke afterall. I also shall just wait for the sun to rise from the east and I will wake up from the horrible dream.
But sadly,
I found that I am actually awake and aware of what is going on. Although I tried so hard telling myself that I am not, but that's the reality that I should faced.
Reality that is cruelly true.
Forgive and Forget
I have nothing much to share in this post. Just a feeling, to write down my thoughts.
Sometime ago, something happened. Although time have passed and things have changed, but the lessons are remain still. So are the memories. Eventually it became a nightmare which haunted me whenever I feel weak and helpless. I couldn't help myself to not think about it, no matter how hard I tried. I was still, trapped in the past.
I wanted to let it go so so much, and free myself from the hatred and vengence. But why? Why is it so hard to forgive and forget? I don't wish to dwell in the past, but I can't convince myself to do so. Never have I felt that much of anger. Never have I felt that lost. Never have I felt that despair.
I am learning on how to forgive. But can I forget? and pretend that nothing has happened before? I don't know. It is always easy to forgive, but it never does when it comes to forget. Because the brain will captures those memories which have strong affection on our feelings. May be I just couldn't forget the feeling that I once had. The lessons are too great and it left me nothing, but the horrible truth to bear.
Time have past and things have changed throughout all these while. I have changed but something in me are still remain. And I know there is still a long way for me to go, to finally learn to let go.
Sometime ago, something happened. Although time have passed and things have changed, but the lessons are remain still. So are the memories. Eventually it became a nightmare which haunted me whenever I feel weak and helpless. I couldn't help myself to not think about it, no matter how hard I tried. I was still, trapped in the past.
I wanted to let it go so so much, and free myself from the hatred and vengence. But why? Why is it so hard to forgive and forget? I don't wish to dwell in the past, but I can't convince myself to do so. Never have I felt that much of anger. Never have I felt that lost. Never have I felt that despair.
I am learning on how to forgive. But can I forget? and pretend that nothing has happened before? I don't know. It is always easy to forgive, but it never does when it comes to forget. Because the brain will captures those memories which have strong affection on our feelings. May be I just couldn't forget the feeling that I once had. The lessons are too great and it left me nothing, but the horrible truth to bear.
Time have past and things have changed throughout all these while. I have changed but something in me are still remain. And I know there is still a long way for me to go, to finally learn to let go.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
心的悸动
看了好友的分享
心里是一阵莫名的悸动
感慨 羡慕 抑或期盼？
曾经有人说
我 冷漠无情 喜怒无常
女生该有的浪漫 脆弱 依赖 撒娇
在我身上找不到
当时的我
自豪的抬起头
自负得连解释也免了
倒也乐得自在
曾经
自负于那倔强 有原则的自己
自豪于那仿佛有 勇气撑过所有困难的自己
但却未曾想过
是否会因此 让自己变得不近人情 难以接近
从来就知道 自己
没有无可救药的浪漫情怀
没有当小女人被保护的份
没有女生小鸟依人的天分
只希望 没因此令身边的人失望
我还是乐得当个独特的自己
但 心....
依然在悸动
心里是一阵莫名的悸动
感慨 羡慕 抑或期盼？
曾经有人说
我 冷漠无情 喜怒无常
女生该有的浪漫 脆弱 依赖 撒娇
在我身上找不到
当时的我
自豪的抬起头
自负得连解释也免了
倒也乐得自在
曾经
自负于那倔强 有原则的自己
自豪于那仿佛有 勇气撑过所有困难的自己
但却未曾想过
是否会因此 让自己变得不近人情 难以接近
从来就知道 自己
没有无可救药的浪漫情怀
没有当小女人被保护的份
没有女生小鸟依人的天分
只希望 没因此令身边的人失望
我还是乐得当个独特的自己
但 心....
依然在悸动
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Being Together
Last night, I went yc with my Uni friend at Wings Cafe. Reached there at about 9, we soon find ourself a comfortable seat to enjoy the night. It's a cooling night, together with the Venice Shore that I have ordered for myself and the soft music. Hmm... I really do enjoy the night in such ambience. :)
While me and my friend are enjoying the music and chatting, there is some happening in the cafe. There is a guy who proposed his girlfriend on the spot. He prepared a video of the memories along their 8 years relationship, and he suddenly showed up with a big bouquet of flower on his hand. He kneel down in front of her and ask her to marry him. Later he sing her a song which wrote by himself. The song is meaningful and soft, just like the lover's whisper. I bet his girlfriend must be touched. Without any doubt, he succeed. :) Sincerely, I wish them a happy, blessed and long-lasting marriage.
Usually I would define such romance as part of the fairy tale which will only appear in the drama or story books. An 8-years-relationship used to sound like a mission impossible to most of us, but the couple proves us that there are still, people who have faith and confidence towards love and marriage.
It is not an easy task to maintain a long term relationship, couple might face a lot of problems and challenges from many other different aspects. It requires a lot of faith, courage and confidence to go through all those obstacles. Those who manage to pass the test and reach the end would have win themselves a passport to the new chapter of life to spend with the one they love.
Sometimes, I wonder what is the meaning of being together. Does it mean spending all the time together? Or it means marrying someone and spend the rest of the life with his or her?
Then now, I think that...
The meaning of being together might just as simple as, stay together regardless of poverty and sickness, thou shall also be faithful and loyal to each another. :)
While me and my friend are enjoying the music and chatting, there is some happening in the cafe. There is a guy who proposed his girlfriend on the spot. He prepared a video of the memories along their 8 years relationship, and he suddenly showed up with a big bouquet of flower on his hand. He kneel down in front of her and ask her to marry him. Later he sing her a song which wrote by himself. The song is meaningful and soft, just like the lover's whisper. I bet his girlfriend must be touched. Without any doubt, he succeed. :) Sincerely, I wish them a happy, blessed and long-lasting marriage.
Usually I would define such romance as part of the fairy tale which will only appear in the drama or story books. An 8-years-relationship used to sound like a mission impossible to most of us, but the couple proves us that there are still, people who have faith and confidence towards love and marriage.
It is not an easy task to maintain a long term relationship, couple might face a lot of problems and challenges from many other different aspects. It requires a lot of faith, courage and confidence to go through all those obstacles. Those who manage to pass the test and reach the end would have win themselves a passport to the new chapter of life to spend with the one they love.
Sometimes, I wonder what is the meaning of being together. Does it mean spending all the time together? Or it means marrying someone and spend the rest of the life with his or her?
Then now, I think that...
The meaning of being together might just as simple as, stay together regardless of poverty and sickness, thou shall also be faithful and loyal to each another. :)
Monday, August 9, 2010
外婆
小时候，可说是给外婆一手带大的。虽然其中几年是给隔壁奶妈照顾，但大部分时候，我都是在外婆家度过我童年的美好时光。
记忆中的外婆很爱笑，常常一点小事情就能逗得她咧嘴大笑。小时候的我，最爱逗她了。说笑话、瘙痒、撒娇、顶嘴，就连按摩也能令她笑个不停，那是因为怕痒的外婆不习惯按摩。有时回想起来，或许我那爱笑和怕痒的习惯是外婆遗传的也说不定。
外婆是个慈祥的老人，很少会摆出长辈高高在上的样子。或许也是因为这样，所以外婆很容易和小孩打成一片但却也常常被我们欺负，拗她买东西或带我们去喝茶。但我们也有怕外婆的时候，尤其是当我们闹脾气不吃饭时，外婆就会用她的专用绝技来对付我们。每次被外婆这么吓一吓，我们就会乖乖吃饭了。
除此以外，记忆中的外婆也很爱吃。不论是餐厅或街边摊子，只要是能吃的，外婆绝不嫌弃。以前，外婆很喜欢到巴刹外的茶室去喝茶、吃早点，每次都点一杯古早式的咖啡。那咖啡有点苦，喝了牙齿和舌头还会留点咖啡的颜色。妈妈不让我喝，但不听话的我常拗到外婆妥协、肯给我喝为止。咖啡就成了我们的秘密，因为说好了不能让妈妈知道。
想想，调皮又爱捣蛋的我确实令外婆伤透脑筋。但我很高兴在童年时，有外婆的照顾和陪伴。:)
记忆中的外婆很爱笑，常常一点小事情就能逗得她咧嘴大笑。小时候的我，最爱逗她了。说笑话、瘙痒、撒娇、顶嘴，就连按摩也能令她笑个不停，那是因为怕痒的外婆不习惯按摩。有时回想起来，或许我那爱笑和怕痒的习惯是外婆遗传的也说不定。
外婆是个慈祥的老人，很少会摆出长辈高高在上的样子。或许也是因为这样，所以外婆很容易和小孩打成一片但却也常常被我们欺负，拗她买东西或带我们去喝茶。但我们也有怕外婆的时候，尤其是当我们闹脾气不吃饭时，外婆就会用她的专用绝技来对付我们。每次被外婆这么吓一吓，我们就会乖乖吃饭了。
除此以外，记忆中的外婆也很爱吃。不论是餐厅或街边摊子，只要是能吃的，外婆绝不嫌弃。以前，外婆很喜欢到巴刹外的茶室去喝茶、吃早点，每次都点一杯古早式的咖啡。那咖啡有点苦，喝了牙齿和舌头还会留点咖啡的颜色。妈妈不让我喝，但不听话的我常拗到外婆妥协、肯给我喝为止。咖啡就成了我们的秘密，因为说好了不能让妈妈知道。
想想，调皮又爱捣蛋的我确实令外婆伤透脑筋。但我很高兴在童年时，有外婆的照顾和陪伴。:)
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Thank You!!!
I am happy to receive your call today. So here I am, to write you a short Thank You note. :)
Thanks for your concern and I am happy to hear that you have read my post.
Anyway just a short update for you, I am doing fine here and I have solved the problem which currently puzzled me. So no worries. Will let you know the details when there is time later. =p
It has been sometime since we have last met for yc session. How is you doing recently? I hope everything was fine with you. Take good care and wish you all the best.
You will always have my best wishes.
xoxo :)
Thanks for your concern and I am happy to hear that you have read my post.
Anyway just a short update for you, I am doing fine here and I have solved the problem which currently puzzled me. So no worries. Will let you know the details when there is time later. =p
It has been sometime since we have last met for yc session. How is you doing recently? I hope everything was fine with you. Take good care and wish you all the best.
You will always have my best wishes.
xoxo :)
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Dilemma
Recently, I am having a dilemma. I don't know which would be the best way for me to choose. Of course, I would love to work something out. But the reality showed the other way round.
I asked myself repeatedly, should I? Or should I not? If I should, will the situation turn out better? If I shouldn't, then what will be the consequences?
Honestly, I don't know. I was torned in between. I was stucked in the middle of no where. I am not sure what is the right or wrong, good or bad. I am just confused with myself.
I wish I could be more considerate and understanding. I wish I could have more patience and kindness. I wish I could be more faithful and confident. I wish... I wish....
I just wish I could do it better. But seems like I have not put enough effort on it, haven't I? May be that is why I still need to work harder.
I just don't understand, while I hope you would have a better understanding compared to me. So, do you?
I asked myself repeatedly, should I? Or should I not? If I should, will the situation turn out better? If I shouldn't, then what will be the consequences?
Honestly, I don't know. I was torned in between. I was stucked in the middle of no where. I am not sure what is the right or wrong, good or bad. I am just confused with myself.
I wish I could be more considerate and understanding. I wish I could have more patience and kindness. I wish I could be more faithful and confident. I wish... I wish....
I just wish I could do it better. But seems like I have not put enough effort on it, haven't I? May be that is why I still need to work harder.
I just don't understand, while I hope you would have a better understanding compared to me. So, do you?
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
机会
从前从前，有一个很虔诚的教徒。他非常信任上帝。
有一天，教徒的家遇上了大水灾。水把教徒的家淹没了。教徒只好爬到屋顶上去。
教徒不断的祈祷，请求上帝来救他。
就在这时，前方来了一艘小舢板。
救护人员说：“ 我们来救你了，快上船来吧。”
教徒拒绝了， 他说：“不用了，我已经向上帝祈祷了，他会来救我的。你们去帮忙其他更需要的人吧。”
就这样，小舢板开走了，而教徒则继续祈祷。
接着，又来了一艘快艇。
救护人员说：“ 快上来吧，水已经快要把整间房子淹没了。”
但教徒以同样的理由拒绝了救护人员的好意， 他说：“ 不了，我在等上帝来救我。你去救其他人吧。”
就这样，快艇也开走了，教徒还是继续的祈祷。
水快把屋顶也淹没了，眼看教徒就要被水淹死了。
就在关键时刻，来了一架直升机。
救护人员放下梯子，说：“ 快爬上来吧，你就要淹死了。”
教徒还是坚持不肯接受帮忙的说：“ 不，我在等上帝来救我呢!!"
就这样，直升机也开走了。
最后，不出所料的，教徒终于被水淹死了。
他带着对上帝的怨恨上了天堂。
在天堂里，他看见了上帝，就质问他说：“ 上帝啊！我那么信任您，日夜向您祈祷，为什么您不来救我呢？”
上帝听见了，慈爱又带点无奈的说：“ 我已经尽了我的能力去救你了。我前后派了舢板、快艇和直升机过去，但你却不肯把握机会救你自己，所以才落得如此下场。你还能怪谁呢？”
有一天，教徒的家遇上了大水灾。水把教徒的家淹没了。教徒只好爬到屋顶上去。
教徒不断的祈祷，请求上帝来救他。
就在这时，前方来了一艘小舢板。
救护人员说：“ 我们来救你了，快上船来吧。”
教徒拒绝了， 他说：“不用了，我已经向上帝祈祷了，他会来救我的。你们去帮忙其他更需要的人吧。”
就这样，小舢板开走了，而教徒则继续祈祷。
接着，又来了一艘快艇。
救护人员说：“ 快上来吧，水已经快要把整间房子淹没了。”
但教徒以同样的理由拒绝了救护人员的好意， 他说：“ 不了，我在等上帝来救我。你去救其他人吧。”
就这样，快艇也开走了，教徒还是继续的祈祷。
水快把屋顶也淹没了，眼看教徒就要被水淹死了。
就在关键时刻，来了一架直升机。
救护人员放下梯子，说：“ 快爬上来吧，你就要淹死了。”
教徒还是坚持不肯接受帮忙的说：“ 不，我在等上帝来救我呢!!"
就这样，直升机也开走了。
最后，不出所料的，教徒终于被水淹死了。
他带着对上帝的怨恨上了天堂。
在天堂里，他看见了上帝，就质问他说：“ 上帝啊！我那么信任您，日夜向您祈祷，为什么您不来救我呢？”
上帝听见了，慈爱又带点无奈的说：“ 我已经尽了我的能力去救你了。我前后派了舢板、快艇和直升机过去，但你却不肯把握机会救你自己，所以才落得如此下场。你还能怪谁呢？”
机会，无所不在；只有懂得把握机会的人，才能珍惜机会的可贵，救人也自救。
与好友们共勉之 : )
Thursday, July 22, 2010
gRateFuL
Thanks to those who have failed me before, I have learned my lessons well enough to grow tougher and wiser. I just want to say that,
I might not born in a wealthy family, but I have more than enough for what I have actually needed.
I might not have a lot of friends, but I have my besties with me.
I might not be talented, but at least I am not stupid.
I might not be good in my studies, but at least I was given chance to prove myself.
I might not be charming and pretty, but at least I am a healthy and happy person.
I might not be successful, but at least I will always try to do my best.
I might not be clever, but doesn't mean that I can't dream big.
After so much hard times that I have gone through, I could say that I have grown up as a stronger and tougher person. I know that I am not alone when I have my family and besties by my side. With that, I always consider myself as a very lucky person.
I might not born in a wealthy family, but I have more than enough for what I have actually needed.
I might not have a lot of friends, but I have my besties with me.
I might not be talented, but at least I am not stupid.
I might not be good in my studies, but at least I was given chance to prove myself.
I might not be charming and pretty, but at least I am a healthy and happy person.
I might not be successful, but at least I will always try to do my best.
I might not be clever, but doesn't mean that I can't dream big.
After so much hard times that I have gone through, I could say that I have grown up as a stronger and tougher person. I know that I am not alone when I have my family and besties by my side. With that, I always consider myself as a very lucky person.
Monday, July 12, 2010
BoH....rInGGGGGG....
Honestly, I am BORED!!! ishhh... =.= yea, I thk i really am. I will be sitting for another final exam paper tis coming Thurs, bt yet I can still lacking here without any productive action towards the coming paper. LOL... My besties said tat I m jz a LITTLE tooooo free at d moment and I hv nth more to do except keep complaining for the boredom without a purpose n most IMPORTANTLY it annoys her. haha.. =p Yea, I noe it sounds like "sai meng" to her. As she needs to work on weekdays, and she have few things to be handled on hand in her work recently. But... I jz love to kacau her!! Its one of my favourites to see her got angry n fight bek. LOL.. EVIL me.. U r right, thk I m jz a lil toooo bored. =p
I jz sat d final paper last Mon for another skill subject. And then I started to lack for d whole week, before i hv finally realize tat thr r oni 3 days left b4 another final paper. =.= GREAT!!! I have total 7 chapters to be covered. T.T thk tats d consequences of being lazy... ishhh... so STOP COMPLAINING and START WORKING on it NOW, LWB!! Tats wt I hv told myself tis morning n apparently it works!!! Even its jz for few hours in d noon. ^^ " Effective huh? LOL.. =p
So wt hv I done for d past a week? Erm.. Let's see. Most of the time I went out for meal wiv my dearest mummy. We had grocceries shopping and also went for book shop on wed. And I have visited my beloved grandma on Tues and hv a bowl of my ALL-TIME-FAVOURITE Asam Laksa in the pasar malam. Yummy!! ^^ Then hv lunch wiv my besties on fri after class. Later d week, I was lacking at home and hv some reading on my new books. Ok, hr comes d conclusion. I did nth which I can relate it to my coming paper bt I really hv a great time spent wiv my family and fren. Its worthy afterall. Hehe... : )
I miss all those Sing k and yc session, shopping and also chit-chatting wiv frens. =( Most of them r bc wiv their studies and working life. I miss those days lots, especially those gd frens whom I spent most d time wiv in my Uni life. =)
Ok, gtg!! It's time for dinner again. Hehe... Thanks for those who spend time reading on my post written in a Boh..RinGGgg day. =p
I jz sat d final paper last Mon for another skill subject. And then I started to lack for d whole week, before i hv finally realize tat thr r oni 3 days left b4 another final paper. =.= GREAT!!! I have total 7 chapters to be covered. T.T thk tats d consequences of being lazy... ishhh... so STOP COMPLAINING and START WORKING on it NOW, LWB!! Tats wt I hv told myself tis morning n apparently it works!!! Even its jz for few hours in d noon. ^^ " Effective huh? LOL.. =p
So wt hv I done for d past a week? Erm.. Let's see. Most of the time I went out for meal wiv my dearest mummy. We had grocceries shopping and also went for book shop on wed. And I have visited my beloved grandma on Tues and hv a bowl of my ALL-TIME-FAVOURITE Asam Laksa in the pasar malam. Yummy!! ^^ Then hv lunch wiv my besties on fri after class. Later d week, I was lacking at home and hv some reading on my new books. Ok, hr comes d conclusion. I did nth which I can relate it to my coming paper bt I really hv a great time spent wiv my family and fren. Its worthy afterall. Hehe... : )
I miss all those Sing k and yc session, shopping and also chit-chatting wiv frens. =( Most of them r bc wiv their studies and working life. I miss those days lots, especially those gd frens whom I spent most d time wiv in my Uni life. =)
Ok, gtg!! It's time for dinner again. Hehe... Thanks for those who spend time reading on my post written in a Boh..RinGGgg day. =p
Friday, July 9, 2010
现实中的梦想
小时候很单纯，常梦想自己能像电视剧里的主角们一样，当个律师、医生、驾名车、住洋楼。生活不如意，就随手买张机票去外国生活一阵子。长大了，才发现演戏和真实的人生原来是有那么一段距离的。
人长越大，就越发觉自己懂得事情越多，看的世界也开始逐渐变形扭曲。以前懵懂的时候，虽也知道钱不容易赚，但心里还是觉得没什么大不了的，只要我有心，还怕找不到钱吗？呵呵... 说得倒容易，做的时候才惊觉原来一分一毫都是需要努力的。从那时起，学会了计算和衡量钱。但就像account里的B/S一样，付出的努力和得到的报酬永远不是对称的。心里就开始有了那么一点点的不平衡... =.=
中学毕业后一段时期，好友们还都能常聚在一起逛街、吃饭、聊天。但渐渐的人数越来越少，因为大部分的都出国去念书了，剩下的人当中就有一个是我。三年前，在机场目送第一个也是最好的朋友上飞机开始，往后的每一年，都有一位好友会坐上飞机离开。每次看着朋友们的离去，心里除了不舍还有一丝感伤。因为我知道那是一个我渴望能去但却没有机会去的地方。这时候，才终于知道人只是有梦想是不足够的，因为同时也要有实现梦想的能力。不然梦想也只是一个梦想，不会有变成现实的一天。
现实是残酷的，我很久以前就知道。但我管制不了自己的心，总是要一而再的去渴望和梦想着我会有很大可能性的不到的东西，说穿了就是傻吧。^^" 当初一心要减轻父母重担的我，却因为在没好好计划和搞清楚的情况下作了选择。最后搞得自己处于两头不到边的尴尬情况，也连累了父母。结果是浪费了爸妈的血汗钱，而自己则白白的赔掉了时间和努力。妈说，早知道当初就别省那么一点钱了。是啊，我也知道，但世上好像没有“早知道”的道理，现在已经太迟了。
好友问，你后悔吗？相信我，在她还没问之前，我可是问了自己很多遍的。=p 人就是爱自寻烦恼，对吗？我说，不后悔，但我很遗憾。是的，我很遗憾。到我想回头的时候，已经没有机会了。直到我发现了，想弥补时，也已经来不及了。不止一次，我告诉她说觉得自己很笨。身为好友的她，也不多安慰我，反而说出我的缺点和过错。对啊，好友就该要这样，因为把你当好友，才想你做好。=)
我问她，觉得我还有机会吗？她不出声，我知道，这问题很难答，因为谁也说不准。就连我自己也不知道。但我知道她绝不会为了安慰我而说好话，这也是为什么她是我好友。她说，自己也想实现梦想，但要付出代价的。可能会让年老的父母有重担，自己也可能因此失去了工作的好机会。她问我，值得吗？该去吗？我反问，你舍得吗？有时觉得，现实就是拿来训练人的。因为要得到一样东西的同时，你也必须放弃某些东西。舍得舍得，有舍；才有得。=)
再多两个月，就是我的生日了。怀疑时间是不是都坐着喷射机，不然怎么能飞那么快呢？哈哈... 好友听了，一定又要损我是个够冷的白痴。=p 而我还在期待着梦想能够起飞的一天。=)
人长越大，就越发觉自己懂得事情越多，看的世界也开始逐渐变形扭曲。以前懵懂的时候，虽也知道钱不容易赚，但心里还是觉得没什么大不了的，只要我有心，还怕找不到钱吗？呵呵... 说得倒容易，做的时候才惊觉原来一分一毫都是需要努力的。从那时起，学会了计算和衡量钱。但就像account里的B/S一样，付出的努力和得到的报酬永远不是对称的。心里就开始有了那么一点点的不平衡... =.=
中学毕业后一段时期，好友们还都能常聚在一起逛街、吃饭、聊天。但渐渐的人数越来越少，因为大部分的都出国去念书了，剩下的人当中就有一个是我。三年前，在机场目送第一个也是最好的朋友上飞机开始，往后的每一年，都有一位好友会坐上飞机离开。每次看着朋友们的离去，心里除了不舍还有一丝感伤。因为我知道那是一个我渴望能去但却没有机会去的地方。这时候，才终于知道人只是有梦想是不足够的，因为同时也要有实现梦想的能力。不然梦想也只是一个梦想，不会有变成现实的一天。
现实是残酷的，我很久以前就知道。但我管制不了自己的心，总是要一而再的去渴望和梦想着我会有很大可能性的不到的东西，说穿了就是傻吧。^^" 当初一心要减轻父母重担的我，却因为在没好好计划和搞清楚的情况下作了选择。最后搞得自己处于两头不到边的尴尬情况，也连累了父母。结果是浪费了爸妈的血汗钱，而自己则白白的赔掉了时间和努力。妈说，早知道当初就别省那么一点钱了。是啊，我也知道，但世上好像没有“早知道”的道理，现在已经太迟了。
好友问，你后悔吗？相信我，在她还没问之前，我可是问了自己很多遍的。=p 人就是爱自寻烦恼，对吗？我说，不后悔，但我很遗憾。是的，我很遗憾。到我想回头的时候，已经没有机会了。直到我发现了，想弥补时，也已经来不及了。不止一次，我告诉她说觉得自己很笨。身为好友的她，也不多安慰我，反而说出我的缺点和过错。对啊，好友就该要这样，因为把你当好友，才想你做好。=)
我问她，觉得我还有机会吗？她不出声，我知道，这问题很难答，因为谁也说不准。就连我自己也不知道。但我知道她绝不会为了安慰我而说好话，这也是为什么她是我好友。她说，自己也想实现梦想，但要付出代价的。可能会让年老的父母有重担，自己也可能因此失去了工作的好机会。她问我，值得吗？该去吗？我反问，你舍得吗？有时觉得，现实就是拿来训练人的。因为要得到一样东西的同时，你也必须放弃某些东西。舍得舍得，有舍；才有得。=)
再多两个月，就是我的生日了。怀疑时间是不是都坐着喷射机，不然怎么能飞那么快呢？哈哈... 好友听了，一定又要损我是个够冷的白痴。=p 而我还在期待着梦想能够起飞的一天。=)
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
a visit To ThE orPhaNagE
Today, I went to an orphanage wiv my course mates. We need to at least work for 4 hrs in the orphanage for our assignment purpose in the Leadership and Life Skill subject. I was kinda worried b4 i went thr tis morning as I know that I m nt gd in interacting wiv d others. Bt surprisingly, things turned out well at last. ^^ I think its sth tat shud b happy for.
Its a Punjabi Orphanage which organised by a Guru bout 10 yrs ago. The purpose is to provide a shelter for children from broken or single family background and also orphans. The age range of the children are from 5 to 22. They are well trained and moral educated and they live under a peaceful and harmony environment.
We reached there bout noon, got introduced to the officers b4 v start doin our chores. First we help to serve lunch for the children b4 they went for afternoon session classes. Later we have a short chat wiv some of the children while having our meal offerred by them. We are surprised to find tat they r serving vegetarian food for all d meals. But its nice nway, we had a different experience by having lunch thr. ^^ After lunch, we started to clean d dishes. There is A LOT of dishes to b cleaned. ^^ " It took us bout an hr to finish d work. We get to rest and take a look around d place b4 we started to serve lunch for d children who came bek fr d morning session classes.The day ended up by having a conversation wiv d Guru. =)
I shud say its a brand new experience for me to visit d orphanage 2day. I hv learned a lot from d visit, and I m also grateful wiv wt i hv nw. Compare to them, I thk we r vy lucky person. At least I thk I am. =)
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
心跳
高中时上科学，老师教我们怎样在手上找脉搏。或许是好奇心吧，我竟然记到现在。对于我这种善忘的人来说，能把一件事记牢的确不是一件易事。
从脉搏中，可以感受到心跳。或快、或慢、或轻、或重，都是各自独特的交响曲。我没什么科学天分，对医学也一窍不通，但我知道沉实稳重的心跳不只能让人感到安心，也能让人的情绪表现无遗。难怪别人常说可以从心跳中看一个人有没有说谎，因为说谎的人会紧张，而紧张导致心跳加速。
还记得看过一部电影，男主角有先天性心脏病，所以不能承受太大的打击、连情绪也不能太亢奋，因为随时会呼吸困难，继而心脏病爆发死去。有一天，男主角遇到了两个女生。一个是他的梦中情人，她是个一出现就可以让他心跳加速但同时也呼吸困难得快要死去的气质美女；另一个则是平凡但却能让他安心舒适的和她相处的开朗女生。男主角以为爱情是要轰轰烈烈的，而喜欢的人也应该要能让自己心跳加速才算恋爱。最后，男主角迷惑了，因为分不清自己到底爱的是气质美女还是平凡女孩。无可否认，气质美女是他永远也抵抗不了的致命诱惑，但同时他也眷恋着平凡女孩像清新空气一般的关怀和照顾。就在男主角举棋不定时，好友的话让他看清了事实的真相，而他也终于做了对的选择。=)
朋友们，猜猜到底男主角选了谁吧？而好友到底说了什么让他做了决定呢？
我忘了电影的名称，但我想看过这电影的人应该对这些故事情节感到有点熟悉吧。就算没看过，也欢迎你们有空来试试。相信你们也一样遇到过自己欣赏也让自己心跳加速的人吧，但平凡的总被忽略而因此擦肩而过，这似乎已成了不变的定律了。
此刻，我的心跳是平稳而缓慢的，那你的呢？^.~
从脉搏中，可以感受到心跳。或快、或慢、或轻、或重，都是各自独特的交响曲。我没什么科学天分，对医学也一窍不通，但我知道沉实稳重的心跳不只能让人感到安心，也能让人的情绪表现无遗。难怪别人常说可以从心跳中看一个人有没有说谎，因为说谎的人会紧张，而紧张导致心跳加速。
还记得看过一部电影，男主角有先天性心脏病，所以不能承受太大的打击、连情绪也不能太亢奋，因为随时会呼吸困难，继而心脏病爆发死去。有一天，男主角遇到了两个女生。一个是他的梦中情人，她是个一出现就可以让他心跳加速但同时也呼吸困难得快要死去的气质美女；另一个则是平凡但却能让他安心舒适的和她相处的开朗女生。男主角以为爱情是要轰轰烈烈的，而喜欢的人也应该要能让自己心跳加速才算恋爱。最后，男主角迷惑了，因为分不清自己到底爱的是气质美女还是平凡女孩。无可否认，气质美女是他永远也抵抗不了的致命诱惑，但同时他也眷恋着平凡女孩像清新空气一般的关怀和照顾。就在男主角举棋不定时，好友的话让他看清了事实的真相，而他也终于做了对的选择。=)
朋友们，猜猜到底男主角选了谁吧？而好友到底说了什么让他做了决定呢？
我忘了电影的名称，但我想看过这电影的人应该对这些故事情节感到有点熟悉吧。就算没看过，也欢迎你们有空来试试。相信你们也一样遇到过自己欣赏也让自己心跳加速的人吧，但平凡的总被忽略而因此擦肩而过，这似乎已成了不变的定律了。
此刻，我的心跳是平稳而缓慢的，那你的呢？^.~
Sunday, May 23, 2010
oLd PicTurEs, oLd MemORies...
Its Saturday!!! Yes.. Saturday usually mean mummy day for me.. as i would spend most of d time wiv mum if i din hang out wiv fren. =) As usual, i had a great day. Woke up bout 10, went out at 11.30, had breakfast, stopped by at lil couz's school for fun fair b4 went visited my beloved grandma at UKM (glad to see tat she is slowly recovering ^^), then had a nice dinner wiv mum b4 went home for "Justice Bao". And nw, i m blogging hr while listening song n enjoying a cup of milo oat. Hmmm.... i would say tat its a perfect day for me. ^.~
Before i start blogging, took a few minutes to look thru those old pics in my lappie. Tats wen i came across all those pics, which i shud hv delete long time ago. Bt sumhw i stil kept sum of them n named them as memories. Taylor Swift's "Picture To Burn" sud pop out randomly fr my music player wen i was looking at those pics. LOL... hw ironic!! =p could it b d sign? to remind me tat it shud b burn long time ago?
Those r d memories which i once treasured d most, bt it seem meaningless to me nw. Thk tat usually happen wen a relationship started to turn nasty, make us feel uncomfortable even jz look at d pic. I used to delete 3 to 4 pics at a time wenever i feel upset bout it, its d oni way to release my hatred n disappointment toward d past. Bt i seem to forget d reason i kept tis few wiv me till nw. LOL... forgive me for being so 4getful. =p
I can say tat those pics r lucky nway, at least they can still park safely in my picture folder without being deleted. haha.. Even wen i look at them nw, i can feel nth. Those pics remind me little of d past, as we look so burden-free n happy tat time. I noe its jz an illusion, smile can b fake in front of d camera. After all, who doesn't? We might look happy tat time, bt its act nt in d real world. We can nvr feel carefree during tat hard time, didn't we? I noe it, n i noe you noe it too, jz tat u choose to ignore it. Apology fr me as i cant do d same as u.
I kept those pics as memories cz it reminds me at least sum happy moments of us, even its jz a few piece of our memory puzzle. Life goes on n finally we bcame jz a nobody to both of us. Thk its d best for us to keep it tat way, sum ppl jz dun meant to hv any connection at all, jz like us. I will lock those memories deep inside my heart, thanks for giving me so much to rmb, as i hv to put so much effort to forget. I believe one day those old memory will finally fade away n bcum meaningless to us. May b u hv already forgotten nway.. n i shud hv to... :)
It's almost a quarter past 12am, its sunday n oso a brand new day. I closed the memories folder n enjoy my music n a cup of hot milo oat. :)
Before i start blogging, took a few minutes to look thru those old pics in my lappie. Tats wen i came across all those pics, which i shud hv delete long time ago. Bt sumhw i stil kept sum of them n named them as memories. Taylor Swift's "Picture To Burn" sud pop out randomly fr my music player wen i was looking at those pics. LOL... hw ironic!! =p could it b d sign? to remind me tat it shud b burn long time ago?
Those r d memories which i once treasured d most, bt it seem meaningless to me nw. Thk tat usually happen wen a relationship started to turn nasty, make us feel uncomfortable even jz look at d pic. I used to delete 3 to 4 pics at a time wenever i feel upset bout it, its d oni way to release my hatred n disappointment toward d past. Bt i seem to forget d reason i kept tis few wiv me till nw. LOL... forgive me for being so 4getful. =p
I can say tat those pics r lucky nway, at least they can still park safely in my picture folder without being deleted. haha.. Even wen i look at them nw, i can feel nth. Those pics remind me little of d past, as we look so burden-free n happy tat time. I noe its jz an illusion, smile can b fake in front of d camera. After all, who doesn't? We might look happy tat time, bt its act nt in d real world. We can nvr feel carefree during tat hard time, didn't we? I noe it, n i noe you noe it too, jz tat u choose to ignore it. Apology fr me as i cant do d same as u.
I kept those pics as memories cz it reminds me at least sum happy moments of us, even its jz a few piece of our memory puzzle. Life goes on n finally we bcame jz a nobody to both of us. Thk its d best for us to keep it tat way, sum ppl jz dun meant to hv any connection at all, jz like us. I will lock those memories deep inside my heart, thanks for giving me so much to rmb, as i hv to put so much effort to forget. I believe one day those old memory will finally fade away n bcum meaningless to us. May b u hv already forgotten nway.. n i shud hv to... :)
It's almost a quarter past 12am, its sunday n oso a brand new day. I closed the memories folder n enjoy my music n a cup of hot milo oat. :)
Saturday, May 22, 2010
PISSED OFF
Ok!! Today is d 4th day of my part-time-working day.. n I hv started to feel depressed since d 2nd day of my work. I tot feeling depressed at work is worst enuf while act its not.. wen i found tat being SUPERD ANGRY while remaining d smile on face is d most torturing part.. yea.. i noe i m such a hypocrite.. bt i was so PISSED OFF 2day... until i forgot hw to keep my smiley face... WTF!! Thanks to Miss Perfect tat I had such a nice ending for my 4th-day of work.
Allow me to introduce, Miss Perfect aka Miss Lcly.. is a smart n nice gal.. except tat she has got a lil LCLY, a lil TOO "SWEET", a lil FAKE, a lil MEAN, and a lil SPOILED... trust me!! other than tat.. she is jz perfect!! ishhh...
Well.. i wont say tat i did nth wrong at all.. bt does she really need to b so mean? Duh.. yea.. i noe she is smart, pretty and sweet... bt puh..lease.. i don't buy it nway.. =.= so can u jz act a lil more normal?
Allow me to introduce, Miss Perfect aka Miss Lcly.. is a smart n nice gal.. except tat she has got a lil LCLY, a lil TOO "SWEET", a lil FAKE, a lil MEAN, and a lil SPOILED... trust me!! other than tat.. she is jz perfect!! ishhh...
Well.. i wont say tat i did nth wrong at all.. bt does she really need to b so mean? Duh.. yea.. i noe she is smart, pretty and sweet... bt puh..lease.. i don't buy it nway.. =.= so can u jz act a lil more normal?
Saturday, May 1, 2010
ThE BoNd
Bond is defined as a thing that ties another down or together or it can also be referring as the uniting force which holds people together. The society is build up by lots of ppl, and ppl like us r binding with each another by either frenship, relationship, or the one and only family bond.
We might not have lovers or frens, bt i m sure most of us do hv a family tat they belong to. It's the place whr v belong to.. it's the place whr our beloved family members r.. it's the place whr v hv borned to hv.. and it's the place whr v r destined to stay wiv!!
Even though family is important to most of us, bt ppl r used to b careless n 4getful. Sumtimes they tend to 4get about d unique bonds among the family, and thus all those quarrels and misunderstandings arise. Usually these r d reasons which might cause us to lose our family, it's sad wen u hv to treat ur family as an enemy and tis shudn't be happen to any of us. So, plz ask urself few Qs b4 u make d decision n it might change a lot of things...
Do u still rmb those happy moments which v hv spent together?
Do u still rmb those special occasions whr all of us gather around and celebrate 2gether?
Do u still rmb d old days whr v all hv stayed 2gether?
Do u still rmb those days whr v used to laugh our tears out?
Do u still kept all these memories wiv u? o u hv 4gotten as u r getting bc by days?
Plz dun 4get bout d bond which brought us all together. Even if u were, plz rmb tat "Home is whr d heart is", it's alwiz d place whr v belong to n it's sth tat worth to treasure wiv our lifetime. Thk v all shud bear tis in mind. Jz wish tat v could stay together happily, without any worries and quarrels of cz. I noe it sounds like a mission impossible, bt still i wish tat it could happen sumday.
We might not have lovers or frens, bt i m sure most of us do hv a family tat they belong to. It's the place whr v belong to.. it's the place whr our beloved family members r.. it's the place whr v hv borned to hv.. and it's the place whr v r destined to stay wiv!!
Even though family is important to most of us, bt ppl r used to b careless n 4getful. Sumtimes they tend to 4get about d unique bonds among the family, and thus all those quarrels and misunderstandings arise. Usually these r d reasons which might cause us to lose our family, it's sad wen u hv to treat ur family as an enemy and tis shudn't be happen to any of us. So, plz ask urself few Qs b4 u make d decision n it might change a lot of things...
Do u still rmb those happy moments which v hv spent together?
Do u still rmb those special occasions whr all of us gather around and celebrate 2gether?
Do u still rmb d old days whr v all hv stayed 2gether?
Do u still rmb those days whr v used to laugh our tears out?
Do u still kept all these memories wiv u? o u hv 4gotten as u r getting bc by days?
Plz dun 4get bout d bond which brought us all together. Even if u were, plz rmb tat "Home is whr d heart is", it's alwiz d place whr v belong to n it's sth tat worth to treasure wiv our lifetime. Thk v all shud bear tis in mind. Jz wish tat v could stay together happily, without any worries and quarrels of cz. I noe it sounds like a mission impossible, bt still i wish tat it could happen sumday.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
thE bEauTy of SlowlinEss
I suddenly came out wiv this idea, tats to write a post about the slowliness. lol.. bt BEAUTY of slowliness? surprised huh?! hehe.. =p nway tats wt i m goin to share wiv u all in this post.. so lets take a look!! ^^
Well.. thk u all mz b wondering wts d meaning of the beauty of slowliness. Actually i m talking about d slowliness, either done by ourself or by others. I thk most of us hv experienced it b4, tat u hv met sumone who drive DAMN SLOW when u r seriously rushing for time or u hv met sumone who likes to do things SLOWLY while u r chasing for deadline. lol.. its alwiz tiring to met sumone like tat wen u r seriously lack of time n patience. ^^ " Most of d time, i would considered myself as a "middle-slow" person, which means i usually do things quite "fast" except tat i need to rush for my assignment deadlines and burn midnight oil for exams and test, i will b "a lil" faster. LOL.. Other than tat, thk i m kinda.. erm.. u noe.. "moderate" may b? LOL.. so thk i shudnt blame d others for being slow, cz may b i m jz another one of them. =p
Normally, it will take me about an hour to prepare myself b4 go out from hse for classes or work, and this does nt include the weekends and holidays. LOL... cz it will take me more time to get out fr the bed. =p Ok.. i started to sounds like a lazy pig nw. XD Nway except for doing things slowly, i thk i m oso slow in making decisions and choices. I may take sumtime to thk of which clothes to buy during sales or wt shud i eat for my lunch, altho i might end up buying nth. But tis surely nt applicable to food, cause i might jz eat all i wanted at last.. haha.. "-ve resistance" on food, rmb? =p
And yea.. I m alwiz slower compared to d others, and tat i m referring to lots of things in life. ^^ " I m still struggling on which course tat i shud take after my F5, while most of my frens ady made up their mind. When I hv finally made up my mind, my frens ady started to plan for their future career and some even started to hv their family plan. And when most of them ady graduated and started to carry on wiv their career, while sum of them ady got married wiv their own child or engaged, I am still an undergraduate and S&A. LOL... =p
Compared to most of them, thk i m jz TOO SLOW huh. ^^ " I noe tat too, but sumtimes things doesn't get along well as v alwiz expected them to, isn't it? I used to tell myself tat it doesn't matter to b slower than others, it might nt be as bad as v hv thought. hehe.. thr and agin, may b tat's y i m still d same old me - as SLOW as USUAL. haha.. =p
A wrong step taken can alwiz cause us to lose a lot than v hv expected. oppss!! sounds serious nw.. hehe.. bt its so DAMN TRUE nway.. cause tats jz wt i m facing nw.. =p I do admit tat i m nt gd in decision making which alwiz caught myself in a chaotic situation. =.= " But in return, i thk i do learn well in all those lessons and sumtimes it allows me to find out things tat i used to ignore. So.. it sounds nt tat bad afterall. Altho I am still much slower than others and thrs lots for me to catch up later in life. But nw, i would jz wan to enjoy d beauty of slowliness tat i m having nw. ^.~
Well.. thk u all mz b wondering wts d meaning of the beauty of slowliness. Actually i m talking about d slowliness, either done by ourself or by others. I thk most of us hv experienced it b4, tat u hv met sumone who drive DAMN SLOW when u r seriously rushing for time or u hv met sumone who likes to do things SLOWLY while u r chasing for deadline. lol.. its alwiz tiring to met sumone like tat wen u r seriously lack of time n patience. ^^ " Most of d time, i would considered myself as a "middle-slow" person, which means i usually do things quite "fast" except tat i need to rush for my assignment deadlines and burn midnight oil for exams and test, i will b "a lil" faster. LOL.. Other than tat, thk i m kinda.. erm.. u noe.. "moderate" may b? LOL.. so thk i shudnt blame d others for being slow, cz may b i m jz another one of them. =p
Normally, it will take me about an hour to prepare myself b4 go out from hse for classes or work, and this does nt include the weekends and holidays. LOL... cz it will take me more time to get out fr the bed. =p Ok.. i started to sounds like a lazy pig nw. XD Nway except for doing things slowly, i thk i m oso slow in making decisions and choices. I may take sumtime to thk of which clothes to buy during sales or wt shud i eat for my lunch, altho i might end up buying nth. But tis surely nt applicable to food, cause i might jz eat all i wanted at last.. haha.. "-ve resistance" on food, rmb? =p
And yea.. I m alwiz slower compared to d others, and tat i m referring to lots of things in life. ^^ " I m still struggling on which course tat i shud take after my F5, while most of my frens ady made up their mind. When I hv finally made up my mind, my frens ady started to plan for their future career and some even started to hv their family plan. And when most of them ady graduated and started to carry on wiv their career, while sum of them ady got married wiv their own child or engaged, I am still an undergraduate and S&A. LOL... =p
Compared to most of them, thk i m jz TOO SLOW huh. ^^ " I noe tat too, but sumtimes things doesn't get along well as v alwiz expected them to, isn't it? I used to tell myself tat it doesn't matter to b slower than others, it might nt be as bad as v hv thought. hehe.. thr and agin, may b tat's y i m still d same old me - as SLOW as USUAL. haha.. =p
A wrong step taken can alwiz cause us to lose a lot than v hv expected. oppss!! sounds serious nw.. hehe.. bt its so DAMN TRUE nway.. cause tats jz wt i m facing nw.. =p I do admit tat i m nt gd in decision making which alwiz caught myself in a chaotic situation. =.= " But in return, i thk i do learn well in all those lessons and sumtimes it allows me to find out things tat i used to ignore. So.. it sounds nt tat bad afterall. Altho I am still much slower than others and thrs lots for me to catch up later in life. But nw, i would jz wan to enjoy d beauty of slowliness tat i m having nw. ^.~
Monday, April 19, 2010
1st Day of FiNaL
Today was the 1st day of my final exam, i have gone thru my APM papers in 3 hours this morning. I had woke up early this morning and went out about an hour earlier to rush for the 8am paper. but still i am 10mins late!!! wtf... =.= ishhh.. thanks a lot to the KL traffic nway..
I would say that its nt an easy paper for me, 3 hours to complete 3 sections, which consist of 1 mini case study, 4 short answer Qs, and 2 essays. =.= wonder 3 hours is sufficient for us to finish all the answers, at least for me i thk.. lol.. time is seriously not enough, as there is not much time for us to dream and think. We need to grab every mins in order to finish all the sections required. *sighz..
Tmr i will be having my M1 paper at 8am AGIN, which also means it is another early-woke-up day.. ishhh... its alwiz torturing for me to wake up early in the morning... ok.. i noe i sounds piggy nw.. lol.. =p
Well.. thk i shud go bek to my revision b4 i started to feel regret agin.. lol... ^^ frens, wish me luck k!! haha.. nway, wish my utar frens who are going to sit for their final exam soon, "all d best" and "gd luck"... u all will alwiz hv my best wishes.. ^.~ so... let's gambatte, shall we? Hehe.. =p
I would say that its nt an easy paper for me, 3 hours to complete 3 sections, which consist of 1 mini case study, 4 short answer Qs, and 2 essays. =.= wonder 3 hours is sufficient for us to finish all the answers, at least for me i thk.. lol.. time is seriously not enough, as there is not much time for us to dream and think. We need to grab every mins in order to finish all the sections required. *sighz..
Tmr i will be having my M1 paper at 8am AGIN, which also means it is another early-woke-up day.. ishhh... its alwiz torturing for me to wake up early in the morning... ok.. i noe i sounds piggy nw.. lol.. =p
Well.. thk i shud go bek to my revision b4 i started to feel regret agin.. lol... ^^ frens, wish me luck k!! haha.. nway, wish my utar frens who are going to sit for their final exam soon, "all d best" and "gd luck"... u all will alwiz hv my best wishes.. ^.~ so... let's gambatte, shall we? Hehe.. =p
Thursday, April 15, 2010
cOuNTinG doWn ThE dAys
It's just left 3 more days to my final exam, thrs nth much tat i can say bout it act.. ^^ " jz hope tat everything will go on smoothly..
My revision progress is slow and I am tired, frustrated and annoyed... * sighz.. wt a bad temper i hv... ^^ " plus my "best fren" chose to visit me at tis vy important time.. ishh.. thk its really nt sth tat i shud be happy for.. lol... cz it makes me feel sleepy, thirsty and hungry most of d time..
The weather is remaining hot and humid... seems like nth much v can do to make it change its mind... the mother nature looks really angry for wt v did on her.. =p
Ok.. thk theres nth much i can share today.. days were jz bored but luckily things went fine wiv me.. except i feel so much wana go for a trip to rest and relax.. lol.. hopefully.. ^^
It's 1.06pm nw.. well, thk i shud prepare for my class later.. catch up later!! ^.~
My revision progress is slow and I am tired, frustrated and annoyed... * sighz.. wt a bad temper i hv... ^^ " plus my "best fren" chose to visit me at tis vy important time.. ishh.. thk its really nt sth tat i shud be happy for.. lol... cz it makes me feel sleepy, thirsty and hungry most of d time..
The weather is remaining hot and humid... seems like nth much v can do to make it change its mind... the mother nature looks really angry for wt v did on her.. =p
Ok.. thk theres nth much i can share today.. days were jz bored but luckily things went fine wiv me.. except i feel so much wana go for a trip to rest and relax.. lol.. hopefully.. ^^
It's 1.06pm nw.. well, thk i shud prepare for my class later.. catch up later!! ^.~
一刹那的....
曾经，有过一刹那的冲动... 想要结束一切
曾经，有过一刹那的想法... 想要许下诺言
曾经，有过一刹那的错觉... 幸福近在眼前
曾经，有过一刹那的打算... 想要逃离现实
曾经，有过一刹那的情绪... 想要摧毁一切
曾经，有过一刹那的冲动... 想要放弃所有
曾经... 也因为那一刹那的理智...
放弃那些一刹那...
而选择勇敢走下去... =)
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
sWeEt SwEeT LovE
It's 5.38 in the noon, d sky is dark and cloudy, seems like going to rain anytime soon. ^^ nway i HOPE it will really rain SOON... b4 i complain for d hot n humid weather agin.. LOL... tis is nt sth new for my parents, as i m quite sure they had heard A LOT of complaints fr me.. BAD ME.. haha.. =p nway thk their ears can hv a day rest 2day, cz its windy nw.. hmm.. love tis kind of weather lots.. ^^
I just read one of my besties' blog post and i had go through her post about her relationship wiv her bf... which inspired me to write tis post instead.. lol.. thx ya, G jie!! hehe.. =p
I knew her since 2007 at utar... n i m sure most of us who noe her will oso noe tat she hv got a gd n caring bf who love her a lot n oso take k of her well enuff to make any gals envy.. haha.. nway jz kiddin, dun mind it!! =p bt frankly speaking, after i read d post jz nw, thrs sth tat i really wana say... "Aww... tat's jz sooo sweeet!!!" =p nway i m happy for u, gal.. hehe.. its lucky for both of u to found each other.. so sincerely, i wish both of u can stay 2gether long long and happy alwiz. =)
Well... tis oso reminds me bout my "old fren"... haha.. v got 2gether in 2006 and end it in 2008, so its jz a 1 year+ relationship tat v had.. nt a happy ending for both of us though... by skipping all those arguements and bad memories tat v hv, still i thk v had gone thru some nice n sweet time during tat period, didn't v? nway its nt important nw, d past has ady bcum d history... even if thrs a time machine, thk i wont choose to go bek n experience it agin.. ^^ its cruel n cold for me to say tat, bt i thk its gd for me sumhw... =p
I thk most of us didn't make it out for d 1st time.. aren't v? bt it doesn't mean v can't try n hv another in d future.. agree? ^.~ so to all my frens and besties, dun giv up love for sumone who doesn't deserve ur loyalty and love... look forward and move on bravely.. n OPEN ur EYES widely... u might jz bump into sumone who loves n cares for u... lol... rmb tat thrs alwiz hope!! ^^
I agreed wiv wt G jie hv said, "love isn't everything in life, bt one's life will nt complete without love".. so to all my frens who r still S&A, start observing for potential bf/gf nw.. they might jz bside u, altho u didn't noe them... bt thrs alwiz a high chance for u to get urself a sweet sweet lover.. =p
I just read one of my besties' blog post and i had go through her post about her relationship wiv her bf... which inspired me to write tis post instead.. lol.. thx ya, G jie!! hehe.. =p
I knew her since 2007 at utar... n i m sure most of us who noe her will oso noe tat she hv got a gd n caring bf who love her a lot n oso take k of her well enuff to make any gals envy.. haha.. nway jz kiddin, dun mind it!! =p bt frankly speaking, after i read d post jz nw, thrs sth tat i really wana say... "Aww... tat's jz sooo sweeet!!!" =p nway i m happy for u, gal.. hehe.. its lucky for both of u to found each other.. so sincerely, i wish both of u can stay 2gether long long and happy alwiz. =)
Well... tis oso reminds me bout my "old fren"... haha.. v got 2gether in 2006 and end it in 2008, so its jz a 1 year+ relationship tat v had.. nt a happy ending for both of us though... by skipping all those arguements and bad memories tat v hv, still i thk v had gone thru some nice n sweet time during tat period, didn't v? nway its nt important nw, d past has ady bcum d history... even if thrs a time machine, thk i wont choose to go bek n experience it agin.. ^^ its cruel n cold for me to say tat, bt i thk its gd for me sumhw... =p
I thk most of us didn't make it out for d 1st time.. aren't v? bt it doesn't mean v can't try n hv another in d future.. agree? ^.~ so to all my frens and besties, dun giv up love for sumone who doesn't deserve ur loyalty and love... look forward and move on bravely.. n OPEN ur EYES widely... u might jz bump into sumone who loves n cares for u... lol... rmb tat thrs alwiz hope!! ^^
I agreed wiv wt G jie hv said, "love isn't everything in life, bt one's life will nt complete without love".. so to all my frens who r still S&A, start observing for potential bf/gf nw.. they might jz bside u, altho u didn't noe them... bt thrs alwiz a high chance for u to get urself a sweet sweet lover.. =p
Wish u all will hv a gd relationship soon n stay happy alwiz!! ^^
Sunday, April 4, 2010
wU-LiAo
It's week 13 now... gosh!!! means i left oni 2 weeks b4 sitting for my final... i noe i shud feel nervous and shud start praying nw.. LOL.. bt sumhw i feel a little happy for it.. =) wonder m i started to lose my mind?? haha... nway ignore me... jz crapping.. =p
I m stil working on my last assignment hr.. hoping tat i could finish it b4 tis sat... n then i can focus on my revision for finals.. ^^ i noe tat it will end b4 i hv notice tat it act started... so i jz wish tat i could go thru it smoothly and of cz, i will do my very best for it.. ^.~
After finals... its TIME for me to HAVE FUN!!!!! muahaha... =p
I can't wait to pay for a visit to my besties... other than this, thr r lots of movies for me to catch up... sing k and yc session that i missed b4... and oso shopping!!!! though i doubt that will i hv any extra money for that.. haha.. bt i dun care... window shopping is sumtimes better than nth nway.. =p
Altho i feel so much wana hang out wiv frens nw, i hv to tahan till i finish my final.. days r bored as d time i used to stay inside my room increased drastically =.= wil oni go out fr d hse to hv lunch wiv mum o visit my grandma.. *sighz... it's alright!! since thrs oni 3 more weeks to go.. thk i can do it... wonder hw i did it?
I m stil working on my last assignment hr.. hoping tat i could finish it b4 tis sat... n then i can focus on my revision for finals.. ^^ i noe tat it will end b4 i hv notice tat it act started... so i jz wish tat i could go thru it smoothly and of cz, i will do my very best for it.. ^.~
After finals... its TIME for me to HAVE FUN!!!!! muahaha... =p
I can't wait to pay for a visit to my besties... other than this, thr r lots of movies for me to catch up... sing k and yc session that i missed b4... and oso shopping!!!! though i doubt that will i hv any extra money for that.. haha.. bt i dun care... window shopping is sumtimes better than nth nway.. =p
Altho i feel so much wana hang out wiv frens nw, i hv to tahan till i finish my final.. days r bored as d time i used to stay inside my room increased drastically =.= wil oni go out fr d hse to hv lunch wiv mum o visit my grandma.. *sighz... it's alright!! since thrs oni 3 more weeks to go.. thk i can do it... wonder hw i did it?
* Sabar... SAbar... SABar... SABAr... SABAR!!!! *
Tat's right!! tat's exactly wt i do wenever i m impatient... haha... used to tell myself to b sabar... altho i noe well tat i m sabar..ing ady.. =p LOL
Alright!! enuff crap.. =p thk i shud go bek to my assignments nw.. see ya till my nxt visit!! ^.~
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
be"LIE"ve
<< beLIEve >>, thr r alwiz LIE in between d believe...
So wt can i say bout it? tat d real world is full of lies and ppl cant live without depending on lying?
Honestly, i know its pessimistic for me to thk like tat.. bt to sum extent, i thk d quote is perfectly true and yet sad.. Its like losing faith in everything tat u hv used to believe in..
Yes... i admit tat i m losing my faith nw.. bit by bit.. i m losing it... its sad for me to say tat... bt sumhw its true..
I used to tel myself nt to hv expectations in order nt to get myself disappointed later... bt stil i wil alwiz expect for sth more... n i hv put my hope on it... >.< even though i noe tat at last thr is a high chance for me to get disappointment.... then m i stupid to hope for it?
I oso used to tel myself tat thr r alwiz choices for us to make... n thr wil alwiz hope at d dead end... all it need is jz a little faith n courage... bt hr cums d Q nw... hw many of us can really hv faith wiv d heart n soul? u might choose to trust it... bt ur faith in it wil nt stay long... as u wil face a lot of obstacles which wil challenge ur faith within it... so hw many of us could actually manage to keep their faith till d end?
I m sure most of us hv experienced it b4.. including myself of cz.. i cant say tat i m strong.. bt i would said tat i hv learned my lesson well... I failed it once n it took me quite sum time to recover b4 i could started to build my confidence n faith agin... so i will nt allow myself to fail for d 2nd time...
Some of u might disagree wiv my opinion n might oso thk tat i m jz thinking a lil too much... bt i jz wana say tat everyone learn fr their past experience n grow fr their failure.. so do i...
There is a fren who once asked me, "i wonder who can ever enter into ur safe zone?"... does he jz said safe zone?? sounds like a battlefield to me nw.. lol.. =p bt honestly i was surprised tat he could act said tat out... may b he was right nway.. i hv alwiz hide inside my safe zone.. used to keep a fair distance wiv everyone except myself n sum of my besties.. n used to avoid n ignore any unexpected things tat happened around me.. tats bcz i noe tat as long as i stay inside d zone, i wil b safe... is tat so? o its jz a coward n stupid act of me?
It's 1.30am n i thk i shud go sleep by nw... wish tat tmr wil b a brand new day... nitez..
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
To mY BeLovEd...
Just finished my Adv PM mid term paper an hour ago... hopefully i can pass it nway... praying hard since yesterday till i finish d paper... LOL... bt i thk my hard work was paid tis time.. cz UNEXPECTEDLY, i can answer d Qs given... THANK GOD!! =p I m nt sure whether i will get marks for it, bt still i m happy tat i can answer it. hehe..
So.. i hv decided to write a post for my beloved ones... =p Jz to let them noe hw "deep" my love was to them and honestly, i REALLY do hope they will LOVE me as much as i did... XD
Here it goes!!!
To my beloved APM,
U will nvr noe hw much i hate ur younger brother b4 i get to noe u... he is stubborn, unpredictable, hard to please and demanding... i tot i would nvr understand him... BUT d truth proves me wrong as i got d return fr him at last... phew!! LUCKY me!! hehe... i oso tot i will nvr met his families agin after i had broke up wiv him... but AGAIN d truth proves me WRONG!! cz i met U!!! Honestly, i was scared and panic wen i noe tat i hv to face wiv u for 4 months... i m afraid tat i will fail u agin... bt i will do my best to love u more after today.. so plz show me another miracle, will ya? ^^
To my beloved RM,
I still rmb when i met u for d 1st time... u r nth bt dull, bored, and quiet... sorry to say tat... tats my 1st impression on u... ^^ " i tot i will nvr love sumone like u... bt i found tat i started to love u more after i got to noe more about u... n so nw i m working hard on understand more about u... i believe tat u will not disappoint me... so plz start to love me if u haven... n love me more if u already did!! =p
To my beloved M1,
This is our second relationship, i nvr tot tat v will end our 1st in tat way.. = ( bt its OK!!!! i will prove my love to u again since i was given d 2nd chance to do so.. i will try my best to understand u.. BELIEVE me!!! n plz love me as i did to u... i hope tat our relationship could hv a nice ending tis time... preferably for this semester of cz.. XD so plz bear wiv me for another 4 weeks... promise tat u will show me ur love then... n i m sure tat will b d best i can get from u... ^^
To my beloved POM,
I have met u few times b4... so i could say tat thrs a strong bond between us... u r one of my necessity and belief.. so hw could i ever let u down?? LOL... =p i couldn't proceed without u... plz help me to get out from tis hell n lead me to a brighter path... i m counting on u!!! so plz dun let me down, promise? hehe..=p
Sincerely,
WenBin ^.~
So.. i hv decided to write a post for my beloved ones... =p Jz to let them noe hw "deep" my love was to them and honestly, i REALLY do hope they will LOVE me as much as i did... XD
Here it goes!!!
To my beloved APM,
U will nvr noe hw much i hate ur younger brother b4 i get to noe u... he is stubborn, unpredictable, hard to please and demanding... i tot i would nvr understand him... BUT d truth proves me wrong as i got d return fr him at last... phew!! LUCKY me!! hehe... i oso tot i will nvr met his families agin after i had broke up wiv him... but AGAIN d truth proves me WRONG!! cz i met U!!! Honestly, i was scared and panic wen i noe tat i hv to face wiv u for 4 months... i m afraid tat i will fail u agin... bt i will do my best to love u more after today.. so plz show me another miracle, will ya? ^^
To my beloved RM,
I still rmb when i met u for d 1st time... u r nth bt dull, bored, and quiet... sorry to say tat... tats my 1st impression on u... ^^ " i tot i will nvr love sumone like u... bt i found tat i started to love u more after i got to noe more about u... n so nw i m working hard on understand more about u... i believe tat u will not disappoint me... so plz start to love me if u haven... n love me more if u already did!! =p
To my beloved M1,
This is our second relationship, i nvr tot tat v will end our 1st in tat way.. = ( bt its OK!!!! i will prove my love to u again since i was given d 2nd chance to do so.. i will try my best to understand u.. BELIEVE me!!! n plz love me as i did to u... i hope tat our relationship could hv a nice ending tis time... preferably for this semester of cz.. XD so plz bear wiv me for another 4 weeks... promise tat u will show me ur love then... n i m sure tat will b d best i can get from u... ^^
To my beloved POM,
I have met u few times b4... so i could say tat thrs a strong bond between us... u r one of my necessity and belief.. so hw could i ever let u down?? LOL... =p i couldn't proceed without u... plz help me to get out from tis hell n lead me to a brighter path... i m counting on u!!! so plz dun let me down, promise? hehe..=p
Sincerely,
WenBin ^.~
Monday, March 22, 2010
tHe InDeciSivE ME
It's week 11 of my study week, after so much effort and hard work tat i paid... (wiv all those "lovely-little-red spots" and oso a pair of "sexy-looking-smokey-eye" makeup on my face)... LOL... FINALLY i left wiv oni 2 presentations, 2 mid term papers, and 1 assignment to go.. lol.. though i noe tat thrs still A LOT of work undone.. bt sumhw i still thk tat its better than d last 2 weeks ago. ^^
Frens, plz bear wiv me for another few more weeks, n i promise i will b total free to meet up wiv u gals. hehe.. =p Then v can go for shopping.. yc session.. food hunting.. trip.. yes!! lalalala... I am kinda excited wenever i thk bout it.. lol.. XD
I will be sitting for my final exam in another 3 weeks time, which oso means tat its d end of d sem. I oso noe tat its time tat i shud hv make up my mind. sighz... n tats wen i noe tat hw indecisive i m act. *sad... Sumtimes i wonder wts act in my mind, can thr b a possibility tat i dun even noe it myself? Honestly, i thk i m act... =.=
Yea.. without any doubt, I thk i m jz a COWARD afterall.. alwiz chickened out at d vy last mins.. n I m oso a SELFISH person... will oni thk bout me n myself all d time.. wt else? Yes... i m STUPID too.. alwiz can't make d right decision.. *sighz... thk i m jz hopeless huh.. >.< "
I hv no idea wiv wth i m thinking nw... my mind was plain blank.. can't even see whr is d nxt step tat i shud take.. does tat make me look more stupid n silly? As usual AGAIN.. i thk i m.. =.= I m nt sure wts bothering me n restraining me fr making d move.. I thk i do feel sth.. bt is it really wt i wan? n is it really wt i shud do? I m jz so confused...
I thk i shud really spend sum time to thk bout it seriously. Wish tat everything will go on smoothly nway... tats all i hope for nw.. =)
Frens, plz bear wiv me for another few more weeks, n i promise i will b total free to meet up wiv u gals. hehe.. =p Then v can go for shopping.. yc session.. food hunting.. trip.. yes!! lalalala... I am kinda excited wenever i thk bout it.. lol.. XD
I will be sitting for my final exam in another 3 weeks time, which oso means tat its d end of d sem. I oso noe tat its time tat i shud hv make up my mind. sighz... n tats wen i noe tat hw indecisive i m act. *sad... Sumtimes i wonder wts act in my mind, can thr b a possibility tat i dun even noe it myself? Honestly, i thk i m act... =.=
Yea.. without any doubt, I thk i m jz a COWARD afterall.. alwiz chickened out at d vy last mins.. n I m oso a SELFISH person... will oni thk bout me n myself all d time.. wt else? Yes... i m STUPID too.. alwiz can't make d right decision.. *sighz... thk i m jz hopeless huh.. >.< "
I hv no idea wiv wth i m thinking nw... my mind was plain blank.. can't even see whr is d nxt step tat i shud take.. does tat make me look more stupid n silly? As usual AGAIN.. i thk i m.. =.= I m nt sure wts bothering me n restraining me fr making d move.. I thk i do feel sth.. bt is it really wt i wan? n is it really wt i shud do? I m jz so confused...
I thk i shud really spend sum time to thk bout it seriously. Wish tat everything will go on smoothly nway... tats all i hope for nw.. =)
Thursday, March 11, 2010
it'S jUsT a "LITTLE".....
*sigH... siGH... sIGHzzzzz...... =.= gosh.. wts goin on wiv me? plz dun ask me, cz i dun even noe d answer myself... ishh... >.< thk i m jz feeling a LITTLE stressful... a LITTLE tired... a LITTLE frustrated and... and... and... a LITTLE xxxx .... Erm... xxxx? wt izit act? WELL... thk i m goin to keep tis lil secret for my own... deep down inside my heart... LOL =p plz forgive me frens.. din mean to keep secret fr u all... bt sumtimes v do hv sum darkest n unrevealable lil secret of our own.. hehe... i m sure all of us hv it.. agree? ^.~
Its mid of March nw... time really does fly... jz a clip of d eyes n POFF!!! its nw March 2010... haha... thk v nvr need a Harry Potter in d real life to cast d spell... cz d time will alwiz pass by magically n left us wiv regrets n oso LOTS of things undone. =p March is nt my lucky month... i hv few assignments on hand, two interviews and two individual presentation to go, and... yea... i still hv to sit for my mid term. tat's jz GREAT!!! n i m still blogging hr.. altho i noe tat i still hv so much works to catch up. >.< ishhh... nway its ok!!! tats wt i m used to tell myself... i will b FINE!!! i will get through it no matter hw!!! jz like wt i did d lasT time.. d laST LAST time... n d lAST LAST LAST time... lol.. YES!!! I CAN also DO IT tis time for sure!!! ^^v
Then y i still hv tis kind of feeling nw? even though i already know wt i shud do and i hv decided tat i will do my best for it. But deep inside my heart, i noe tat thrs sth vy important. It jz make me feel so uncertain n unsecure... why?? thk i wouldn't noe...
I know i do sounds a LITTLE emotion unstable nw.. =.=" bt without any doubt and hesitation, i can tell u tat i m completely fine nw.. jz a LITTLE xxxx act... arghhh... honestly i hate tis kind of feeling tat i m having nw... >.<" i shudn't let it get into my studies... i shudn't let it affect my feeling... i oso shudn't let it run in my mind alwiz... i shudn't.... OK!! TAT'S ENOUGH!!! wish tat i could cope wiv it REAL SOON.... yea... HOPEFULLY...
Alright frens... thk u all mz b confused wiv wth i m talking hr nw... surprised tat hw i noe? BELIEVE me... i really do noe cz i m jz feeling d same rite nw... =p
Its mid of March nw... time really does fly... jz a clip of d eyes n POFF!!! its nw March 2010... haha... thk v nvr need a Harry Potter in d real life to cast d spell... cz d time will alwiz pass by magically n left us wiv regrets n oso LOTS of things undone. =p March is nt my lucky month... i hv few assignments on hand, two interviews and two individual presentation to go, and... yea... i still hv to sit for my mid term. tat's jz GREAT!!! n i m still blogging hr.. altho i noe tat i still hv so much works to catch up. >.< ishhh... nway its ok!!! tats wt i m used to tell myself... i will b FINE!!! i will get through it no matter hw!!! jz like wt i did d lasT time.. d laST LAST time... n d lAST LAST LAST time... lol.. YES!!! I CAN also DO IT tis time for sure!!! ^^v
Then y i still hv tis kind of feeling nw? even though i already know wt i shud do and i hv decided tat i will do my best for it. But deep inside my heart, i noe tat thrs sth vy important. It jz make me feel so uncertain n unsecure... why?? thk i wouldn't noe...
I know i do sounds a LITTLE emotion unstable nw.. =.=" bt without any doubt and hesitation, i can tell u tat i m completely fine nw.. jz a LITTLE xxxx act... arghhh... honestly i hate tis kind of feeling tat i m having nw... >.<" i shudn't let it get into my studies... i shudn't let it affect my feeling... i oso shudn't let it run in my mind alwiz... i shudn't.... OK!! TAT'S ENOUGH!!! wish tat i could cope wiv it REAL SOON.... yea... HOPEFULLY...
Alright frens... thk u all mz b confused wiv wth i m talking hr nw... surprised tat hw i noe? BELIEVE me... i really do noe cz i m jz feeling d same rite nw... =p
Sunday, March 7, 2010
iT's ManGoLiciOus!!!
Today was a fine day for me.. everythings is fine.. n as usual, except d weather of cz.. =.=
I went to MANGO MANIA wiv mei today... hehe.. its located in Bangsar, right behind Bangsar Village 2.. ^^ It's a nice place... cz they sell everything made by MANGO!!!! They hv MANGO smoothie, MANGO ice cream, MANGO cheesecake... even MANGO BURGER!! lol... its a paradise for mango lover like us... muahaha... =p Me and mei hv ordered smoothie (cube cube mango and tropical smoothie), asian mango salad, fish and chips, and finally v round it up wiv a piece of mango cheesecake.. which we love it d most.. ^^
We had sum "photo shooting session" at d restaurant as usual... wiv all those foods and drinks.. n i really dont thk its a gd idea... lol.. as v looked so "piggy" in d photo taken.. u noe wt i mean.. haha... omg.. n nw i m started to feel guilty cz stuffed all those things into stomach.. =p
I usually eat A LOT wen hang out wiv mei... as v both likes to eat... (especially nice n special foods...) lol... thk its kinda obvious.. u can easily see it fr our size... haha.. =p The food in Mango Mania is nice... altho its quite fattening.. n u might hv a high chance in getting diabetes later.. ^^ " bt overall, its really nice... ^^ if u ask me whether i wil visit Mango Mania agin... my answer would b a definite "YES"!! hehe...
We oso went to d boutiques nearby tat area... saw sum nice clothes n bags.. bt sadly, hv no money for tat.. =.= * sighz... v used nt more than 3 hrs to walk through Bangsar Village 1 n 2 and oso a few boutiques nearby.. n d worst is v started to get sleepy.. so later v hv decided to find a place to yc..
I got my lessons learned... will try nt to look at d menu nxt time wen wana make my order.. lol... cz seems like our eyes is kinda "sensitive" to desserts... n v couldn't resist bt to order it.. >.< " so v hv ordered another piece of cheesecake agin.. oni tis time no more mango.. haha.. v spend d rest of d day in d cafe.. chatted a lot... n oso GOSSIP a lot.. (AS USUAL... lol...) n v called it off a day after d yc session.. ^^
I went to MANGO MANIA wiv mei today... hehe.. its located in Bangsar, right behind Bangsar Village 2.. ^^ It's a nice place... cz they sell everything made by MANGO!!!! They hv MANGO smoothie, MANGO ice cream, MANGO cheesecake... even MANGO BURGER!! lol... its a paradise for mango lover like us... muahaha... =p Me and mei hv ordered smoothie (cube cube mango and tropical smoothie), asian mango salad, fish and chips, and finally v round it up wiv a piece of mango cheesecake.. which we love it d most.. ^^
We had sum "photo shooting session" at d restaurant as usual... wiv all those foods and drinks.. n i really dont thk its a gd idea... lol.. as v looked so "piggy" in d photo taken.. u noe wt i mean.. haha... omg.. n nw i m started to feel guilty cz stuffed all those things into stomach.. =p
I usually eat A LOT wen hang out wiv mei... as v both likes to eat... (especially nice n special foods...) lol... thk its kinda obvious.. u can easily see it fr our size... haha.. =p The food in Mango Mania is nice... altho its quite fattening.. n u might hv a high chance in getting diabetes later.. ^^ " bt overall, its really nice... ^^ if u ask me whether i wil visit Mango Mania agin... my answer would b a definite "YES"!! hehe...
We oso went to d boutiques nearby tat area... saw sum nice clothes n bags.. bt sadly, hv no money for tat.. =.= * sighz... v used nt more than 3 hrs to walk through Bangsar Village 1 n 2 and oso a few boutiques nearby.. n d worst is v started to get sleepy.. so later v hv decided to find a place to yc..
I got my lessons learned... will try nt to look at d menu nxt time wen wana make my order.. lol... cz seems like our eyes is kinda "sensitive" to desserts... n v couldn't resist bt to order it.. >.< " so v hv ordered another piece of cheesecake agin.. oni tis time no more mango.. haha.. v spend d rest of d day in d cafe.. chatted a lot... n oso GOSSIP a lot.. (AS USUAL... lol...) n v called it off a day after d yc session.. ^^
I would say tat it's my MaNgoLiciOus day!!!
Friday, March 5, 2010
My unLucKy day
Today was a really bad day for me. *sigh... I had woke up early in the morning, then drove for more than half an hour juz to attend my math tutorial class.. and u noe wt? my "brilliant" maths tutor chose to cancel the class for sum stupid reason.. (he told us tat he is still stuck in d traffic sumwhr near Putrajaya).. =.=" wt a irresponsible tutor!! Don't he noe tat we have waited him for an hour inside the class..? (wiv most of us minds still wondering around and sum chit-chatting..) hoping tat he would show up at last as he promised during d lecture.. and d best part is tat he asked us to join the 2nd tut class at 12.30pm.. (ACCORDING to wt he said, he would PROBABLY b thr by tat time..) wtf...
Most of d student choose to leave d class.. (including me of cz.. =p) which i thk tats perfectly normal response... wt else could u expect fr us if d turor himself couldn't keep his promise?? That was my 1st unlucky incident 2day..
Secondly, i planned to cook myself seafood yee mee for dinner.. and i had prepare all d ingredients for it.. when i wana start cooking, i found tat thrs no water supply =.=" WUT..THE...!! so me n my mum have to go out for dinner.. after all the discussion and arguement (apparently we hv our own preference place for dinner...ishhh...) we hv decided to go for kopitiam.. (which we can find most type of d food tat can satisfy us..)
By the time i reached d makan place and finally parked my car, d parking lot guy (which is an indian) approached me.. i tot he wana ask parking fee fr me.. bt d 1st thing he told me is tat my car tyre punctured.. OMG!! (tis is my 3rd unlucky incident 2day..wth!!) luckily tat indian guy had offered his help to replace d tyre for me.. bt my car tools is nt complete.. d most important tools which can help to lift up my car is MISSING!! =.= d indian guy leave no choice bt to ask help fr his frens.. later 2 other indian guy came wiv their tools n help me to replace d tyre.. THANKS to them A LOT!! if nt.. i dun thk i m manage to handle it myself.. as i didn't noe hw to replace a tyre.. ^^ "
I tot of paying them for their kindness, bt they didn't wan to receive it... so all i can do is to repeat my thank you to them few times, to show them hw grateful m i for their help... ^^ (its wen i truly feel tat d "one malaysia" vision is nt oni a dream.... =p) n i thk its my 2nd lucky 2day except d rain falls in d late noon... lol...
Most of d student choose to leave d class.. (including me of cz.. =p) which i thk tats perfectly normal response... wt else could u expect fr us if d turor himself couldn't keep his promise?? That was my 1st unlucky incident 2day..
Secondly, i planned to cook myself seafood yee mee for dinner.. and i had prepare all d ingredients for it.. when i wana start cooking, i found tat thrs no water supply =.=" WUT..THE...!! so me n my mum have to go out for dinner.. after all the discussion and arguement (apparently we hv our own preference place for dinner...ishhh...) we hv decided to go for kopitiam.. (which we can find most type of d food tat can satisfy us..)
By the time i reached d makan place and finally parked my car, d parking lot guy (which is an indian) approached me.. i tot he wana ask parking fee fr me.. bt d 1st thing he told me is tat my car tyre punctured.. OMG!! (tis is my 3rd unlucky incident 2day..wth!!) luckily tat indian guy had offered his help to replace d tyre for me.. bt my car tools is nt complete.. d most important tools which can help to lift up my car is MISSING!! =.= d indian guy leave no choice bt to ask help fr his frens.. later 2 other indian guy came wiv their tools n help me to replace d tyre.. THANKS to them A LOT!! if nt.. i dun thk i m manage to handle it myself.. as i didn't noe hw to replace a tyre.. ^^ "
I tot of paying them for their kindness, bt they didn't wan to receive it... so all i can do is to repeat my thank you to them few times, to show them hw grateful m i for their help... ^^ (its wen i truly feel tat d "one malaysia" vision is nt oni a dream.... =p) n i thk its my 2nd lucky 2day except d rain falls in d late noon... lol...
Life was like a box of chocolate, you never know what you're gonna get...
by Forrest Gump
I truly agree tat.. bt too much sweetness can alwiz cause diabetes.. =p lol... jz like our life, a little surprises can alwiz helps spice up our day n make it more beautiful n challenging.. BUT... TOO MUCH surprises can alwiz cause HEART ATTACK... lol... =p
I thk tats all i need to say to conclude my day... its really nt a gd day for me.. bt sumhow thrs ALWIZ HOPE AT D DEAD END... so one shud NVR STOP HOPING and DREAM BIG... ^.~
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
恶梦
常听别人说：
“日有所思 夜有所梦”
因为 白天常想着某些事 所以连睡觉也会梦见
如果说 好梦是心底里最渴望的东西
就因为 常想着要得到 所以在梦里让我们实现
那恶梦 算什么？
我想 恶梦也许是人心底里面
最黑暗 也最让人害怕 的真相吧
是这样吗？
就因为 不敢大声说出来
那长久积压在心里深处的黑暗 才会在梦里寻找发泄的出口
变成了 让人从睡梦中惊醒 冒尽冷汗的 恶魔吧
恶梦 是不受欢迎的
可想而知 它是多么讨人厌
无论是现实中 还是 睡梦中的 恶梦
都让人 避之而吉
老人说 只要诚心向佛祈祷许愿 愿望就会实现
而做人只要端正老实 就不怕恶梦的来袭
因为佛会保佑好人
但最近 恶梦连连
难道是 代表了我人不好？还是我不够诚心？
所以 让我在恶梦中检讨自己？
无论怎样 我只希望
恶梦能赶快消失 让我早日醒来
还我 无忧无虑的好睡眠
“日有所思 夜有所梦”
因为 白天常想着某些事 所以连睡觉也会梦见
如果说 好梦是心底里最渴望的东西
就因为 常想着要得到 所以在梦里让我们实现
那恶梦 算什么？
我想 恶梦也许是人心底里面
最黑暗 也最让人害怕 的真相吧
是这样吗？
就因为 不敢大声说出来
那长久积压在心里深处的黑暗 才会在梦里寻找发泄的出口
变成了 让人从睡梦中惊醒 冒尽冷汗的 恶魔吧
恶梦 是不受欢迎的
可想而知 它是多么讨人厌
无论是现实中 还是 睡梦中的 恶梦
都让人 避之而吉
老人说 只要诚心向佛祈祷许愿 愿望就会实现
而做人只要端正老实 就不怕恶梦的来袭
因为佛会保佑好人
但最近 恶梦连连
难道是 代表了我人不好？还是我不够诚心？
所以 让我在恶梦中检讨自己？
无论怎样 我只希望
恶梦能赶快消失 让我早日醒来
还我 无忧无虑的好睡眠
一个人
年初三
大部分的人都忙着去拜年
而我 选择拒绝好友的邀请 呆在家陪妈妈
天气晴朗的一天 但心情却是郁闷的
没有原因 也不知为何
只觉得 自己孤单得有点无助
早已训练自己不再依赖
只因清楚 自己是多么的懦弱
怕习惯了依赖 会不舍得放开双手
从小就知道 自己责任重大
坚强 勇敢 独立 自主 都是该有的性格
而我 又做到了那一点？
像催眠般地 常告诉自己
一个人的生活 很好 也很自由
但 为何每次想放声大哭时 都希望有个肩膀的出现？
每当和好友们见面后
自己一个人驾车在公路上奔驰
那种感觉 很自由 但同时 也安静得过分
不是没有人 关心 爱护
而是 到最后 还是选择了一个人去面对
可能真的 习惯了
新年时期 喜庆节日
这一刻 我才终于感到自己
好孤独
大部分的人都忙着去拜年
而我 选择拒绝好友的邀请 呆在家陪妈妈
天气晴朗的一天 但心情却是郁闷的
没有原因 也不知为何
只觉得 自己孤单得有点无助
早已训练自己不再依赖
只因清楚 自己是多么的懦弱
怕习惯了依赖 会不舍得放开双手
从小就知道 自己责任重大
坚强 勇敢 独立 自主 都是该有的性格
而我 又做到了那一点？
像催眠般地 常告诉自己
一个人的生活 很好 也很自由
但 为何每次想放声大哭时 都希望有个肩膀的出现？
每当和好友们见面后
自己一个人驾车在公路上奔驰
那种感觉 很自由 但同时 也安静得过分
不是没有人 关心 爱护
而是 到最后 还是选择了一个人去面对
可能真的 习惯了
新年时期 喜庆节日
这一刻 我才终于感到自己
好孤独
Sunday, February 7, 2010
我家老爸
今天，妈妈出去了，留下我和我老爸。
下午跑步回来，不见得有把那逐渐堆积回来的油脂跑掉，却反而把胃口跑掉了。=.=" 本来不想去吃晚饭的我，被老爸关心的说一说，没办法，就只好跟老爸一起去吃晚饭咯。
经过了和老爸的一番商量（其实还说不上商量，因为我们只用了不到五分钟的时间，就决定了晚餐的地点），最后决定在住家附近的小吃店解决。对小吃店兴致不大的我，本来想反悔不去，怎知老爸竟然说载我去吃我想吃的。O.o 天啊，这是我老爸在说话吗？哈哈... 一开始我还以为是自己的错觉呢... =p 没办法，谁叫我家老爸很少有那么贴心的时候。不过，听了心里还真是感动了一下下。虽然最后，还是去了附近的小吃店。^^
小吃店离家不远，步行五分钟就到了。记忆中，好像很久没有和老爸一起步行了。以前，当我们还是租房子的时候，我还小，老爸或抱着我或牵起我的手一步一步的走回家。但随着年龄增长，我和老爸却越行越远。
我们一家三口，除了爸妈，就是我。小小的家，不大，却温暖。老爸不是个多话的人，有点大男人，也有点守旧。对于女孩的心事，他不明了，也不多问。少年时期的我，总觉得老爸不关心我。有时小姐脾气闹起来，对着老爸也没什么好脸色。和老爸的沟通方式通常都是明嘲来、暗讽去的。久而久之，我也不习惯和老爸单独相处，因为总觉得很不自在。
不过今天，和老爸吃晚饭的一个小时里。我们竟然奇迹般的相处自然、交谈愉快。老爸还真是令我大开眼界一下... 这已经是今天第二次令我掉眼镜了... 哈哈... 因为难得老爸这么多话... =p
老爸的关怀方式是别扭的、含蓄的，很少能从老爸嘴里听到关心的话语。就算有，通常也是粗声粗气地“命令式”关心。粗心的我，总忽略了老爸的好意。现在回想起来，还真有点惭愧。
无可否认，我对老爸是粗心的。比起老爸，我更关心妈妈。可能因为都是女生的关系吧，总觉得妈妈比较容易亲近、也比较聊得来，所以从小比较爱妈妈。我想要是老爸知道了，应该要难过吃醋了。哈哈... =p
刚才就在步行的几分钟里，我想起了很多。想起了老爸在我懒惰走路时，抱着我上楼梯... 想起老爸在我嫌书包重时，替我拿书包... 想起老爸替我清理脚上的伤... 想起老爸看到我肚子痛得死去活来时，手忙脚乱的样子... 想起老爸在我发脾气时，不单不责怪反而包容的样子... 想起老爸在背后默默支持守护的时候... =)
老爸对我们也有粗心的时候，但我又何尝不是呢？或许我也不该对老爸要求太多，毕竟他也给了我很多很多。老爸不曾要求我什么，每当我以为又浪费了他的钱、又令他失望的时候，他却总是一副无所谓的样子。但我却总以为老爸很吝啬... >.<
虽然老爸不像妈妈那么温柔、也没有妈妈的细心... 但我想老爸没有的，还有妈妈补回去吧... 老爸还是保持老爸的样子比较好，不然我可不知要配多少副眼镜来掉了... 哈哈... =p 老爸... paise啦... 也不是刻意损你的... 不过就算你知道了，也不会介意吧... 嘻嘻
很想跟你说... 老爸... 谢谢你!!! ^^
下午跑步回来，不见得有把那逐渐堆积回来的油脂跑掉，却反而把胃口跑掉了。=.=" 本来不想去吃晚饭的我，被老爸关心的说一说，没办法，就只好跟老爸一起去吃晚饭咯。
经过了和老爸的一番商量（其实还说不上商量，因为我们只用了不到五分钟的时间，就决定了晚餐的地点），最后决定在住家附近的小吃店解决。对小吃店兴致不大的我，本来想反悔不去，怎知老爸竟然说载我去吃我想吃的。O.o 天啊，这是我老爸在说话吗？哈哈... 一开始我还以为是自己的错觉呢... =p 没办法，谁叫我家老爸很少有那么贴心的时候。不过，听了心里还真是感动了一下下。虽然最后，还是去了附近的小吃店。^^
小吃店离家不远，步行五分钟就到了。记忆中，好像很久没有和老爸一起步行了。以前，当我们还是租房子的时候，我还小，老爸或抱着我或牵起我的手一步一步的走回家。但随着年龄增长，我和老爸却越行越远。
我们一家三口，除了爸妈，就是我。小小的家，不大，却温暖。老爸不是个多话的人，有点大男人，也有点守旧。对于女孩的心事，他不明了，也不多问。少年时期的我，总觉得老爸不关心我。有时小姐脾气闹起来，对着老爸也没什么好脸色。和老爸的沟通方式通常都是明嘲来、暗讽去的。久而久之，我也不习惯和老爸单独相处，因为总觉得很不自在。
不过今天，和老爸吃晚饭的一个小时里。我们竟然奇迹般的相处自然、交谈愉快。老爸还真是令我大开眼界一下... 这已经是今天第二次令我掉眼镜了... 哈哈... 因为难得老爸这么多话... =p
老爸的关怀方式是别扭的、含蓄的，很少能从老爸嘴里听到关心的话语。就算有，通常也是粗声粗气地“命令式”关心。粗心的我，总忽略了老爸的好意。现在回想起来，还真有点惭愧。
无可否认，我对老爸是粗心的。比起老爸，我更关心妈妈。可能因为都是女生的关系吧，总觉得妈妈比较容易亲近、也比较聊得来，所以从小比较爱妈妈。我想要是老爸知道了，应该要难过吃醋了。哈哈... =p
刚才就在步行的几分钟里，我想起了很多。想起了老爸在我懒惰走路时，抱着我上楼梯... 想起老爸在我嫌书包重时，替我拿书包... 想起老爸替我清理脚上的伤... 想起老爸看到我肚子痛得死去活来时，手忙脚乱的样子... 想起老爸在我发脾气时，不单不责怪反而包容的样子... 想起老爸在背后默默支持守护的时候... =)
老爸对我们也有粗心的时候，但我又何尝不是呢？或许我也不该对老爸要求太多，毕竟他也给了我很多很多。老爸不曾要求我什么，每当我以为又浪费了他的钱、又令他失望的时候，他却总是一副无所谓的样子。但我却总以为老爸很吝啬... >.<
虽然老爸不像妈妈那么温柔、也没有妈妈的细心... 但我想老爸没有的，还有妈妈补回去吧... 老爸还是保持老爸的样子比较好，不然我可不知要配多少副眼镜来掉了... 哈哈... =p 老爸... paise啦... 也不是刻意损你的... 不过就算你知道了，也不会介意吧... 嘻嘻
很想跟你说... 老爸... 谢谢你!!! ^^
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